Oh ye butterfly

   A beauty that need not try

         To catch a love's eye

why i can not
ever be,
fully happy.

because,
within one mile
of leaving
my home for
work in the
mornings,
there is always
road ****
that my eyes
always find
and that my heart
aches and
breaks for.

within one mile
of leaving
my home to
'hopefully',
start a fresh day
happy and
smiling just,
never
lasts long enough.

that one image
of death,
no matter how
insignificant that
you may think
that;
squirrel's
rabbit's
cat's
bird's
life is to you,
means something
totally different
to me!

that's a life;
period
end of story!

a life that
suffered.
a life which
i wish that
i could restore.

and my sadness
overwhelms me
knowing full well
that i do not
harness that type
of power and that
tomorrow this
will only be,
deja vu.

i think to myself;
why am i
still here?
what have i
done to deserve
to still walk
this earth?
why must
others suffer so?
whether they
be man, pet
or beast,
why must
they suffer?

it's then
i think;

here i am,
lying in bed with;

a roof over
my head.
food in my
pantry and
refrigerator.
water to hydrate
myself with.
a family that
loves me.

why?!?!

why do i
deserve these
things?!?!

and why do
the roakill
and every other
starving,
thirsty,
homeless,
unloved deserve
their fate?

why?!?!

this is why
i can never
be happy,
REALLY happy
because i will
never allow
myself to be
happy because
of all of the
death
cruelty
and unhappy
events around
me.

my heart has
been broken
beyond repair
but as a sponge
it still
works great...

sadly for me
and my
unhappy life.

weathered skin,
    calloused feet
       and hands.
a sage mature mind,
    a generational man
      that
         understands.

once jet black hair,
    and a physique
       all youthful
         and chiseled.
now an abundance
    of grey and
       the look of a
          wile veteran
......   so grizzled.

father time has
    been kind to me,
i accept every wrinkle
    i accept all my years
   of wisdom...
       because now i can
be compared to
          a mighty oak tree.

don't be ashamed
   of whom you are,
     don't hide your clock.
let the world see
   your natural beauty,
      don't be afraid
of that sound....
       ....tick tock.

This is for those souls that feel like they missed out on love, like they were never even given a first look , never mind a second one.

"Skipped melody"

I will always be
the song you forever skip
on your playlist,
and I'm not sure why?

If only you played the song
enough number of times,
or
even once...
then the melody
might have
stuck in your head.

How sad it is for you
to not have listened to
an unravelled,
beautiful mystery.

It may have been sweet music
to your ears...
and sounds that made your heart-
skip a beat.

But hey..

now-

you'll never know.

who am I ?

i know who i am.

i like to compare myself / liken myself to a baseball pitcher.

i'm a man that likes to live on the outside / outside of the strike zone.

i only come inside when i want to,
no matter what the count is.

even on a 3-2 count i will not be forced to or pressured to come inside.

i will,

only if i deem it necessary.

if i happen to walk a few with the bases loaded,

i don't much care,
so be it!

i'll still pitch the way i want to.

no manager or owner could ever change me.

so....let me ask you....

...who are you?

The moon;

The moon bathes in hues that even a poet has a difficult time putting into words most often.

Its hues are identical to the lover that your mind & body shall never forget.

Breathless words...

bountiful
and perhaps
schizophrenic
yet,

a once in a lifetime grouping of words to kindle raw emotion.

Poets; like the moon,
are so underappreciated...

you there;

you only think
that you
know the moon
and us.

I can assure that,
  
   you don't!

I run with wolves
   of unity and freedom.

    You'll never know the moon or me!!!

We as humans will never understand just how insignificant that we are in the grand scheme of life.

We are nothing more than murderers, pillagers and cowards here!

And as each generation comes and goes,
they only embarrass the human race ever further.

Think about this.

Why are we the only species/organisms that doesn't seem to be evolving anymore?

Cancer OWNS this species!!
Absolutely kicks our ***** and OWNS us!!

In saying that,
I can tell you this,  we aren't the most intelligent species/organisms that resides on this earth!

In our narcissistic minds, we only THINK that we are.