I wade among these half-dead trees
They are black and full of void
I tried to ex myself in many ways
Haven't found a way to resolve my sore
Been drowning in a poisonous  river  
Trying to dump these sixteen tons of things I thought I could ignore

I patched a scarlet letter
On my heart
I tried to make ending faster
But I heard firm No! from
My fearsome soul
So I got my doleful share
    
Of the things confusing
But sometimes amusing
Some of them were soothing
And at times excruciating
I've come to  some sort of  resolution
I got cursed by birth
I am the child of dirt rushing to a worm infested earth  
The Book tells people are made of mud
But everybody's made of blood and time degraded muscles
And there's a tiny bit of salt
That pours at times from the beat-up eye to
Fertilize this god-forsaken earth.

I detest the salty words I vapored out one of my gloomiest days
All the wind is blowing through the beaten graves
In my soul I wander places...hope abandoned
I've got slayed that fewer things I had
And  distanced us almost miles away

This cold morose angels in the night
Slowly guiding through my another winter
             Of self-made discontent
Through the damp streets of this hateful town and of it's darkest sight and
Through these street I roam for long lost innocence.

Good,morning,Day
Good,morning Gods
And your cold lie
And my heart's and mind's doleful sides
I ruefully welcome wicked night
Again
I welcome pain
To crystallize in rain
Once again

I rule the night
Wicked dreams
And cheap wine makes me fine

I ride the desert plaine
All strung out to relieve my pain
Lost in black among deadmen screams

I am on my own with my liquor stained eyes
I am a ***** desperado
All shook up and ready to die

I am a man on the floor
And I am a ***** mess
I am the one to find on the rock
In a midday haze

Fuelled by dollar fire
I am likely to end in hell
Can't stand the other way
Like a night against a day

Don't need meds to get me down
Once I fell off the ground
I like my ***** little graveyard
To cuddle tenderly with my darkside

I never knew what I wanted
Can't stand myself anymore
I opened up my wound
Bleeding,stained and sore

There's no room for questions
There's no time for anything
I want to feel something
But I don't feel anything

Never was a child
Running all these miles
Voice of god despairing me
All is done now,I can see

I've been hiding in a secret shelter
Now I found my deadly dealer
My midnight healer
Took one of those
It's my thing of choice

Laughing in a face of Death
To degrade my inner self
And stitch my bleeding cracks
My shining diamond all turned black

Come on now to a deadly kingdom
Come on now to a fake freedom

I am dying here for you
One-on-one with my deadly thoughts
And when the sun begins to die
I welcome shadows at the door

I hear thunder crystalized in tears
I've been cryin all these years
My heart is a lifeless coal
And nothing fills my gaping hole

First you kiss me,it's like a flashlight
It feels like paradise,when I hold you tight
I feel magic being right here in your arms
I just can't fight your deceptive charms

Kiss me tender,kiss me deadly
Kiss me,darling so I can't forget
I fell and I can't stand up
Just let me drink out of your loving cup

Your hair wave like a milky way
What have you done to me
I am under your spell,I can't see
What can I do,what can I say

I'm here but I'm not sure what I'm looking for
I took my last chance in the house of bore

Ladies in white soothe burnt minds and souls
They pass me by with their strange looks
I've got  a demons to tame and i've got my share of woe
Among those betrayed and ******

Some of them wear granite grins
Some of them are riddled with ghosts of youth
Some of them pay for somebody's sins
Some of them won't make it through

We hit the road in the light of dying day
Crimson sunset,wind in our hair
High on the highway
I send my prayers to the air

My mind is blessed with an Angel dust
And my heart is beating fast
I see you sitting next to me with your necklace on
Bottle in your hand shines like diamond

We drive into forever
Nothing can't do us apart
We ride,it's now or never
Summer hell burns my reckless heart

Reflected past in the mirror
We are heading to a foreign land
The colors blending and the dream is getting nearer
Clouds left behind,we're never gonna back again

My harvester of rain
Here you go again
Though we meet every night and day
You never miss your chance
To reap my heart's dark times
And inspire whiny pointless lines

Like a darkman with the eyes of red
With your face beneath the hat
You're like a cruel beauty dressed in black
Sticking needles everywhere
Dark philanthropist donating woe
Painting heart with a few more cracks

Of many ways I chose the worst
The one that made delight got lost
I unlocked Pandora's box
Of my innate  faults

It's easy to alienate
That magic something once created
To craft the coffin out of trust
To make one fault line run so fast


I emptied up my poison jar
And now I mourn the day we got apart
I doubt I will find me any rest
My heartache here's to last

It seems that you don't care
It feels you'd  never dared
Thunder rolling
And I'm waiting

Maybe, I push too hard
Maybe, I get it wrong

I made up illusion that turned into treason
And became a freewill prisoner
Drowning in my artificial misery
Addicting to your strange trickery

The only fine star
Floating in the dark
I'll walk with you through life and death
I'll come for you when the earth turns red

I long for our hearts meeting
To give my best of love
Under moonlight blessing
You are my bella donna from above

My torture I am ready to endure
My sickness I can't cure
I am on risky path
Coloured black and red

I am doing my time at the outskirts of town
Among the trash kings and queens
And I am living picture of a seven sins

Fuel injected screams and drunken songs
Of those, who lost their faith in Lord
They never mind to give you 38
They never think what's right or wrong

The only love I knew is gone
Thousands sighs evaporated
To a vast celestial dome
Despaired dreamers walk this cursed land
They prone to foolish dreams
And fantasies of the things unreal

I got my hands shaking in a dying light
Trying to hold my glass and my jacknife
Sparks of neon cut like pink razor
Tonight the death is our only neighbor

****** gushes turn to flowers
We are drowning in a crimson shower
Your body stretched on a *** stained bed
You look so pretty with a candle burning in your head

Just an empty eyes
With nothing on an inside
We are trapped alone within these walls
And flickering motel light

We  go south
To the jukebox song
Crackling in the hall
Evening sun paints
These last second of our fall

I wanted to be free
I wanted something real
Always needed something more
Now I'm standing still and sore

Torn dreams and blackouts
White lights shining bright
I hear your voice screaming loud
My heart is a grave, at least I'll see you by my side

What's it for, I fail to know
Everything is dead and gone
Sad reflections, they are like a pale glow
Walls and figures in an endless row

Drink me till I am drained
Soak my troubled blood
With your mournful lips
Love me till I'm dead

Leave my body breathless
Savour every drop
Paint our lover's bed
Turn white into red

I am a deadly card
Painted with thunders,towers and devils
Filled with delusions and cries
Stalked by the black dogs
On a crossroad in a midnight fog

It's dangerous to be me
Satan right behind me
He got nothing on me
Because I left no soul to sell
Sedated by soma hell

I am on a path that is rough
All the saints wrote me off
I am nobody's child
Outlaw on a vicious ride

That June was fatal
I was 21and  drowning in daze
Numb in my cellar cradle
To a Cocteau Twins through a midday sparkling haze

Scars went down my arms and legs and broken soul
Since I walked this self-harm alley
Strolling round  maniacally
Lifeless mind,numb and cold

Pills scattered like a nailbombs
Pushed me deep down to a crippled womb
Neither Heaven nor Las Vegas
But a valley of  fake healers

I remember that night
I remember you
It was like a wind and it was great
I remember loving eyes,so clean and pure

We talked and we walked like a perfect couple

I remember you,my sharp-dressed queen
I remember tender nights
We walked among the trees to a humming leaves
This magic night we knew no grief

I remember your sweet figure by the door
In my dream you were the one,I was longing for
You were looking sweet and bright
You and I,we were ships in the night

Unmourning waters,take me down
Let my body flow
Like a broken ship
Let my breathless body through this muddy water

You and I..it was quite fatal
Like a two wrong things matched together
But my love I shall not ******
And let my spirit further

Shadows linger endlessly
Fractures split the wall
Is it real,I fail to know
Wheel of time ceased to roll

I am stuck somewhere
I am a bleeding room
Things are not forever
No glimmer but a gloom

I'd like it to be different
I'd like to be someone else
Fractures run all over me
They' re just like a spider web
Mad songs in my head
While I am so blank and dead
Empty within and without
Seems there is no way out

Rotten petals are the satelites of shattering
Paper fractured like a mirror
Broken portraits of unrequited love
Torn in triangles and undescribed shapes
Of wrath and anger turned to sour  grapes

One heart eaten by the vultures
Bleeding fruit or a rotten steeple

Things went blue and black
Like the ship they wreck
This flower turned to petals
Coloured black fake love gone feral

Separation is like a wind
Betrayal closed the door
Left torn pieces on the floor
With a broken key to a midnight glow

The stars run backwards
I see the  glow in the distance
I feel sick,but I know I ain't gonna die
There is death around and a cold wind cry

This land bears no fruit
We fell out out of grace
Because God has left this ******* place
Static noise and devastation,I can see the ghost of human race

Here is the TV broadcasting death revolution
And the deity pouching from a ***** wall
Horned priest and his children singing all together
To save a little time before the end

I am in Kentucky coma
Burning under Jesus sun
Broken warrior with a broken gun
Someone save me,be it God or ******* Peter
Dreaming gas station dream at the outskirts of town
Satan gave me hand and took me down

Cracks run over an aged body
Dead eyes glow like a pearl
Time is a cruel dame

We are flowers hurled
We are slid to feed the earth
On our way to heaven's door

I am light years  away
The stars, they don't seem nearer
And the Earth  is just a blank spot
Just an atom soon to explode

All the sorrows are just glitters in space
Waiting to be buried in a giant glow
Here I am in a search of a better place
Lost my track or any pace

Light years to eternity
Among the space and dread
And a vivid stretch of void
And all the past an present joined in unity

I've been running endless miles
Trying to find my way out if this disappointing sunset
Going south with a fake smile
And the cheap dreams floating in my head

Road to hell is paved with good injections


I spend my time chasing ghosts
Being lost in a flux of thoughts

I pin the flowers to your hair
Among the empty street in heat
There's no people around but you and me
Or  maybe it's just what we think
We are like in a slow-motion
Overwhelmed by the heatwave of emotions.
This city is drowned in haze
It looks like an old-time polaroid
We kiss in a midday daze
And our future is unfolding

Old cars and flashy neons
And we are blown away to the other aeons
Friendly fires caught us off the guard
We never sleep and we never get tired

Your eyes flash with fire and there're many things to be told
You are the the most precious thing in this whole white world

Violets in your hair are blue
And so are you
Promise you'll never go
And I'll promise you too

It rains all night down on me
And I can't stand this heaven bleeding
Black dog howling on my back
And Satan is here with the eyes of color black

Black dog on my back
Earth begins to crack
When I hurt the other people
I hurt my dead self

I am aboard an there is no getting off
Here is Lady's D and I hold her icy glove
I am something I can not read
I am a child of a poisonous seed

Shiny ray casts itself on a midday of my numbness
Endless death is rotting deep inside.
My dreams of vagueness ...
They are tempting like a suicide

I am dissolving
I can't make any choice
I colour myself
With a ****** tracks
Sinking down to Kingdom Come

I am waiting for the Time to dishonor me
Dancing in it's dire clothes

You are my reservation glowing in the dark
I long for you night and day
Wrinkled sheets like sweet memento of how tender night could be
And of passion calming sea
To the music lovely canto

There are many words
To describe my blue
Kinda thing I don't understand

Dreaming of unbearable
I am a boy going through the desolation cables
Fighting things I can't forget
Searching for the things I can not get

Down on an anxiety road
All strung out on a heavy load
Towards the end of times
Full of stuff that doesn't rhyme

Blue moon chases me
While I am dreaming of a single heartbeat
In a drowning city heat
Slowly turning into midnight sea

I lie alone among the walls
Everything is grey and white
I got full moon in my eyes
I am on my way to satellites

Sweet young nurse,she said I was the worst
thing she could recall
Or the worst thing in this zoo
Is it monday or a tuesday
Or a ******* 21st century
They cuffed me to the bed
Til my hands and feet turned red
They said I am a mess
5 minutes from the Davies chest
There was a white-haired guy
He looked like a retired god
Finally at his place
In his greek-styled cloth
Everyone fell off the wagon right into one place
They got spaced minds and swollen faces

The are all insomniac junkies and gods
They got snakes in their boots
Doing their time on a farm, they are all on the rush
And every time the nurse walks by they all have a crush

We are stuck for eternity
For many nights and days
On a halfway to sanity
To get back to our ways

Treacherous sun brought us some news
Blinded my fool moons
This wasted afternoon
Somebody may never get out of this place
Some races end in here in disgrace

Bandaged body over me,no sign of breath
First rays of light brought the first harvest of death

Cold night spread it's wings
I walk alone in a luminous mist
November's breath caresses empty streets
This is where I found you
And signed my death list

I kiss a vision of an absinth dream
With the eyes of embers fire
Now I count my seconds to the witching hour
When the dark is torn by the funeral pyre

Tonight all my wishes will come true
My death has never been so pure
I send you valentines
In the death of night
And spill my blood on a dotted line

I found my drug of choice
Body is a flame with the devil's voice
Decadent beauty in a false light
When I am right beside you
All the wrong feels right

It's after midnight and I am a live wire
I see you coming like a spark
Waves of silk and fake eye-lashes got me moonstruck
Neon walls turn to fuchsia bonfire

I've got moonshine in my veins
I am as high as an aeroplane
Flying in a search of heaven
You got me hooked deadly like a ******

I want to take my thoughts away
In the mist of dying day
Making funeral-style love
But it never feels enough

The new morning comes in a black lace hangover
Like an Arab Death you're lying on my bedside
Shining with a criminal smile of decadent lover
Being with you is like a party for suicides