The only love I knew is gone
Thousands sighs evaporated
To a vast celestial dome
Despaired dreamers walk this cursed land
They prone to foolish dreams
And fantasies of the things unreal

I got my hands shaking in a dying light
Trying to hold my glass and my jacknife
Sparks of neon cut like pink razor
Tonight the death is our only neighbor

****** gushes turn to flowers
We are drowning in a crimson shower
Your body stretched on a *** stained bed
You look so pretty with a candle burning in your head

Just an empty eyes
With nothing on an inside
We are trapped alone within these walls
And flickering motel light

We  go south
To the jukebox song
Crackling in the hall
Evening sun paints
These last second of our fall

I wanted to be free
I wanted something real
Always needed something more
Now I'm standing still and sore

Torn dreams and blackouts
White lights shining bright
I hear your voice screaming loud
My heart is a grave, at least I'll see you by my side

What's it for, I fail to know
Everything is dead and gone
Sad reflections, they are like a pale glow
Walls and figures in an endless row

Drink me till I am drained
Soak my troubled blood
With your mournful lips
Love me till I'm dead

Leave my body breathless
Savour every drop
Paint our lover's bed
Turn white into red

I am a deadly card
Painted with thunders,towers and devils
Filled with delusions and cries
Stalked by the black dogs
On a crossroad in a midnight fog

It's dangerous to be me
Satan right behind me
He got nothing on me
Because I left no soul to sell
Sedated by soma hell

I am on a path that is rough
All the saints wrote me off
I am nobody's child
Outlaw on a vicious ride

That June was fatal
I was 21and  drowning in daze
Numb in my cellar cradle
To a Cocteau Twins through a midday sparkling haze

Scars went down my arms and legs and broken soul
Since I walked this self-harm alley
Strolling round  maniacally
Lifeless mind,numb and cold

Pills scattered like a nailbombs
Pushed me deep down to a crippled womb
Neither Heaven nor Las Vegas
But a valley of  fake healers

I remember that night
I remember you
It was like a wind and it was great
I remember loving eyes,so clean and pure

We talked and we walked like a perfect couple

I remember you,my sharp-dressed queen
I remember tender nights
We walked among the trees to a humming leaves
This magic night we knew no grief

I remember your sweet figure by the door
In my dream you were the one,I was longing for
You were looking sweet and bright
You and I,we were ships in the night