Everyday I fall further.
Every night I get lost deeper in my mind.

How far will I fall?
Will I be found?

I hit rock bottom.
I hit without making a sound.

I have the heart of a killer.
I have the mind of a warrior.
I have the soul of a wolf.
I may not look threatening,
But I am more deadly than I am portrayed to be.

If you saw what was under my sleeves, you wouldn't come near me.

I choose to hide the scars because I'm tired of being alone.

The scars of loneliness are deep and never go away.

Some fade, but still remain visible.

If you knew what I've done to myself, you wouldn't stay.

Yeah, I have trust issues.
You would too after being backstabbed as many times as me.

Everyone, who you thought of as trustworthy, stabbing at the same time. For your entire life, until adulthood.

Then the blades break, left under the skin as a constant reminder.
A reminder of what happens when you trust others.

So, yeah, I've got trust issues.
Because trust is an illusion.

You don't know what its like
To be unwanted by everyone,
To see through all the fake smiles
they show.

You don't know what its like
To want to die,
And be unwanted by Death.

But I do.
I live with this pain everyday.
Knowing that not even Death wants me.

I suffer in silence,
Not because I won't speak,
But because no one will listen.

It never ends..

Anxiety holds me back
With the uncertainty
Of a successful attempt.
Depression tells me to
"Try until you die."
Anxiety asks me
"What if you fail?
Where will you be if you fail?"
Before I can think of a response
Anxiety tells me the answer.
"You will be in a place that will
Unleash me upon you
Sending you into a rage."
Then, Anxiety whispers
"Do you really want that?"
Depression responds with
"But, maybe you will be killed in the chaos."
Anxiety then tells me the odds of that are low and the situation would get worse.
Then I think to myself
"Is this really what I've come to?"
Then Depression puts its cold hand on my shoulder and says
"You can lose yourself to us, or we can lose you."

It never ends..

They say look in side yourself to find peace. I look inside myself and find only darkness, pain, and death. So tell me how can I find peace if all there seems to be is destruction, despair, and hate?