In my dream
it was coming
on Christmas,

it was
the birth
of a journey
unlike anything
that I
had ever
been on
before.

and it
was the
first time
for feelings
that I
had never
felt before.

and I knew
it was you
in my heart,

from the
first moment
that I saw
you.

something definite
magically defined
like silver stars
that dance on
the blackest
sky on
a chill
winter's night.

and ask nothing
of the sky
but a view.

a soft and
tender kiss
that can
never be forgotten.

and as
I hold
you now,

I still
witness the
stars dancing
in your
eyes,

in this life
that has become
our grace.

in the
dreams that
I have found
my true love

in the
universe
that I have
found in

you.

in the
silence of
a tender
smile

upon your
face.

tonight.

With our love
what I have
found and what I
have left
behind,

we are
the sum total
of everything
in my
universe.

that night
you walked
away in
shadows
like a stray
alley cat off
to look for
a tasty morsel.

and I was all
for the less
for it,

and you
have wandered
in and
out of
half empty
beds every since,

even back into
mine now
and then.

drunk in
the night
wondering
when anything
good might
come out
of this.

and now
30 years
of our love
has left
you,

and the color
of your
amber eyes
have gone
dark.

but you were
a child once,

and then
you grew
it all away
to runaway
from all
consequences.

and my arms
that just
wanted to
hold you.

and love.

now  time
is not
your friend
anymore

and our love
has left
your bones
cold and
old.

and what
will become
of you..

only God
surely knows.

Through the
marrow of
my bones
I do love
you,

where it
is the purest
white.

in the
heart of
the deepest
black night
do I see
you,

and surrender
to your black
smoked eyes.

and as you
lie open
and waiting.

for the
taste of
us.

I feel it.

and wonderland
is not for
children
anymore..

we have become
the sunrise
and the sunset
in our
lives.

the Romeo
and Juliet
of the dreams
tucked
underneath
our bedroom
pillows.

nothing
reminds me
of my life
before you.

you have
changed all
of that.

we carve
the rivers
edge ,

and forever is
just up ahead
within reach,

of our first kiss

tonight.

And she
said "yes!"

she will
marry me,

and it
entirely changed
the apex of
my life's point
of view.

and now there
were two.

it was like
jumping off
a cliff and
landing on
only a deep
ocean sky.

and love was all
we knew ,

and
my dreams
were all we
lived.

together in
everything that
we did.

and "I love you
became our
point of view.

it was
the perfect timing
of the universe.

when

I asked
her to marry me

and she "said Yes"

Love me
naked beyond
flesh or bone,

trace your
fairytale dreams
to memory upon
my lips,

runaway your
passion and lust
across my eyes,

and never
let the sun
run to retire.

and deep inside
our eyes
we will define
our destiny,

and we
will never
let each other go.

and as all
of your love
falls out
of time..

nothing will
be left
but you and I.

so let me
be your
more,

and never
be satisfied
with less.

to be young
to die old
inside  your
angel eyes

and sing.

caught a smile
of you in
my mind today,

and it was
like my last
memory of
you,

was happening
right before
my eyes.

and everything
in life
was pure,

and  the kiss
upon your
lips was
just for
me.

and all
my souls
seasons
fell into
one,

and the
clouds in
the sky
were everything
in my eyes.

and you
in my
heart.

and love
was old
and it was
new.

and my soul
was sky
and you took
me with you.

today and
all of
our days
that might
follow.

and it was
easy to
see everything
in me

is you...

I am older now,
a little less
blind,

a little
bit wiser
to your
gypsey smile,

and I will not
ever fall
into it
again.

you never
had a plan
for me,

not the kind
that would
really last.

a kitten playing
with a ball
of yarn
and my heart
will never
recover again.

it will
just have
to live
with it's scratches
of valor
of loving you.

and such are
my days for
you,

you come in
and out of
them like sunlight
dancing naked
through a
tree.

time has no
reference to you,
and as all
of these
years pass,

I have come
to realize
some of the
things that
I gave you
I can never
get back.

but they call
to me from
now and
then,

like rainbows after
a storm.

or echos
of lost love
that bring
harmony to
my ears.

and so
I sit here
again.

and only you
and I know
why.