I look into the heavens, seeking solace in the clouds, drifting aimlessly across the sky; and then I found my inner peace, if maybe only for a moment - my sanity restored, ready to face tomorrow, knowing she has turned the corner, the demons of despair, banished; now protected by a shield of hope, faith, gratitude and above all, love.

We face tomorrow, together, stronger, the fear has gone .....as has the unknown darkness.

She smiled at me as she passed me by
I started smiling too
I caught her looking back at me
So thought I'd follow through
I'm glad I did, it changed my life
That simple little smile
And now that lady is my wife
I share a love so true
Its something very special,
What a smile can do for you!

If only I had noticed, I could have stopped the pain;
If only I had stopped things when I knew, it might have made a difference;
If only I hadn't closed the door,
If only I had followed through,
If only I had taken that chance,
If only I had said no!
If only I could do it all again, it would be different now,
If only I had interfered,
If only I had told her how much I loved her,
If only I hadn't told anyone about it,
If only it were true,
If only I had..........

If only...........

His meaness had hidden depths, his bullying uncontrolled
A passion to destroy you, his cruelty was untold
You took it all from dusk to dawn, for years you cried in vain
But then you had enough of him, and could no longer take the pain
The names, the jibes, the anquish, the destruction of your mind
The solace you took to hell and back, you left it all behind
Your life returned and full of hope, the door no longer closed
You've left behind the bully boy, his life was now exposed.
His mask has slipped but he feels no shame as he scans the road ahead;
A victim he will charm no doubt, as he takes her to his bed.
But rest assurred you bully boy, your pleasure will be short,
For as you have already noticed, bullies do get caught!

Lonely days,
Nights on Broadway.
I started a joke,
Words,
I was alone,
Tragedy.
I gotta get a message to you;
If I can't have you,
I surrender,
I can't see no body.
Don't forget to remember,
Time is passing by.
Come on over,
Run to me,
Let me love you; Loving you inside out.
How can you mend a broken heart,
The echo of your love;
More than a woman
I could not love you more,
Reaching out,
You win again.

How can you mend a broken heart
Don't throw it all away
Listening to the fears that haunt my mind
Just breezing through the fog

You'll never see me walkiing there
Not when the game begins
So check that step, take a gentle pause
With every breath thats yours
You can turn it around in so many ways
Some people drift there life away
While others simply dream
And tomorrow is another day
So if you have to choose a path, choose mine
And we'll take the train to nowhere
Through the path of time.

As the snow falls to the ground
The children are at play
Its cold
I cannot move
I cannot speak
Silent
Blind to all around.
And then there comes that winter sun
As I slowly melt away
The end is near
But I may come back
On another winters day
And stand alone again
I am the snowman.

Angel
You wear it well;
The very thought of you
A reason to believe.
I wouldn't  ever change a thing

The way you look tonight
I only have eyes for you;
Love and be loved,
You are everything
Tonight I'm yours

So much to say
In my own crazy way.
It's all over now,
Farewell.
I don't want to talk about it
It's over.

The gentle waves eased their way towards the shore, knowing that their journey had ended

Her footprints on the waters edge slowly disappearing, erased in the sands of time as she looked out from the sea

The harbour light was shining, shimmering in the dark, as if waiting for that moment to guide her toward my outstretched arms as she waved and beckoned, " I'm here!"
But the light slowly faded as she cried my name and I froze; I could go no further.
She returned to the sea, one final look, lost to me forever.

Don't waste your time on hatred,
Confine it to the past
And focus on tomorrow
With happy thoughts at last

The wounds of time that once brought tears
Will vanish from your mind
As happy times return once more
With thoughts of love so kind

So walk again with your head held high
With happiness in your heart
You've broken free from the hell that was
And deserve this brand new start.

Time.
We all share it
But for how long
Make every second count
In case there's no tomorrow
So savour every moment
Don't let it slip away.

Behind the rocks in the searing sun
The bullets ricochet off the parched ground
And I pray inwardly to survive just one more day
My men around me, brothers in arms and proud
To serve their country boldly,
With unrelenting bravery in the pits of hell
We soldier on.
And then there's tomorrow when we return home
No more death or destruction, the loss of more friends
At peace with my loved ones
Until the next time.
No longer the hero, no time to adjust; Forgotten
But give me tomorrow.

Memories of my school days are still in my mind
The times were so easy, so innocent so blind
Simplicity met the harshness, the mystery of life;
Confusion, excitement, such changes, such strife
Things will be be different, I will do what I can
No longer a boy, but in my life as a man.

My first kiss, that first love, believing in good,
Deciding whats bad about the things that I should
Leaving home and getting a job,
Working long hours, no time for a sob
Bills that came monthly, paying my way,
Life wasn't easy, I preferred to play.
But becoming a man was always to be, After being that boy was such fun for me;
The joy and the laughter, no bills and no pain
Just playing around in the sun and the rain
So lucky to have lived such a wonderful life,
Content with my lot and the love of my wife,
I grew up

The blue sky with scattered clouds, drifting aimlessly across the sea
I look up and smile, for she might be looking down on me, watching as I tread my lonely path.
I miss her counsel, she was good and wise, forever loving and always there
But she is gone, and won't be back.
I walk without her, feeling her presence guiding me with a steady hand
I will always miss her, I will always love her; I can't forget those wonderful days
where love conquered all.
Nothing else mattered.
If I could turn back time, I'd have it all again.

Queen and country we vow to serve
Dodging bombs and bullets,
We hold our nerve
All in a hell hole
With death at our door
We soldier on calmy
We all know the score
But when it is over,
When we are the foe
We turn to our leaders
Who don't want to know
Just doing our duty
Protecting you all
You are the first, to let us fall
Betrayed by our masters
And some of the rest
We are just but soldiers
Its what we do best.

I should be the strong one
To help you through the pain
And as I tried to place that shield around you
I failed to hold it up.

Your world is my world and what we have we share
And as the storm clouds gather, we will find our way through
Rebuilding our world around all those we love and
I will be there for you
Believe in me, as I believe in you.

I open my eyes
And through the darkness i see a light
Shimmering in the distance
And there you are, through the shrouded mist, walking towards me with that knowing look, the enigmatic smile.
And as the darkness turns to light
My heart skips a beat as you take my hand to reassure me
Its really you, its not a dream,
Sharon
You are my reason for living.

The early morning dew touches the tips of the grass as it brushes through the sand amongst the rolling dunes ,
The coolness of the breeze has an edge to it as we wait for the darkness to turn to light
And then, with the rising of the sun, the warmth returns, as the light ripples across the gentle sea
Birds singing, the cry of the seagull, the solitary runner leaving her footprints in the sand
We smile at each other as she returns my gaze
She stops and we talk and then we touch
Squeezing my hand we walk side by side
Yes, things are much brighter now
This is the beginning

I stare at the reflection,
Is it really me.
The mirror tells a story
But surely its a lie,
Those sad eyes cannot be mine
That tired face,
The worried expression,
Please go away,
I dont know you anymore.

Time.
What is it but a moment in your life that passes you by.
Uncontrollable, unrelenting, memories of the past and dreams of the future.
Like the sands in a desert storm, shifting one way and then another
Stopping for no one, it marches on, invisible.

Sunny skies,
Childrens laughter,
You are happy,
The smile on your face,
You feel secure.
A sudden noise,
I wake from my sleep -
I was only dreaming.
Another day begins.

Love is real,
It touches me through the darkness.
Her voice whispers in the wind
As the cold chill of winter pierces my soul
The memories of her smile embrace me
Taking my mind to happier days
That gentle sparkle in her eye
Reminding me of the love we have
Hidden away, rarely spoken, but it is there
I feel it, I see it, I know its real
And that is enough for me.

Sitting on the fence, watching the people go by
A journey to somewhere
I whisper my secrets to the wind
Hoping someone will hear
The distant thunder breaks the silence
The wind feels like the touch of your hand
And for that moment I am happy
Your love awakens me as I smile at the passing stranger
Touched by the wind calling my name
No longer afraid of what awaits me
Is that you, or is it the wind

He brought her sorrow
So much despair
She hid it from me
Until no more could she take
Dad, "please help me -
I cant see the end"
My world changed that instant
To hell I descend
But like a phoenix
Ascending the skies
She came through her struggles
And chose to rise
Put her past behind her
Accepting no more
That chapter is closing
As she opens the door
Brighter horizons, for us to share
My daughter, I love you
You know that I care
Nothing else matters
But my love which is there
No, nothing else matters
He can't hurt you any more.

Empty darkness, is that what awaits ?
Questions abound but I have no answers.
I stare across the water, then up to the clouds,
My mind wonders as I look back in anger
What could I have done to change things,
To remove that man from my loved ones life,
The pain he caused her, a man to his wife.
I am filled with such hatred for what he has done
For the pain, the suffering the anquish he caused
But should I feel guilty for feeling no shame
For harbouring such feelings, with little to gain
I can't even go there, I can't explain
But his ending tomorrow would help ease the pain
Would this be justice or revenge bitter sweet
Or should I feel shame for not being discrete.
No. No shame.

I'm grandad, the man who gets joy
From the two little girls, and one little boy,
Their faces a reminder of all that I love,
Their laughter, their smiles, make me thank god above.
Their mother, my daughter, she makes me feel proud,
She has her struggles but stands in the crowd,
Despite her demons, she fights for whats good
And pushes behind her the bad things she should
Her futures much brighter without the blight
The decision to move on was perfectly right
So now I look on with that element of fear
But will fight for my loved ones, those that I hold dear
And will protect them forever, whatever the cost
Putting behind me, the years that were lost,
So onward and upward is the way to go,
Not wasting more time on that man we both know.

Hell

My biggest struggle is fighting the tears
Although my love is stronger, afer all these years.
My heart is broken, for those I hold dear,
They're my biggest worry, my greatest fear.
Without them I'm empty, if truth be told,
My life would be nothing, as I get old.
So I try to reflect on all that is good
And cherish the memories that I know I should.
And look for tomorrow, when things will be well,
And banish forever, those feelings of hell!

Hate destroys, it eats me from within.
It consumes me, just where do i begin.
I try to fight it but struggle like mad,
The feelings of anger, are really quite bad.
Then I look at those nearest and the love that they give,
What other reasons do I need to just go on and live.
None.