Your mother

and I

stood

on

the exit

steps of

Kaiser hospital

in Hollywood

the day

after you

were born.


The nurse

handed us

some brochures

and said

she wished

us all

of the best,

and that

you were

one of the

most beautiful

babies that

she had

ever seen.


your mom

and I

just looked

at each other

wondering why

no one was

coming

home with us

to help us

raise you

until you

were at least

18 or so.


The morning dawn

was just coming

up over the

hills and I

knew our

lives would

never be

the same,


and that

I would

try with

all of my might

to be a good

father for you,


but deep inside

I was thinking

what in

the world

am I

suppose to

do with

you now.


so for

the next 30

or so years

we tried

our best and

gave you

all of our love

and all

the ounces of

our wisdom.


and you

have given me

more than

I ever thought

possible for

a daughter

to give her

father.


and to have

the honor of

raising you

through the

years


in my life

that has

made all

of the difference

in the world.

Something I

remember

most about

you.



When you were

about 4 years

old for

some odd

reason you

would want

me to

cuddle with you

and lie down

and read

books in

the corner

of  a room.



it would

never take

long and soon

you were

in your

angel sleep.



and often

was the

time we would

wake up

in a pile

of blankets

in the morning

that way.



with each

of our dreams

tucked away

in each other's

heads.



with you resting

your head

on my

arm and

your tangled

angel hair all

wrapped up

around my

face.



I never asked

you for reasons

why but

eventually

you grew out

of this phase,



but to this day

those nights

with you

lying next to

me with your

stuffed animals

were some

of the most

tenderest moments

of my life.



your little

angel sighs  

when you

would turn

your body

one way

and then

the next.



and every

moment it

just meant

more and more

to me

to realize

that for the



rest of

my life

that God

had given

me you

to take

care of.



and now at

21 one years

old you

are one of

the most

beautiful things

that I

have ever

seen.

And on

your birthday

God

handed you

to me,



and I felt

unworthy.



no matter

of fate

could bring

such a

perfect child

here to

me.



and our

stars were

from that

moment

crossed,



and  my heart

became full

of you.



and dinosaurs

and sci-fi

movies and

sports would

be the

stories of

our lives.



and evening

prayers of

faith would

be our

canopy.



and your

worldly travels

would fill

your dreams,



and I would

grow old

and you

would constantly

make me

feel loved,



cause even

in the

greatness of

the man

you have

become,



always in

your eyes



I still

see my

child.



and that

is the

greatest

moment

in my

life ,



that I

have ever

come to

know.

You will see
her move
in and out,

like a cat through
the back alleys
of her life,

never staying
to long in
one place,

barely long
enough to
catch your
first name
and rarely
ever your
last.

and her
kisses will
lose there
conviction
after one
kiss maybe
two.

but her
claws in
your back
will run
deep,

and the
sighs in
her thighs
will hold
tight,

and then
in the morning
she is gone,

like she was
almost ashamed
of it all.

she says she
is looking
for true
love,

fat chance of
that.

stupid cat...

4/13 /2012

and where
your dreams
lie in
deep slumber
so do
mine.

and the
crimson
sunset
each morning
is the
horizon
we dance
and sing
upon.

and forever
is the
place
inside
your eyes,

that I
have always
searched
to find ,

since
I was
a child
and then
as
I grew
to be
a man.

and peace
is the
field of
gold
our thoughts
lie tangled
in lover's
bound.

and to
each
other
we are
the mirror
to which
we see
God
at his
best.

and not
fire
or hell
could
ever
pull
us apart
from
each
other's
side,

we are
the soil
in which
each other
grows.

and this
world
is but
a temporary
glimpse
of what
we shall
become,

when the
time
of judgment
arrives,

and you
will be
the light
and soul
in my
eyes,

the moment
God calls
us home,

and my
life
will be
yours
in time,

just as
in this
simplest
of
moments,

like a
new bornl
child reaches
'in trust
and yearning

the first
time
he sees
his mother's

eyes.

the universe poem

we laugh
and dance
under
the same
sky,

we share
the same
blood
,

in the
children
that we
raise,

gifts from
heaven
given
in great
faith,

from God
to the
mother
to the
father,

to our
hearts
and souls.

the reflection
of our
youth
in their
eyes,

the promise
of our
future in
their days
to come.


they grow
and take
with them
all that
is me
and all that

is you.

but the best
parts
will be
mostly of
you,

because
you are
the center
of our
universe,

and to
you we
will always
love.

like clouds
to sky,

stars to
black.

without
you.

we would

surly die.






i

Behind the
innocence
of your
morning
smile,

I find
peace,

and in
the feeling
of your
gentle
breathing
as you
awake,

with your
face
pressed
close
against
my chest,

I find hope.

to begin
another day,

to worship
you another
moment,

and the
falling
of stars
in your
eyes
at dawn

captivates
me like,

a fire
moth
drawn
to a
****** flame.

and the
eternity
in your
kiss
overwhelms
me,

like lightning
exploding
across
a hot
indian
summer
sky.

and as I
lie in your
arms I
know,

all that will
ever
become
of me,

is written
in  God's
hand,

in this
morning
glimmer

in your
eyes.

and in the
angel touch
of your
heart,

and in
the holy
baptism
of your
soul as
it lies
this
morning

with mine.