PLEASURE
Temporary,delusional feeling that only last to supress the true feeling of love
Something we all seek indirectly,not knowing our instincts
Are being persuaded
The same way an animal is preyed on
Let's recap for a second
PLEASURE
Was supposed to be the next level to a relationship
More like a super powerful hierarchy
Thay controls all emotions
And manifests the best characteristics in human nature

I still remember the first words you said to me
But I sometimes wished I had the powers to crush and turn them into dust
So that the wind could bury them
Because my heart and brain cannot come to a conclusion whether those first words were lethal or not

I am still hoping for the day karma catches you and reminds you of me
Especially the pain you've caused me
The humiliation
The mental damage without any prescription
I just pray one day you'll be sitting with your new partner and subconsciously
You can still remember the day I bought you chocolate and only to find out that it was a treat for your new hype chick
This entire scene runs through my mind every day and each second I meet an eye contact with you
Or even when I get to smell your scent

Loving you is something I thought I could've really accomplished
But I guess you were just another boy without a heart
Allowing me to fall for you without any medical attendance
And this why my heart can no longer seem to function
Because it's left with a mark that shows how dreadful it was trying to love you
It no longer beats 10 times faster,even when I'm sitting next to you
Close enough to feel your sins
Because only you made my body shiver on a sunny day
And only you gave me goosebumps to remind me why love can be a wonderful journey that I never hesitated
To experience
And you still the only one I'm dying to forget
Because you just another boy without a heart

I hear people talking about honouring dead beat father's
So here's my toast to every men that contribute his ***** and still feels like the world owes him a round of applause
Let's be realistic,how you do you want to be honoured for being the same reason your little girl ends up in intergenerational relationship with men
That feed on her flesh and mind
Believing it's called replacing the daddy's love and attention that never existed

Cheers to you!
For being the same reason you little girl can't stick in a relationship
Because genetically she's been instilled with the fear of being abandoned
So she chooses to hurt other *****
Because hurting other people brings her pleasure,as pain is the only memory she has of you

Cheers to you once again!
For never understanding there's a correlation between between being a father and a daddy
For neglecting your own seed precociously
Expecting another men to water your plant
While you,unknowingly plant more seeds in the deserts and claim they not yours

But we all know life is like a movie sequel
The same child you abandoned
Will be the one burying you.

Huguette.

Words 
Are the reason I am still trying to understand why you loved me less,because of how my complexion resembled darkness
Words
Have been the reason I disguise myself and hoping that being a shade lighter will make me be your favourite morning latte
Words
Have open more wounds than a locksmith can ever unlock
Words
Made me quench for a smooth drink,only for you to serve me a glass of water
Hoping that maybe someday these flames
Will burnt out

Huguette.