Today my world fell apart
I realised finally that I’m living a dream

You do not feel it
You do not care
I am just another someone
I cared
I wanted you
I still do
I believed for so long there was something there
Even if it was subtle, the signs discreet.
But today , I know I’m on my own
Your young , your free
I’m dying inside with my emotions you’ll never understand
Today my world fell apart

I get my first hit
I feel the burn in my chest
The drug begins to soothe me
It reaches my brain
I feel strong
I feel warm
My nerves run wild
My feelings are free
I just want to dance

But then ....

The moment wears off
I can’t have any more


For you are my drug
My addiction
My need
I see you , you are my hit .
You leave and I crave you
My body hurts
My thoughts make no sense
I just need a hit
A moment with you

Shall I ?
Should I send that message ?
Should I make that call ?
I want to ...
Maybe I will

I probably shouldn’t
I’ll just be ignored
I’ll just be a pest
I’m not sure I should
I probably won’t

I wait for the night
So I can be alone with you

Where I lay in the darkness and you’re  so so close.
Close enough to whisper to
Close enough to breathe you in
Close enough to arouse every nerve I possess
But still not close enough to touch
Because then I wake again