I don’t want to reach the end
And suspect
I could’ve done it all over again
In a different way

It runs faster than
My feet
It won’t let me
Sleep

I panic
Still can’t help
To think
How to render
A strong mind
Weak

It’s 4:15
How will I go about my week
If it’s monday and I still can’t dream

As a child
I couldn’t sit
Eat, focus or read

Now I wonder
What’s wrong with me
Didn’t anyone care to think
I might’ve been too mean

Loneliness reached
Age drove me sick
I can’t help to sink
In a bowl of real world
Missing links

And by the way
Thank you Pink
You really helped me cope
With everyday lists
And unreasonable things
No one cared to teach

I tried it all,
I ran
I wrote
I swam
and sunk
I smoked
and flew
only to fall back through
I lied
and hoped
Still nothing
worked
Maybe there's something
for me to do
not yet named of course,
Util then
I'm off to study,
because that's all I must do...

or maybe not

off to fail i go

I'm contained
TRAPPED
In a small
glass box
SCREAMING
for help
seeking my
VOICE
to be heard

FIRE
burns
PASSION
awaits
there's nothing,
I'm being held

I break through
Now I'm on plan
VIEW
I see all the boxes around
ME,
****
there's nothing I can do.

HELP,
smoke comes my way,
SLEEP
tomorrow will be brand new,
maybe a circle will come through.

Honeymoon phase they call it
3 months past, we mock it
Trying to hang, won't they stop it
Nah, I think we'll try as I crawl it

After all, we raise walls
Pick the hammer and its been 6 moths
From cotton ***** to alcohol
Is it even worth to wait this long

Let me run
Please don't go
Listen to your soul

Strike 3, bad calls and a foul ball
9 months way too long
Can't even stand tall...

Concrete bam
Banned thoughts and a wall
Warned by lights
Lit like starts
Streak bam
Panic attack

Ah
Clark’s mad
Adamant’s back
Card
Dollar
Rant
Tat toc tic
Cat  

Track tunnel
Lies, spies,
Zack is hard
**** day
Yay or nay  
You are here to stay.

Talk to me in the morning
When my only focus is
Getting Out
of bed.

When all the pain
of 12 am
is vanished
by sleep & dreams...

When the world
receives me
with it's opportunities
wide open.

When all I want is
coffee, food,
& maybe,
You.

Talk to me when the
good and bad
lay vaguely in my
memory.

And all I have is
You,
right now.

You talk,

I remember,

not for what you are,
but for what you´ve done.