Dreamed about my favorite flip flops
They were jelly and sparkly with gold
Then I lost them
All of a sudden glass shattered everywhere
Picking pieces of glass out of me
All there at the big humongous thrift store
Looking for a refrigerator
But one was gross
Still looking everywhere for my jelly’s
Then some how ended up in a inside
Water slide park
Did get stuck and under water
Where where were my jelly’s

I was bored
I self entertain myself

I didn’t need you

Now life has changed
You really became strange

I never listen and over talk

You are hiding truths
Can’t be honest with me or you

I am bored like I was in the beginning
Now I really don’t listen
Like how you said before

I don’t know how to write it
So many great times you know
It’s where you lived it and experienced
Can’t write it
So much had happened
Good, bad, sad and fun times
Too many memories to remember
Emotions hasn’t all hit yet
Eventually they will

Blood in the street
Chaos everywhere we see

Not a care in the world
Everything is becoming a blur

Killing has been the in thing
And people becoming insane

What happened to love and rejoice
People are dying and have no voice

It’s been going on several years
It’s worse now bringing several tears

Everyday something new
A person lost their life
Sometimes more than a few

Depression, regression, and addiction
On a rise
This isn’t such a surprise

We lost ourselves along the way
Many innocent souls has already paid

Love and compassion is truly missed
Humanity and dignity was a bliss

History does teach us all
It’s bound to happen once again
History was a lesson we should had

But we all fall
With sin
And burn burn burn

It’s so easy to pull out a gun
Instead to say what they had done

No one calls on a phone
Just texts and leaves it alone

Police are supposed to protect and save
Then all they do is shoot and **** Dave

But Dave was crazy anyways
Carrying nothing but candy everyday

Today everyone lost their minds
Overdoses and petty crimes

Sad thing people lost their souls
To the real criminals

We didn’t start the fire, it was lit
From some ******* that were legitimate

Before you start pulling out that gun
Remember where you came from

You were a daughter, mother, father, brother or son
That came from a family who loves dearly
Respect the father, mother and the Holy Ghost
In the end, that’s what matters the most
Sincerely

I’m scared
I know there is a path for me
It’s never been fair for many

The path was always there
Many walked down it
Some almost took it

They were scared
Some knew the path was for them
Still wasn’t fair for many

Many will be scared
Many will take the path
It will still never be fair

I use to have friends come over
I used to be happy with positive energy
There was change
Yes there was a change
You. You. You.

I had a positive outlook for myself
Didn’t make you happy did it
Now I’m the problem just like everyone else

Take your Debbie cakes somewhere else
Debbie downer
Tired of hearing about their faults
When it was you you you

I still have my friends even enemies that want to be friends
What do you have?

Debbie cakes Debbie cakes
Soon the truth will reveal
Debbie cakes

A little house was shared
Up on a little street on a mountain
Homemade items were made and cherished

On that high mountain road
Travelers must go by slow
Only the locals know that *****
Many travelers can be found below

From long ago

Homemade items made today
From a little street upon a mountain
Shared in a little house that had been vanished

Everything and everyone
That was good
Was taken away

Things are possessions
With memories of great impressions
Of the past before it was taken
Years of long learned lessons  

No person, not one can be replaced
Not a day goes by
Memories will replay and stay

They were good

Hope eventually dies
Even those with the same name will pass
Hope is good to hold onto
Unless she’s gone too

Hoping for something
are just wishes
Wishes are just hopes for
those with hope

Hope will live on
Even those newly born will live on
Hope is good to hold onto
Unless she does not want you to

When you’re up and down, alcohol is there
Holidays, celebrations and birthdays
Bad days, sad days and stressful days
Alcohol is there any day and everyday
When it becomes too much is where trouble begins and feelings as such
Regression and depression
Feelings go back to succession
Alcohol because it’s one for all

A man that is committed to turn a **** hole into a kingdom is much more attractive than a man that moves into a kingdom

Blood, sweat, tears into a **** hole is dedication

Changing, organizing, and decorating an established kingdom is indifference

A true man is a good builder
A good man would respect his creation

Any man can move into a building
A bad man would crumble the foundation

Hadn’t been happy
But yet found happiness

Not happy
Who is anymore

Been there, done that
Did find happiness

Still not happy
Maybe it’s just me

money does bring happiness until it runs out but the memories are priceless

Can’t control what ******* do
But I will speak my mind

Happiness is a whole, not a hole
It’s in your heart and brain

Memories don’t cost a thing until it runs
blanks,  that’s when money needs to buy more bullets.

money does bring happiness until it runs out but the memories are priceless

Can’t control what ******* do
But I will speak my mind

Happiness is a whole, not a hole
It’s in your heart or mind

Memories don’t cost a thing until it runs
Blank, but money can’t buy more, priceless

money does bring happiness until it runs out but the memories are priceless

I thought I knew you
But now you scare me

I don’t know where you came from
Only the basic information

Thought of us made so much sense
Now everything doesn’t make any at all

I understand now
I really don’t know much of you

Many years together
With the perfect stranger

Strangers are no good you see
Keep everything hidden inside
Locked down, sealed and tight

Try to unlock the latch and bleed
Much more hidden all behind
Map ends here, love seeks and hide

I thought I knew you
But now you scare me

I don’t know where you came from
Only the basic information

Thought of us made so much sense
Now everything doesn’t make any at all

I understand now
I really don’t know much about you

I’m in love with you
Your looks, talents, and charm
Sadly you say things that’s not true
About me which sends out a big alarm

I don’t know you well enough, I guess
In love with a mystery
Maybe it was all too soon I confess
Not in love with misery

Misery loves company
Only if they knew who that was
They may over talk but at least it’s something

Some made bad decisions
Some made good decisions
They were theirs to make

No revisions to make
No decisions a mistake

Some good, some bad
Many more to be had

Salutations salutations
Especially to those indecision’s
That end into evaluations

No decisions to make
No revisions a mistake

***** the rules
I chose not to live by them

Drinking under age
Smoking in my home
It was all mine

My house, my home
Love you too
Please leave me alone

I’ll learn the rules outside

The true romantic in times pass did confess his love in front of the world.

Every classic romantic tale in history had taught us all. In recent times this classic tale has new meaning.

With social media and years of reality exposure, it has less value when it comes to the so called “true romantic”.

Therefore instead about the love confession to thee, it’s all about thy.

Look at me, look how great I am, I’m just perfect and it all gets lost in translation because smoke and mirrors is used by thy to fool thee.

I’m unhappy and sad
But
Very happy and glad

Scared to see the end
But
Fight for every breath within

Surprise panic attacks
While trying to concentrate
And relax

Fighting everyday to live
I’m fighting everyday to live
Trying everyday to really live

The cat don’t lie
Those that do blow in the wind
Lions know the truth
Watch how the dicots fly
Liars can’t blend
As the wind sends them to the roof
Monocot seeds die alone
As the dicots stand strong alive

I’m a liar
I’m a cheat
I’m a no good dead beat

Why don’t you just leave?
You say you hate me
Even wished I was dead

Your friends say I’m no good
That I’m just a user and a crackhead from the hood

Why don’t you just shut the hell up?
Just leave me be
Afraid to be alone?
And everyone says I’m the messed up
But it was always you
Don’t you see?

Waking up is too hard to do
Moving on and the day is too much
Billion things are needed and I can’t do one
Can’t do one
If I can’t do one then nothing won’t be done
Because getting nothing done for one is no fun

If only I can do more
Then no more worries would happen at all
Then this day could be lived happily after all and never more
Days waking up like this anymore

Death is expected
No one wants to see loved ones gone

You want to be the one who goes instead,
But

Someone has to be here to make sure
The little ones have a chance to live and be strong

Not your turn yet but
Someone must roll the dice
Hop, skip, and step twice
It’s the game of life

I don’t know how you feel
I don’t know how you think

Maybe I disagree
Maybe I already made up my mind

Do you know how I feel
Do you know my thoughts

Maybe you disagree
Maybe you had made up your mind

Life goes by fast
If you only pay attention to the flickering

Life can go much slower
If you become the one that flickers

Life will go on
Life will move on
Life is you and me too

On January 25 of this year there was a awful occurrence that did happen. I called the police to do a welfare check on my boyfriend. It was during those freezing temperatures. I have video of the whole occurrence. I was arrested that morning due to simple assault, but was later let go and was told they didn’t want anymore calls. But later turned to be untrue. There is more video, but as embarrassing this is I don’t want to show it until the authorities of my case have seen it all. The officers that were called are on the video as well. They arrested me that night, but decided not to. I did receive a knock at my door on Friday 1, 2019. The same male officer along with an unknown black female officer came. They had an arrest warrant on me. It was Friday night and everyone was asleep and I was about to go off too. I answered the door and they came in and to my surprise they said they were there to arrest me. The female officer asked many times if we were smoking drugs upstairs and if I was on something. Anyone that knows me, knows I don’t do stuff like that. The arrest warrant was taken on the 26 of January. Signed by a judge in high Point and the claimant is unknown, but says SL stark of Greensboro police department. They got me on a Friday night because of statue G.S. 15-A-534. Meaning that they will try for a real judge to decide on a bond instead of a magistrate. They can’t hold no one for 48 hours legally without a bond. Injustice was done. I do have more evidence of this.

Incarcerated without a reason
Treated like a criminal
Forced to eat the inedible
All amongst those that are incriminable

Friends no way, give them a look to go away
One though I would associate with
No English, small petite

Criminated and associated
All for not guilty verdicts
But the officials want the innocent
That were charged and vindicated

Food downstairs
While screams for food upstairs

Food is over here
Come over, come now
Empty pantries

Survival is for the surviving
Keep on moving, scavenging, forging , hallucinating

Food upstairs
Downstairs was invited

I’m tacky
Weird, yes I am

The sunshine is my friend

Neon, fuchsia,vibrant and the colors of happiness that glows in darkness too

Always my friend and that makes me happy

Bold, outspoken,
Weird, yes I am

Talking and communicating
If only both were passionate
Many talk but no communication

Compassion is not in the talk
Just communication as the talk
No one listens anyways, just hears talk

Keep on talking because communication
Is lost

Many listen but don’t hear because
They can’t communicate
Those that hear don’t listen because it’s all talk and no communication

No passion, compassion, just words
The ones who suffer are the ones that listens

So ******
So sad
Really angry

Upset and mad
Tearful spiting bullets
Inner screaming stabbing

Boiling blood temperatures record high
Soiling every white piece
Dare you come near me

******
Next one will be my Picasso

I dreamed you died
Hadn’t thought about you in a while
To me you had been gone
In reality I know you been alive

I’ll never understand, never will
All the lies and everything you said
Just unblocked you and to see that smile
Should had kept you blocked and be done

I dreamed you died
Small piece of my heart cares
Love for someone don’t go and disappear
You can make it happen so easy
Talk as everything is great, sharing pictures as nothing is wrong but that’s you and it’s ******

I dreamed you died
As a small inner child, I cried
I’ll never be the same ever again
The betrayal, arrogance, distance
Hope you found yourself and your wealth

You died in my dream but your death was in my life

The big city is beautiful
Not as beautiful as the man I met
He was a native to a beautiful home
As a child from promises that weren’t kept

His father was a prisoner of war long ago
The United States kept a promise
A father made a new life here in a beautiful state that is open to all
This father Ukrainian died not long ago

Maybe United States kept their promise
California is a state of their own
Who took in many and forgot some
Now a native from a father who was given promises
Can’t return home to the life he once owned

The big city is beautiful
All the lights so bright and plentiful
Sadly the natives can’t live there
Because of costs and politics, just not fair

Growing up there was my life
I went bicycling all over town to town
Cost kept rising and pocketbook sliced
Mom took me and sis as we both frowned

Everyone loves my home and state
I can’t blame them, it’s California and the Golden Gate

Do you really think of your children, do you really think of our children?

Out of my home at 18 and never be seen
Good bye so long as long as you’re gone

Just remember I get older
Just remember me

All the broken winged children will still fly
Their past, fears, cries, pains and torment

Will never happen to them no more
Moms, dads, uncles and aunts
Are upset because they left them

Free as the wind, depending how it flies
Broken wings can only go so far
They learned from past, cries, pains, and torment

Broken wings could heal but not for some.
How far was their destination?
Where did they come from?
Not from fears, cries, pains and torment

Still the broken winged children fly today.

Peace on Earth
Let what you fight for be worth it
Do it for the greater good
Once you decide, remember no turning back
Remember everyone is proud
Let a fight have meaning
Everyone’s rights and rights of everyone
Fights don’t come cheap
Fights hurt everyone, but for peace?
Sincerely,
Hell on Earth

I can remember your face. The sun shining bright and your smile.

I wanted to hold you and hug you like we once before

You are gone now and miss you much
We had beautiful times and it’s been a while

Remembering your beautiful smile and I lost you again once more