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ThumbiiRiri Jul 2019
How insensitive you are
Saying those words left me a scar
Posting those pics broke my heart
Playing those vids made me think
I'm not enough, I'm always not enough
I can't help but feel this way
Tho I know it's not your fault
It's just me being me
Wanting to be wanted
Wanting to be cared
Wanting to be loved
Wanting to get back the love I had shared
Affection, attention, appreciation
Things that my heart craves
I guess it's I'm still branded
As what I used to be
Silly, immature, needy old me
ThumbiiRiri Jan 2019
I hate her smile, you thought
You hate the way she speaks and walks
She's too much, she's too loud
She's irritatingly confident and proud
She's too loving, it's annoying
You find her dumb because she thinks and speaks without thinking

"I don't like you " you said
but still she smiled,
shook her head and bid goodbye

Good riddance you thought
never knowing the implications
your word had brought
You'd never know how much she cried
You'd never know the pain she felt inside
You'd never know how she blamed herself
for loving you to the brink
You'd never know how much she truely cares
Even when you made her heart bleed

They say that loving is
accepting someones flaws
Did you ever even think that she
had accepted yours?
Or maybe you're just too selfish to see
how she shows that she cares
for you deeply
ThumbiiRiri Jan 2019
I wanted to know the truth
yet I'm afraid to ask
for I know that it would hurt
I'd rather be cut than be scarred
I'd rather be wounded with something
that I don't know than die with the
thought of the truth that I won't forget

I'm sorry for being a coward
but I just want to guard my heart that has fallen apart
It cannot take another blow
so I'd rather won't have to know
The anxiety is eating me up :‹
ThumbiiRiri Jul 2018
She smiled
As she looks into His eyes
She smiled
As He waved goodbye
She smiled
Even though She knew He lies

She smiled
Never let a tear fall from Her eyes
She smiled
Though Her heart is aching
She smiled
Even when her soul is breaking

She smiled
Holding Her feelings out
She smiled
Biting her tongue when all She wants is to shout
She smiled
Not letting Him see how thorn apart she feels

Still ..
She smiled
As She tries to hide the pain She feels inside
ThumbiiRiri Jul 2018
It's the twinkle in her eyes with a smile she never hides
She loves to have fun and bring light to everyone
Her laugh's so joyful, her love's so pure
She's always happy you never see her gloom

But at night she lays with tears rolling down her face
All the funny antics gone, pretentions are done
She's lonely but not alone
Her heart is empty and she's all numb

She has friends for better but not when its bitter
But loves them no less and makes the best out of it
She puts on a facade of happiness
Even though she feels the emptiness

She's that girl with the brown eyes
She's the sanguine that never deters
She's that cheerful little gal
She's the trophy girl of everyone
She's the girl whose dead but still breathes, with her flawless skin yet scarred within.
One smile = Hundreds of pain. It's when you always want to make people happy that you somtimes forget to ask yourself if you are.
ThumbiiRiri Jul 2018
She plead, she cried
She begged him to stay by her side
She said she'll be better, that she'll look prettier

The King blinded by lust pushed her to the floor
Took his consorts hand, walked out the door
Never even took a backward glance
As the queen fells to the floor weeping with her broken soul

The Queen watched her beloved
Take every step away from the life they have built
Realizing that the heavy crown she wore
Weighed the pain she bore

She took of her crown and cried, realizing
She is but a Queen with an empty castle and a broken dream

— The End —