it wasn't
till I first
saw you,

that I
first held
forever
in my
eyes.

a hard
choice of
reality,

a deep dive
into all
that was
unknown
to me.

it was
a hole
in my
soul
bled dry,

of doubt
and innocence.

a celestrial
rainbow across
my sight,
with only
the color
of two.

and then
the mating
to one

tonight.

You know
the ones
when you
see it  
it becomes
a carnival
ride that
you can
never
get off.

and their
name never
matters,

just the tilt
of their
head,

relationships
without
bad rhymes
or cliches,

and the touch
from their
lips across

your face
over and
over again.

like  electricity
running through
your veins
over and over
again.

rodeo smiles
it was like
the fourth of
july every
moment that
I was with
you,

in our
naked
bed
slumbering
under harvest
moons in

bloom..

I can
still feel
you in
my bones,

as if
the marrow
of my
bones is
running
dry.

I can
still hear


the whispers
of my heart
calling
to you.

from twenty
years before.

it is
still the
sent of
you in
the air
whenever
it is a
rainy day,

the brings
you back
to  me.

and stil
I am none
the wiser
for missing
you.

and the
stars are
a few
shades less
now that
I stand
looking
up  at
them without
you.

did I
tell you
that I can
still feel
you in
my bones?

but I am
sure of all
the certainties
of the
world,

you will
forever
know

that.

and that
feeling
will
never
release me.

nor would
I ever
want it

to.

it was
a room
that we
slept in over 40
years ago.

it was
a child
that was
born in
the great
city of
Hollywood,

and then
grew up
to be
more than
anything
or anyone
that
I could
of ever
dreamed
about.

back pocket
dreams and
broken pieces
let on
this road
that God
has blessed
my life.

a beggar,
a father,
a husband

a lover of
everything
that is you.

a moments
sigh,

as your
breath breathes.
in and
against
my chest.

we are
like sand
and shore
that have
been carved
and shaped
by one another
into this
moment over
thousand
of years.

but now
to be with
you here
tonight,

is a
testimony
that
we have
always
been together.

before time
before woman
and man.

and yet
now as you
surrender
before me
husband and
wife,

it is
certain and
true to
the stars
that nothing
in this
universe will
ever be
as great

again.

nothing left
to hide
nothing left
to give,

life and love
have stripped
and mined it
all away
from me,

and time
has consumed.
all the
tidbits  of
me that
might at
one time
or another
been yummy
or satisfying,

to her or
them or
whatever.

and still
almost
not by choice
have all
the pieces
in my life
still miraculously
fallen in
together

to this.

I love you.

forget me not
in your
shadowed
eyes.

the confessions
are between
you and your
God tonight.

and as
you play
your part
in your
shadow dances.

be not afraid
just be
yourself,

it was
always your
greatest
gift
to me.

and the
sting
that awaits.
you,


be assured.
all of
your debts
in this
world have
been fully
paid.

for it
is now
I who will
be the
lonely
pauper
without

you.