Black is the only colour that I see
I want to scream until someone hears me
I can’t because I am to vain
Day to day life is hard to maintain
Something inside feels like it’s missing
Can’t tell a soul they would be dissing
Only thing I can think of is black
Empty feelings come crawling back
I never want anyone to feel this pain
Only thing I can think of keeps me sane
The only way for me to escape
I’m in a panic I cannot break
Try to move forward try to move on
Don’t think I really belong

When you sat next to me I felt your energy
your longing for love your craving for another soul
I wanted to reach out and touch you
But our social norms kept us only strangers
both of our souls a 1000's years old
we were lovers in another life
but in this one it wasn't meant to be
I wont forget your smell,face or skin
You and I are the same
I can never forget how you made my day
When you sat next to me I felt your loneliness
You felt mine as well
we should of danced but both are scarred.

Dark clouds always follow me
Always wondering if it will end
Rains so much I can not see
Waiting for a call no one sends
Everyone seems so free
Wishing I had a friend
Angry looks I just want to be
Sadness that will not mend

Water pours on my head
Nothing to keep me dry
Just want to stay in bed
Can’t stand even if I tried
Always filled with dread
Just want to go and hide
Wishing I was home instead
No place to go inside

Why do I need someone in my life?
Why can't I just feel normal, no strife?
Its not that hard its fairly simple
But my motivation factor is so little.

My inflated ego needs to deflate
please poke me I am not awake

I'm just like everyone else
Not to different than yourself
Need to get this out of my head
Wish I could push restart instead

Born inside a castle on top of a hill
What was a life has taken a spill
Can’t march to the beat of a drum
Some might consider you dumb

Forced fed what my future should be
don’t want to be part of that reality
Can’t get a grasp of some stability
don’t think I have that kind of ability

Just want to make up my own mind
realize I have fallen way behind
Wish I followed the path like I should
I think way to much for my own good

Living in a shack down by the river
At this age your expected to deliver
Don’t want none of your ways
Just rather waste till the end of days

When our eyes lock I smile right at you
Your cold look stops my smile from getting thru
Just a friendly hello is all I ask
If we start talking it will be a blast

You would feel better if you smiled at me
I would ask how you are now you see
I am a friendly stranger just like you
Kind hearted individual thru and thru

World needs more people like us
Wouldn’t be so much trouble no fuss
Moments like this seem to remind me
People can treAt people so kindly

People can treat one another really rough
I’m putting my foot down I’ve had enough
The World isn’t always a beautiful place
Be kind to one another just in case

Just so you know I didn’t create myself
I was dealt my hand like everyone else
Always asking why I’m not like yourself
Always looked puzzled like everyone else

I am me I can’t change that
Your angry stairs will fall flat

I can never change my past
Need to move on and start living
That’s why it’s called the past
Glad everyone is forgiving

I can paint a pretty picture
I have been doing it all my life
Work so hard to insure
My life is full of strife

Sun always seemed to shine on me
you look away it starts raining
The Beautiful life is not for free
Just to make it there can be draining

Don’t want to hold myself back
Something is always in the way
I think it’s intelligence that I lack
For my own happiness I have to pay

Maybe I should let you have it
because I love you
I don't know how to say it
But I know its true
You may never know how I feel
Would you even care?
This feeling I have for you
I can't even bare
No words can express this love
I have for you
I don't know how to say it
But I know its true

Puppy love is the worst
because you hate me
My heart is so big
But you will never see
I gotta tell you something
Something really big
I could of made you happy
Happy like you wouldn't believe
This might come as a surprise
But I love you
I don't know how to say it
But I know its true

Come join us your life will be great
I don’t want to I enjoy being me
Conform like us before it’s to late
And be like everyone else can’t you see
Join the party so you can be fake
I’m not fake I just want to be
Being like that will get you hate
I don’t mind hate as long as I’m free

No wonder your life is so lame
I’m not lame I just enjoy being free
Don’t you want your life to be the same
I do but it’s not real how you want to be
No wonder you were always insane
Your the insane one I enjoy being me
Why do you think we are all the same
Because you don’t think about being free

In my dreams you are here with me
In my dreams my life is fine
In my dreams I can see me
In my dreams I have committed no crime
In my dreams I can be me
In my dreams I have plenty of time

In my dreams people are near me
In my dreams we laugh and cry
In my dreams everyone can see me
In my dreams I don't have to hide
In my dream you are happy to see me
In my dreams I laugh and don't cry

As I look up at the ceiling
I start to get that feeling
I start to feel her might
The light shinning in my face so bright

each passing second I cannot stop
all the effort for it to drop

I thought things went well that day
I tried so hard to make her stay
I scared her so she went away
I really do miss her today

Walk that path I have done before
I'm the only one who can't score
everyone is content in their life
If I sound that I would be supprised

each passing second I cannot stop
all the effort it to drop

I thought things went well that day
I tried so hard to make her stay
I scared her and she went away
I really do miss her today

This loneliness is getting to me
expressions on my face that you can see
the stress of finding someone
the stress of locating the one

each passing second I cannot stop
all the effort for it to drop

I thought things went well that day
I tried so hard to make her stay
I scared her so she went away
I really do miss her today.

Spend all day working in the sand
Sweating bullets just to make us grow
Why do I bother giving you a hand
Lets move forward but you don't want to go
Not going to change your mind
Don't get why you stick around
Your mixed feeling are wasting time
All I want is us rising off the ground
Tired of being the nice guy always
They normally read you fairly quick
You are the flavor only some days
Its only temporary its never sticks

stand up straight shoulders back
don't forget the golden rule
its time to get your life on track
get out there and jump in the pool

turn lemon into lemon aid
wreckage of a hurricane

something is holding me back
this situation has made me a fool
no motivation I only see black
I don't want to go back to school

want to be on the outside looking in?
Life will be a challenge let me begin
People will look at you with hate
The thin ice of life is hard to skate

Forget about having people to talk to
You will never have your own crew
Be prepare for an internal kind of day
Those hate filled stairs are here to stay

You spent to much time to yourself
Wish your feelings go on the shelf
Voices get louder when your by yourself
You will be wishing for your health

Life is not like a TV commercial
Can't always get what you want
sick and tired of all the infomercials
you realize that is  not what I want

Everyone is stuck in their safe space
I got the modern day blues
I just want to be in my own place
spend most of my day looking for clues

everyone is on separate levels
some don't know how to move on
spend your life barely making pebbles
does it even matter in the great beyond

lower will always cater to the top
just trying to climb the latter
doesn't feel like it will ever stop
in the end does it all really matter

What I thought was real turned out to be surreal
you keep me waiting for a another moment
Unsure of your end game unsure if you are real
Struggle to find comfort in your messages
are you feeling the same way I feel?
You said our conversation was intense
I know your hurt I didn't mean to steal
Left waiting for another moment
Every second every hour I can feel.
Our thoughts and wants are not the same
Maybe you just need time to heal.
Sinking feeling is keeping me down
Spending all day wondering how you deal
maybe you feel the same as me
Wishing it meant more wishing it was real
Love shouldn't be so difficult on the soul.

Would you want to be a friend?
someone I can count on till the end
I am not a perfect person but I am nice
would you give me good advice?

In real life is what matters
it might look like my life is in tatters
would you run away like the rest?
or would you stick around and pass the test?

Looking for people in the wrong places
Nothing but wrong people in these spaces
searching for something that is real
looking for someone who doesn't steal

sent across the ocean looking for love
why can't I be set free just like a dove
can't find that person that fits like a glove
feels like i am pushed down from above.

you can stand on my neck in your high heels
I would let you abuse me just to see how it feels
that 40 dollars I know I'll never get back
I will still love you and its a matter of fact.

I know I will be up thinking of you
you look me in the eye and don't have a clue
The pain I go through just for this
I know it will be worth it just for one kiss.

Grab them high grab them low
Soon you will feel the flow
They are ripe they are ready
Go ahead and pick a berry
Up and down side to side
its a bear time to hide
Pick them fast pick them slow
Don't worry they will always grow

Don't drop then they are hard to carry
Smash the berries turn them into jelly

Can't speak to another person
Don't think there is a solution
Won't be part of the evolution
Need to be put in an institution

Night on the town won't help
This emotion I have always felt
Feelings of guilt and shame won't go away
My life will always be this way

Standing alone I think to myself
I'll never have it so good again
our relationship unraveled itself
both of us hurt we have to pretend

wishing we could go back and fix it
I saw you with him I must of missed it

You were always there for me
in my darkest hours you were there
now your gone I can see
it was to late to show that I cared

I look back on our time in the sun
wish we didn't part we only just begun

Why can't we go back to the way it was
I know it won't happen just because
I took you for granted that's why you left me
Just want things to be the way they use to be

How do I get out of this place every time I try I seem to fail
Its no ones fault it is my own I don't think I belong here
Youth is wasted on the young I think I finally have gone stale
One step forward two steps back I can't seem to change gears
Can't stand the changing feelings I can't escape this world
Constantly in their cross hairs why don't they just shoot
Its finally built up in side me but why don't I unfurl
Everyone has their own feelings but mine seem moot

Its easy to crack a smile
even that will go a mile
picking them off of the ground
there will be no reason to frown

Its easy to sit and stare
your judgement will go no where

its easier to love than hate
for most people that's their mistake
its time to open our hearts  
respecting everyone is a start

I can feel you're eyes judging me
you can't tell but I can see
I know you only want the best for me
why can't you just let me be

social situations always bring me down
trying to swim so I don't drown
i'll let you have today you can wear the crown
just don't forget me when im not around

Everyone around me is talking
I want to speak up but you block me
you can all run but im still walking
topic you talk about  are so daunting

life is so strange how things can be
this crazy life has taken alot from me
emotions constantly distract so I can't see
Another wasted life taken from me

What do they have that I don't have
You can tell me don't feel bad
is it the way they can talk to you
is it the way they can *****
im not perfect but I am a man
Why do I feel like i'm always on the stand

I got something they will never have
my endless love for you
you can tell me don't feel bad
this soul was made for two

Does he have lots of money
he makes you laugh he is kind of funny
he can't offer the things I have
if you choose me you will be glad
I can give you endless love
just pick me our emotions will rise like a dove

I got stories that will blow you're mind
only if you give me the time
I got stories that will make you love me
just say yes and you will see
I will entertain you until the end of time
just take the chance to hear me rhyme

I promise you will fall in love
both of us together we fit like a glove
hand in hand until the end of time
my love won't cost you a dime
just take a chance take the gamble
I promise you can handle

Please just be with me
I promise you the air land and sea
unconditional love is on my mind
I know that is really hard to find
you will fall in love with me
just take a chance and you will see

Endless nights lying in bed
million thoughts within my head
cant stop thinking of her
won't give up until i'm sure

spend hours thinking of you
I hope you think of me too

When can I call you baby?

This feeling of rejection won't go away
My endless sadness is here to stay
Waiting for an answer waiting for a sign
in the end they are just a fantasy of mine.

I see you with him I go out of my mind
We both know I have to be strong
you've moved on and left me behind
whatever I did to do you wrong
I should of put the effort to be kind
I want you to know that you belong
My heart is sinking now that you're gone
Miss you everyday can't get you out of my mind
I just want you to know that I was wrong
You have moved on and left me behind
wish you were here to show you belong
in my arms i'm sorry I was wrong.