we met 2 years ago
on a casual tinder date
a few years apart but I could care less
you had brown hair and bright blue eyes
and a smile to die for

I said "what do you want" after a few times
"nothing serious" & "you're too young" was your reply
well that was before you had changed your mind

now, easy come and easy go
nothing's for free in this world of hope
you give and you take, and sometimes it just doesn't work out.

Sometimes I still think of you
Sometimes I still cry a river over you

There we were
In a world of full of pretend

When the distance
And life got between us

But we said we still wished each other the best
We still love each other, not even a little less

You know that is mutual love and respect

I would not like to be a feather, light and free
I'll take the shards and be sharp as a weapon,
And be molded to something new, again & again

I would not like to be human, kind and horrific
To be something I could not explain into words
I sense to have no senses at all
At times, to see and be blind to the core
To pretend to have purpose at all cost

To be on the brink of collapse,
And be reflected in society, political and what not

can you explain something that could explained in the languages we created at all?

I think I've taken my inner monologue to my machine, and am a machinery now.

I am, and I am not.
I think, and I don't have thoughts at all.
I'm programmed, and was never programmed at all.

The leaves are falling
For new ones to blossom
And then they were just.. gone
But not you and I
We stay here.

I like the pure sour taste of lemons,
I also enjoy their color,
On a gloomy summer day, on my kitchen bench
They never miss to bring color to my room.

I’ve travelled, and I’ve seen many fruits,
All with different shapes, colors and textures,
Some were sweet, but the sour taste of lemons
I appreciate too much to water it down.

My mind is a torn up town
It can turn my smile into a frown
In 1,2,3 seconds
And I keep counting
To keep myself from thinking
…
Sometimes I say «shut up»
Out loud, and people see my eyes drifting
Far far away
Cause my mind is my worst enemy
…
And people say «tomorrow will be a better day»
That would be easy if this disease was just a mentality
Some days I wake up
Thinking it was just a nightmare
Until it comes creeping in
Telling me this will forever be a part of me
…
But I’m a fighter, and I’ll fight that part
Cause I won’t let this be the death of me
And I pray
Please don’t let this be death of me
…
My mind is a torn up town
I wish you could believe me
When I say
There’s a real war
Playing inside my head from the moment
I wake up

I keep scrolling through my socials
Like they have a significant meaning to my life
Obsessively looking at someones elses night

I keep dating guys
Who don't believe in love
Thinking somehow I can change their mind

I keep daydreaming
The days, the years are piling on
And I think back to simpler times

I keep hearing a ticking sound in the back of my mind
Whispering to me, to dance freely in this ordinary life
The timer's set
From the second I first opened my eyes

I’m a woman.
Proud to be.
I’m strength.
Life giver.
I am the elixir.

I am.
Written by the world.
Folded and Formed.
Held underwater,
By the fear of my greatness,
What a man only could wish to be.

I'm shape, I'm color, I'm sunlight.
The man in the shadow, put the labels to the tables...

There's music playing in the living room
I'm walking toward the sound
I'm walking toward you
You turn to look at me and you smile
You play each key with the love you had for me
Then
It's a sweet memory
It plays on and on
In my heart
And I love, and hate how it makes me feel

I’ve never understood the need to be mercilessly logical.

The need to sit still and listen, to fit into the picture every situation, like a contract you signed off on when you were born.

The first moment, you felt that you were playing by a playbook, and you were loved but then disliked in a flip of a switch.

Molded like a factory product, can’t you see?

Logic is a disease, but the little dreamer was always free.

When there is real love
There is nothing more real
Than me & you
Like the world is breathing
Just for us.

Easy come and easy go
This is a material world
More than anything else
Reality is the view from my room
And my dreams are a torn up town
You give yourself to this world
Or you can let it all go

You have me on my knees
My heart, soul and body broken
How could you shatter something you once loved
Like it was easy
Just because it was hard
When did we give up
Just because it wasn't easy

I love you with every ounce of my soul
I would give my body for yours any day
I would rather leave this place than be without
You
Still, you'd rather take the easy way out
God, you have me on my knees
Take this heartache
I'd rather not feel anything at all

You have me on my knees
You take my love
You take my will
You take everything I have
You had me on my knees
Thinking it was punishment
But I see the lesson
I see the bigger picture
The truth is the soil, the wind, the pain
And I won't take anything for granted ever again