Oh my God that chin.
Oh my God that nose and flared nostril
Oh my God that mouth. Oh my God
those eyes,  that hair, impossible  Oh
my God your neck,
long
I want you to speak
From God,
Give chance to Get up and
start the dance
Married and divorced
Productive mother
To the end  .

I have hurt myself, because
I did not want to live authentically.

There is 
Within echo
Chambers  *
No response towards my cries

Within four walls encased;
Punished

For my being hidden
And for being looked over.

Still, I ask to hear God's voice
Who calls my name
Then it feels like

Home

When you die you become Hard like cardboard or plastic
The reason that I became a man...
because
I have taken the fork in the road
To get here
And everywhere
In between.

I Would have been one or the other
Call me naive
Call me stupid
I thought you were a star
Before I knew what a star was on your own.

I was a boy.
As a  boy/girl   I don't need to fit
Your descriptions. I don't need to be
Published. I don't need a date to take
With me

To the dance.

I won't need to worry; Won't need to look
At you,
Won't need to be married
Civilly,
Or inside a church
Don't have to be elected.  I can just dream
For my entire life

I was just trying to make a statement, a singular one
With my entire life

But my life is incomplete

The pieces drawn
From many other sides,

But I am gone
Now. -
What statement?

Hopefully life in Jesus is not over
If it is, I would then

Send it off.

So many things And people have come
And gone,

And I have
either survived
Or am in another form

On earth.

I have No humility, no pride

It turns out that I have been amorphous
A living entity
I turn on heel
From ego;
I have written eleven books of miracles
Which I oversee

Growth for me is always slow
And painful.

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