‘Why me ‘ he says

‘Why you’ I say
‘I wish I knew ‘

The feeling is overwhelming
The frustration is consuming
The desire is deliciously warming
This emotion is heartfelt and so very real .
‘So ‘ I say
That’s why

I start my day ...
‘I can’t do this ‘
I finish my day ...
‘ I did it ‘

He’s here again
My imaginary friend
Keeping me safe
Keeping me warm
I know you can’t see him
Sometimes he hides
Sometimes he’s bad
He likes to play games
But I know he’s there
Watching me...
Watching you

When
I
Needed
You
The
Most
Infact
You were
Not
What
I
Needed
At
All

I see you every day
Your closeness
Your smile
Your presence
It’s suffocating
I want you every day
I see the outline of your body below your clothes
It drives me Insane
The need to touch
The desire to be closer to you than i know I’ll ever be
Your in my dreams , your my waking thought.
I know it’s not love but it’s consuming me , this lust , this feeling, this need to feel you .
I want you,I want you more than I want tomorrow to come

I’ve been drinking.
I drunk text you again .
For now your mine I can say whatever I feel.
Whatever I want .
Whatever I **** well please.
The morning shame will come but
It’s all I’ve got
I need this moment with you

You lie,
So easily ,
So desperately ,
I know the truth and still ,
You lie,
I should walk away ,
I should run,
But I stay ,
As you lie some more ,
Deep down I know,
I should go,
But I stay ,
I want to scream in your face,
LIAR,
But I stay ,
Quiet and loyal ,
As I’ll always be ,