Women are a completely complicated specimen of uncertainty

Women are a puzzle, a challenge that has always brought out the best in me

   a mystery

Just when you think that
you have them all figured out

Women... ..

they will show you that you don't, no doubt

After 52 years,
  I do

Of course I can't
   speak for you

I know what makes them tick and I know what makes them grin

   You just have to be lucky enough for them to REALLY, let you in

I wake up and

  I think of you

During my morning shower

   I think of you

Sipping my day's first cup of coffee

   I think of you

Driving into work

    I think of you

Many times throughout my work day

     I think of you

On my drive home from work

      I think of you

Eating that day's dinner

      I deliciously think of you

During my ending day's hot relaxing shower

       I think of you

As I lay in bed trying to fall asleep

        I think of you

And during one dream/fantasy per night's sleep

        I think of you

I think that it is safe to say that I am always thinking of you

     And while thinking of you;

You have never disappointed me

     If kismet were cupid?

Your lips would never be lonely

    either set of them

Reality of ******* lived out through fantasy

    Then... ..?

You would always be,

        thinking of me

My blood that rushes to my ***** must get tired of me

      thinking of you

Tonight;

each ray of
moonlight
brush stroked
your beauty
on your body
of pure delight

every curve;

an,
I can't take
my eyes
from sight

I want to
remove
your clothes
but,

I hold back
with all
of my might

Tonight;

when we
make love,

it's going
to feel
oh so right

Your
lower lip,

I watch
you bite

In love,
with you
I
   f
    e
     l
      l
tonight

You are a rose.

... you are a rose

    unlike Axl.

Your thorns,

   they only stimulate
every man that breathes in
your unique bouquet.

As I insert myself
into your petals
of velvety paradise
I realize that;

you are the color
rose that has
always escaped me
but... ..

no more!

So;

phew... ..

after skatey eight
rounds of chemo
and radiation that
has burned me worse than any encounter with the sun ever could.....?

Thousands of dollars wasted
and debt
while making my
remaining days
on this Earth
an excruciating
24/7 theatre of
unnecessary,
expensive pain!

And after all of this?

I have "Dr." Chen with absolutely no bedside manner
'matter of factly'
tell me that... ..
"we can not do anymore to help you".

Okay;
I get it, I am dying and I can handle that,
and I knew that but... ..

Help me?!?!?!

You didn't "help me" you... ..
you
greedy,
selfish,
ignorant,
POS
devil you.

But hey;
guess what?

Sure, I will concede my death
is near.

Thanks to you and your high priced concoction of death,
my death has
only been
accelerated.

But me?

My life,
my life is only beginning once
I leave this den of iniquity and
you... ..
"Dr satan".

While you?

Ha.
Haha!

You?

You will be burning in a hell like you have never seen on this Earth.

Every day....
Every hour
Every minute
Every second
of your
'after life'.

And me?

I will be chatting it up with Jesus
and asking for your forgiveness
because well... ..

that's my
beautiful soul
and heart
looking out
for vultures
like you.

a moment
of listening
to the crickets
in the creek

a moment
of listening
to the flocks
of seagulls
by the shore

a moment
of listening
to the rain
as it cools
a summer's
day

a moment
of listening
to the
heavy climactic
breathing
of your lover

a moment
of listening
to moments
that exist
only in
your life

listen,...
but breathe in
life's moments
that are singular
and precious
to you

future moments
may
never be

moments are
pure ecstasy