I'm writting a poem again here I am
laying on the bed now, laptop in my hand
I wanted to say thank you for all, once again
And I wanted to say I'm blessed yes, again and again

So many things have happend so fast So quick
But who should I thank, will you say "pentru nimic"?
From all the good days which one should I pick?
Until tomorrow comes, tonight will be quiet- tick

I have a part in me that's worried and scared
A part that's there and does go no where
A small piece laying within alone, spared
Its like my mind always says, "be prepaired"

But the good in the world doesn't let me stand behind
The good in us is so beautiful, im not blind
I know we can be better together combined
And our future awaits for us aligned.

I feel love in different ways than you do
And if your hands don't touch me, then i can't touch you

I need love deeper than what i tell and show
And when we're together i swear that i want more

I wish love cause i dont have someone else
They don't touch i cant i dont let my friends

When will this need of me stop?
I feel so lonely on skin body heart top

My mouth is sealed my eyes just stare
Alone i hold my hands what can i bare?

I'm tired and i want to cry so often all the time
But is it your fault or do i just complain and whine?

I'm tired really, a lot i want to release
And no matter what i do, i cant find inner peace.

I wish you were right and the word love was enough
I'm sorry, I am , i want so scream, this poem is so rough

I thought writting this will make me feel better already
But it didn't I swear I'm just staring at my screen angry and unsteady

I don't think I'm ever finding my wish
I just want to crawl in my chest and die, *******