He feels sad that he wants ❤️
Feels afraid to open up
To show how he truly feels
Inside he doesn't want ❤️ at
It's most extreme he just wants
To be 😁 in positive relationships
He believed in ❤️ when he was
Younger but the pain of the world
Left his ❤️ shattered, now
He tries to find the ❤️ he never got
In the body of someone else
Realising he will only get attached
And his ❤️ broken all over again

The pain in his ❤️ grows from
His childhood trauma, the dark
Thoughts seems to creep in
Like a thief in the night he 🤔
Why he feels like he's undeserving of ❤️
When all he ever heard was hate
Disguised as tough ❤️ he 😭
🤔 Why this pain runs so wild
He feels lost in his 🧠 yet peace in
His ❤️ feeling lifted from all the
Lies told by the ones he ❤️
It seem the 🌞 will start to shine again
When he realises the 🌧️ has already left.

Stuck between ☹️ and 😊 he 🤔
Why he can't seem to find ☮️
When all he has ever know is pain
His 🧠 lies telling him everything would
Be fine when he can't 😴 and the 👿
Is trying to play tricks with his mind
An escape from this 🌎 doesn't help
So he 🍾 it all up 🤔 that will help
But the 🤬 and pain keep pilling up
Inside and he wonders when it will
All be said and done now he hopes
That God will help him heal and cope
With all this deep emotions 🏃‍♀️ wild
Inside of him.

Surrounded by 🥃 he 🤔 where
😃 Is found at the end of the 🍾
He gets wasted to escape the pain
And wastes ⌚trying to find ☮️ of 🧠
It seems the more drunk he gets
The more his ❤️ breaks as he can't
Keep 🏃‍♀️from the emotions that run deep
His friend says hey just crack another
🍾 It will all go away while he is on his
7th cup wishing he stayed.
Home where he could find some ☮️
From 🙏 to the Lord above for some
Help but he is now drunk having
Conversations that ain't no help
Now he asks himself why he escapes
The pain riddles his 🧠 but only finds
Himself drinking just to feel like himself.

The balloon was floating in the air
Wondering through the city
Looking for a place of accession
Until it met a tree and got stuck
A little boy saw this ballon and
If he could get it but ended up
Stuck in the same tree cause
He was scared to come down
He cried for help till a fireman came
And got the boy and the balloon out of the tree

Thoughts in his mind begin to close in
Asking him why he still chooses to be alive
When the ones he loved left him broken, alone and scared
That if he may open up again pain comes with it
Scared that love was never meant for him
Since every women that said they loved him lied
And used him as a way to heal their pain
It lies deep inside his mind that he's nothing
But a failure who's incapable of receiving love left
Broken and in shambles it all comes crashing down

Wondering why he chose to open up to a world so cold
Leaving him shaken, battered, and bruised from all
The abuse he suffered as a child he wonders why
All this pent-up aggression still lays inside
He tries to let it all go but feels like he is at the end of his rope
Stuck between letting go of the past and embracing the new
He goes back and forth with himself questioning choices
Asking what could have been had he not been
Consumed by all the pain and hurt the people
Who tired to help yet he pushed them away
Cause he felt he could swim through the ocean alone
But the current so strong it left him drowning and all alone