This morning, I'm awaken by the intense pounding of my heart...
This morning,  I realized your not coming back...
This morning,  I felt the loss of you all over...
This morning, I wished it was me instead of you...

Why not me?

one day i will grow up..
one day i will show love...
one day you will arrive...
one day you will leave...
one day i will be all alone...
one day i will see you again...
life is short please enjoy the time you have with your loved one before you know it one day you will see it...

I hate everything..

Wish I was holding you tonight...

Monday-- you messaged...
Tuesday--- what luck you messaged  again.
Wednesday--- wow 3 days in a roll..
Thursday--- what's really going on haven't  heard from you on a daily in a long time dont get me wrong  it makes me smile...
Friday--- MIA.

I'm home sick this feeling that I am feeling it just wont quit..
Half of me is missing and heaven knows it..
That all I wanna do is be alone with...
Your brown eyes all tangled up just holding.
Onto you tonight until the morning..
Baby that's the damm truth...
If home is where the heart is then I'm homesick for you...

For it wasn't my eyes you were looking into it was my window...
For it wasn't my air you took from me it was my being...
For it wasn't my heart that you took from me it was my soul....

This isn't so bad....
       I can't breathe....
               I'm chocking....
                    I'm sinking.......
                           There's no way up...
Life something feels like this......

*** I take in the biggest breath....
All I smell is the  esses of your scent  on my pillow..
Come back don't go to work....
Hugs,kisses, and smooches throughout the day....
Makes the night time ready to play....


Oh Gabe what did you do

Live with love while you can because love is only a live to hurt in the end.

I've left my heart by the ocean...

I realized today...
That even though you are not with me today...
When the breeze blows it's you sending me hugs....
missing my love

Austin city limits....
We talked about it...
We talked more about it...
We decided....
We bought...
We drove...
We drank...
We ******* rocked our ***** off ....
METALLIC RULES!!!!

The monster within me cries out for help..
The monster within me needs help..
The monster within me thinks of only me...
The monster within me says who cares who gets hurt in the long run...
    But I care.
The monster within me says take him for all he's got....
    But that's not me.
The monster within me says he really doesn't love you....
   But I love him.
The monster within me says true love is only for believers...
    But I believe....
The monster within me... oh that monster what am I to do???

Awaken by the blissfull sound of baby talk..
Googoo gaagaa...
A little laughter ..God has granted me the sound of a beautiful baby...

Tall dark and handsome, that's my Gabe...
Dreamy eyes that when he looks at me I feel pretty...
Lips so sweet, they are truly a treat...
Arms so strong, they are surly to hang on...
With a passion for making love we will surely over come...
One day together we maybe as for today we shall see....

So much has happened...
So much has been done..
So much has been said...
So much time has passed...
When will you stop being selfless and doing what everyone else thinks you should do.. while in between you are really the one suffering alone... While love is waiting for you... Oh patiently waiting for you to come rescue us...

It wasn't that long ago that you became my lifeline...
It wasn't that Long ago I became yo
your lifeline...
It wasn't that long ago your love is what ran through my veins in order to keep the breath of love alive..
It wasn't that long ago that you chose to go to her....
It's funny how you could sit on the love laughter caring holding caressing admiring respecting it right out the window...
It's funny how you can live life as if we never existed when I am sentenced to an undetermined amount of time of  a broken heart..
Why must life be happy with love instead of just love of life???

You came into this world struggling... You pulled through...
You came into this world with so much love waiting on you...
You came into this world with so much happiness..
You came into this world reaching for me.. how did you know who I was?
You came into this world to your mommy and daddy although I love you as you were mine...
Grandma and baby 4 ever gonna be here for you...

How do hate someone that you love unconditional...

It ***** without you...
Will you ever forgive me?
Could you ever see past our past and realize that 'i was born to be your baby'..
I've always seen forever when I looked into your eyes...
You were perfect at least to me you were.. I would never turn against my heart...
I would run as fast as I could to you if I knew you wanted to be my baby...
We must have been in different time zones because we definitely saw things differently..
Only wanted you but within time you wanted her...
Broken just broken
To me you will always be the one the one I never could see myself without and that is why I am doing without...

Samm...
You left me loveless... dont get me wrong I  have lots of family and friends  all around  everyone  wants me around.. they love me, want to take care of me, even people  close to you wants me...
I have lots of fun, going out living life but no one absolutely  no one deserves  my love after you left me loveless... CONGRATS IT IS WHAT YOU WANTED....

Why won't you leave me...
Why are you holding onto me...
Why do you Tex me like you miss me..
HELLO... I can't be with you..
HELLO... I have lost my grip....
HELLO... I don't want to Tex you...
HELLO...  WHY DO YOU SHOW UP LOOKING SO GOOD JUST TO HURT ME...
HELLO... CANT YOU TELL YOUR KILLING ME SLOWLY....
LEAVE ME ALONE...

Sometimes I wish you would have never found me sometimes I wish I would of never came to you..I wish the sum would stay brute so I wouldn't remember the clouds so very which made you wanna prey...I wish I could forget how remembering you broke me... Remember our days driving windows down hair blowing in the wind Bon Jovi blasting on the radio..
Sometime I wish I didn't remember the feeling of my arms wrapped around your arm head on shoulder just holding you remembing this is everything all I have ever wanted...
But most of the time I wish I never remembered the love you showed me...

*****

A day to be thankful although families are separated, some families don't even have food for a dinner...
People holding onto anger, holding grudges, spending the holidays with people they don't even know.. this is a time to share with family and friends to be thankful for one another... Try making up you just might feel thankful that you did...

You are my forever... together our love will surpass any hurdle...
Today tomorrow forever you have imprinted yourself in my forever loving heart...

Brandi my beautiful honey bea,
So sweet there was never a need for honey...
So wonderful to have around, so please never be down...
Such an amazing spirit, God said be sure to share it...
Spread your wings little honeybea and show this hole world what you can be...

My hand only fits perfect in yours..
My head fits perfect on your shoulder...
My body fits perfect on yours..
My love only works perfect along with yours..
My heart only fits perfect in yours...
My thoughts and prayers are all for you..
I miss my love I'm forever yours...

One day I will LOVE again...
Hopefully this time the Lord won't take you from me... Again

How can you leave me in the middle of my best memory...

Even though I know you were the one that got away .
I still go to you even though you are my best and worse mistake..

The warmth of the sun on my fair skin is like taking a hot shower you can't get out of...
The feel of the sand between my toes is what's been missing from my life..
The beach is my life..
The water the crashing of the waves is like taking my breath when trying to breath..
The beach is my life. .

Summer summer ...
With eyes so blue they can only be true...
Summer summer...
With a heart so pure it can only be made for me and you...
Summer summer...
With a friendship so true I will always take care of you....

Summer summer with eyes so blue, you can only be true..
Summer summer with a smile so Brite, there's surely to always have sun lite....
Summer summer with a heart so pure, it's God's prayer for me to always be there for you....