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Suzy Sep 2019
I wait for the night
So I can be alone with you

Where I lay in the darkness and you’re  so so close.
Close enough to whisper to
Close enough to breathe you in
Close enough to arouse every nerve I possess
But still not close enough to touch
Because then I wake again
Suzy Aug 2019
I’ve been drinking.
I drunk text you again .
For now your mine I can say whatever I feel.
Whatever I want .
Whatever I **** well please.
The morning shame will come but
It’s all I’ve got
I need this moment with you
Suzy Aug 2019
I start my day ...
‘I can’t do this ‘
I finish my day ...
‘ I did it ‘
Suzy Aug 2019
I see you every day
Your closeness
Your smile
Your presence
It’s suffocating
I want you every day
I see the outline of your body below your clothes
It drives me Insane
The need to touch
The desire to be closer to you than i know I’ll ever be
Your in my dreams , your my waking thought.
I know it’s not love but it’s consuming me , this lust , this feeling, this need to feel you .
I want you,I want you more than I want tomorrow to come
Suzy Aug 2019
You lie,
So easily ,
So desperately ,
I know the truth and still ,
You lie,
I should walk away ,
I should run,
But I stay ,
As you lie some more ,
Deep down I know,
I should go,
But I stay ,
I want to scream in your face,
LIAR,
But I stay ,
Quiet and loyal ,
As I’ll always be ,
Suzy Sep 2019
I get my first hit
I feel the burn in my chest
The drug begins to soothe me
It reaches my brain
I feel strong
I feel warm
My nerves run wild
My feelings are free
I just want to dance

But then ....

The moment wears off
I can’t have any more


For you are my drug
My addiction
My need
I see you , you are my hit .
You leave and I crave you
My body hurts
My thoughts make no sense
I just need a hit
A moment with you
Suzy Sep 2019
He’s here again
My imaginary friend
Keeping me safe
Keeping me warm
I know you can’t see him
Sometimes he hides
Sometimes he’s bad
He likes to play games
But I know he’s there
Watching me...
Watching you
Suzy Aug 2019
It’s been a week.
How is it only a week.
I feel empty.
Without you .
I could just call .
I could just turn up at your door.
But this utter desperation is addictive.
The thrill of tomorrow will come.
When you’re smile , your touch will make the world disappear.
Then the countdown begins.
For the next seven days .
Til it’s been a week .
How is it only a week
Suzy Sep 2019
When
I
Needed
You
The
Most
Infact
You were
Not
What
I
Needed
At
All
Suzy Sep 2019
Shall I ?
Should I send that message ?
Should I make that call ?
I want to ...
Maybe I will

I probably shouldn’t
I’ll just be ignored
I’ll just be a pest
I’m not sure I should
I probably won’t
Suzy Aug 2019
I’m tired .
I’m tired of wanting you .
I’m tired of waiting .
I’m tired of the frustration that builds inside me at the mention of your name.
I’m tired of knowing it cannot be .
I’m tired of the pain, the elation , the extreme rollercoaster of feelings that happen within minutes of being near you .
When will the tiredness stop ?
Suzy Sep 2019
Today my world fell apart
I realised finally that I’m living a dream

You do not feel it
You do not care
I am just another someone
I cared
I wanted you
I still do
I believed for so long there was something there
Even if it was subtle, the signs discreet.
But today , I know I’m on my own
Your young , your free
I’m dying inside with my emotions you’ll never understand
Today my world fell apart
Suzy Sep 2019
‘Why me ‘ he says

‘Why you’ I say
‘I wish I knew ‘

The feeling is overwhelming
The frustration is consuming
The desire is deliciously warming
This emotion is heartfelt and so very real .
‘So ‘ I say
That’s why

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