Your Random Silence
Hurts me the most.
Still  I will keep on Trying.
Until a time comes when
I cant hold back crying.
Once my tears are dried.
My sadness will subside.

As i walk on this path,
I see so many actors.  

Some act out of compulsion.
Some act out of proposition.  

The Performance may be on any Stage.
All seem to be in some sort of a cage.

I wish  I could have act many a times
But failed miserably n number of times.

To be a mere spectator did i decide
Rather than to be many who later cried.

My silence does not mean I cannot argue
Its only that this  Relationship I value.

Everyone…. Everyone….
Thinks they are Right….

Billions Born.
Millions Die.
Thousands Smile.
Life Goes On and On.

If you want Birds
In your Garden
Then deal with their **** too.

Bodies Dance
Minds Write
Souls Pray.

Raastai Bantai Nahi.
Ban Jaatai Hai.  

Rishtai Bantai Nahi.
Ban Jaatai Hai.

After decades I had found you
Saw a true friend in you.
Adored you
Admired you.
Trusted you.
Thought about you.
Days and Months passed.  
Years have  passed.
Did not understand the Reality
Was blinded completely.  
Finally Understood.
That it has ended.  

All I ask now.  
Why me ?
Already Broken.
Now completely Broken .....

As the Old Man needs Support of the Stick.  
The Stick also needs Support of the Old Man.

Cold Water and Ice Cubes.
Touched the Ice Cubes immersed.
Could not feel the Difference.
Took one of the Ice Cubes away.
After a while could feel the same.

When I was born.  
I was sharp and long.
Would communicate so well.
So smooth was my Journey.
across the pages so lovely.  
As time passed by
I became slow  and blunt.
Life was treating me unfair.
The pages would also tear.
Then came in the Sharpner
and Sharpened me again.

Woh Hawaa  Kya Chali
Ki Zulfai Bekhaar Gayai.

Samaa Bhi Thaam Gayi
Aaakhai Bhi Naam Hau Gayi.

As you looked upto see
the heavens as a whole.

I see  the lovely passages
leading towards your soul.

Its Asymmetry  is so beautiful.
The darkness inside so mystical.  

As the heavy winds blows.
Flaring the Entrance as it glows.

Such a effect it has on me now.
Just want to enter it somehow.

The Best Part about it ...
No one ....
Wins.

I feel as If

I am a Candle not Lit.
I am a Car not Driven.
I am a Machine not Switched On.
I am a Building without Dwellers.
I am a  Party without Guest.
I am a Game without Spectators.
I am a Conference without Delegates.
And
A Soul with a Body but without a Cause.

Beautifully entrapped in our bodies.
Bounded with Constraints.
Thinking we are free.  

Wandering across the Universe.
Earth being one of its Stop.
Some stay for long
While others escape fast.

Absolute Trust is the gift
Sometimes it may take a life time ,
Sometimes in seconds.

And Yet Again
That Time of the Year
When 18 Years back
Came my Bundle of Joy
Time surely Flies By
He was just a Baby
Now as Tall as Me.
He leaves his Nest
All I can now Say
All the Best.

Delayed Response
Always Busy
Low Priority
No Trust.
Move On..

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The Blackboard on the Wall.
In the middle of the Hall.
Words written by the White Chalk.
Then I go for my Small Walk.
Come back and Erase All.
The Chalk is White  and the Board is Black.

Millions of things could go wrong.
But it did not happen today.
We survived yet another day…..

Do not let the Sun Rise
Trust me and no one otherwise.
Let there be darkness.
So that I cant see your True Face.

My Special Friend.
Opened my Heart and Soul.
Trusted you and will always Trust You.
Conversations have dwindled.  
Messages hardly being replied.
Confused I am now
Am I the special friend
Or now just a mere acquaintance.  
Tired now of this one sided Relationship.
Time for me to let go
As I cant take this anymore.

Tasty is the Red Apple
Eaten Till the End
Thrown Away Later.....

Soul's journey, like water's flow,
From realms unknown to Earth, they go.
Buckets few, spills are bound,
Life's dance, a cycle profound.

On earthly tables, they briefly rest,
Droplets of spirit, each a guest.
Dried to return, a timeless spree,
A cosmic cycle, the soul's journey.

Millions of years, this celestial spin,
Unique droplets, each with a kin.
Back and forth, they play their part,
In the grand dance, a cosmic art.

Aaaj Aisa Waqt Aaa Chuka Hai
Mujhe Bai Sabri Sai Intezaar Thaa.

Na Khuch Paanai Ki Chahaat.
Na Khuch Khaunai Ki Chahaat.

Rotating Sphere of Energy
Revolving all around me
Giving me all that I want
My life is like a single font.

Its like eating  
  when you are not Hungry.  

Its like sleeping
   when you are not Sleepy.  

Its like working
   when you are so so Lazy.  

Its like loving
   when you are not in Love.

Whenever I read the News.
I just close my eyes.

Whenever I go back in Time.
I just close my eyes.

When I have to pay back to Soceity
I just close my eyes.

When I think about you
I just close my eyes.

For I have learnt an Important Lesson
Not to empower anyone ever again.
No matter how much you do for them.
In the end they always hurt  us again.

Honest Intention  is far from being appreciated
Everyone  now is laughing on me.  
So many decades  of my Belief System.  
Always  broken by these kind of people.

For now I will just wait and watch thee.
As I can no longer trust anyone but me.

Remove the darkness
to get the Light .....

I Believe
   Because
I want to Believe

Endless striving, a cycle unrestrained,
Attempts that falter, efforts sustained.
Persisting through failure, undeterred,
In pursuit of dreams, the soul stirred.

What drives us forward, relentless in try?
Is it the goal's allure or lessons from sky?
Unaware, perhaps, of a truth concealed,
"Having lacks pleasure rather than wanting”

Your Eyes
Hypnotic and Soft
Infinite Expressions Flows
Sadness and Pain
Your Soul

What Ever I do.
What  ever my Intentions are.
Nothing has changed.
Except for that fact
That I have became more Sad.
Now I may have to accept
That this phase of loneliness
May continue for some more time.
Till then I all I can bid  Good Bye.

Easy to Make …
Hard to Maintain …
Far Easy to Break ….

Jab jee chaaha baat kiya
Jab jee chaaha nahi kiya

Gufutugu ki nadii kabhi behtee thai.
Ab jawaab kai intezaar kartai hai.  

Kyu Hauta  hai puchta hai mera Dil
Kya mai hu issi kaa Qabil.

Rain drops on my windshields
Blurring my vision slowly.
Off they go as the wiper is On.
I can now once again see clearly.

I sweep the dirt on the floor ...
    To see my reflection furthermore.
A Storm comes without restrain.
     Making the floor ***** again...

The Centre So Deep
Darkness Prevails
Lost Forever...

White Background.
Scattered  Black Dots.
Some see Black
Some see White.
Both are Right.

Khuch Din Aisai Bhi Hauta Hai.
Jab Dil Phir Sai Khuch Chahata Hai.

Nadi Kai Paas Khuch Dair Hi Saheee
Usmai Geelai Hauna Chahata Hai.

Aasman Kai Unchai Koi Tapaas Kar
Phir Wapas Aaana Chahata Hai.

Uunchai Dangar Par Chaad Kar
Ussai Mai Panna Chahata Hai

Khuch Din Aisai Bhi Hauta Hai.
Jab Dil Phir Sai Khuch Chahata Hai.

Bahut Mududdau kai baad
ek aisa bhi waqt aisa bhi aaaya.
Acchai aur Sacchai Dost milai.

Woh Waqt bhi guzaar gayaaa
Naaa jaaanai woh ab  kidhar chalai gayai.

Crowded Places
So Many Faces
Fake Smiles
Full of Life
Yet Lifeless
Many Questions
Answers None

Isnaai  Khuch  Post Dala
Usnai Bina Sauchai Like Kiya
Dono Khush Hau Gayai.
Yeh Silsala Hauta Hi Raha.

Share Aur Like Kai Daldalai Mai
Sab Hi Trap Hauta Hi Gayi
Kabhie Usnai Share Kiya
Tau Kabhi Isnaai Like Kiya.

Kya Sahi Kya Galaat
Kya Sachaai Kya Jhootaa
Bas Sab  Forward Aur Like
Mai Lag Chukai Hai.


Mai Sahi Hu
Tu Galaat Hai
Mai Sachaa Hu
Tu Jhoota Hai

Bina Research kai
Khuch Tau Aisai Bhi Post Kar Laitai Hai
Validation ki Pyasaa Hai Khuch Log
Jau Khush Hau Jaatai Hai Ek Like Sai
Aur Apni Woh Jung Jeet Jatai Hai.

Yeh Daldalaai Sai Kab Nikaal Paiyaa Gaya
Digital Daldalaa Kab
Khataam Hau Jayainga

They are times when
Not one Soul Speaks
Not one Soul Listens
As the Day and Night Passes By.

As i watch the waves go by,
I hear such a sweet lullaby.  

Forget all my pains and sorrows.
As if there is no Tomorrow.

My body talks to my soul now.
And the soul talks to me somehow.