When you told my you liked her I had to pretend
You didn't know my feelings for you so i pressed them deep
I looked at you and told you it was okay

I wanted to run I wanted to cry
but I couldn't let you see me vulnerable because you couldn't know
I couldn't let you know you hurt me

I couldn't let you see me broken
I couldn't let you know that you had caught my attention
because I knew you would try to comfort me

All I wanted was to run towards your open arms
but I knew that I couldn't confide in you this time
so I walked towards the door

I was deflated and hopeless
why is it always my friends
why cant you just look at me and see something worth while

I continued to pretend everything was fine
even when I saw you flirt with her
deep down it was breaking my heart

How is it that you caught my eye?
Was it your gentle heart
or your willingness to serve

Was it your need to make me laugh
or the way you carry yourself so tall
or maybe it was your soft warm hugs were I can listen to your
heartbeat

Or maybe it was your green eyes that captured my attention
maybe it was the smile you always wear
or maybe you just creeped up on me one day

I could get lost in your eyes anytime of the day
I could listen to you talk about cars for hours
I would even sit in the cold to keep you company as you work

Could it be that my heart fell for the very thing I cant have
maybe our friendship is all that is for me
but part of me hopes that you would fell for me what I feel for you

There was always something about your green eyes
they always made me think about you and me
Is there something between us or is it all in my mind

There were so many things about you that made me want you
your laugh, your smile, they way you said my name
It really captured my heart. I wished with all my heart to be yours

They way you talked about her was what I always wanted
to her the way you loved her was something that I always craved
To hear you cry over the way she hurt you breaks me

All I want to do is tell you how much I love you
but I know that what help because your still so hurt
all I want to do is hold you in my arms but all you wanna be is with her

So here I am on the phone listening to the way she hurt you
knowing that I can never have you
knowing there is no story of you and me

I look back on all that we shared
the smiles the laughs the heartbreak and misery and
even though it has come to an end I wouldn't take any of it back

The memories we made are some I will cherish forever
sometimes all it takes is a smell to bring me back
to the times you would hold me so tight

Sometimes all it takes is a word to send me spiraling back
to all the late night talks that we one had
were nothing seemed like it could ever be bad

Sometimes all it takes is a name to send me done memory lane
The way you used to say my name so soft and so sweet
it rolled of your tongue like you were always meant to say it

Even though all of the times we shared are not great I cant help but think about you so fondly
you were once the love of my life and for that reason  I wouldn't take it back
My past with you is what has made me who I am

That is one of the many reasons I want to thank you
The day you broke my heart was the day I became stronger
Because of you I know what love is and what it isn't