She had looked forward to
this life with him
sharing a house and some
kids and meals
dancing in the living room
(although with some diffidence
sometimes).
She ended up looking back
to a life without
anything like that
but travels and lucky stars
and the wind taking care of the laundry.

With a soul
that romantic
and too much
time@the telly

When we are on the phone
I look at myself in the mirror
cannot help but
feel turned on by
this girl reflection
the one you bring out
the one I want to be
pretty slim witty
with wrinkles when smiles
with good ******* and tight waist
my best dress saved for this
day and date
nonexistent not arranged yet
not tempted either anyway.

The reason I feel that insecure when you
take my picture is that -
apart from you taking
forever and me
getting over-selfconscious -
my image is stored for always.

Feeling secure about being insecure

High expectations
Low self-esteem
Loud mouth
Little heart
Fatal combination
To love x life
Still some hopeful days
Left though

I only need one reason
That you're good to me
Since I cannot do that to myself
Although I embrace when nights come