Hungry Eyes.
Thirsty Lips.
Empty Soul.
I need you now
more than Ever.

In a Garden full of Roses.
One Rose was mercilessly plucked.
The Beauty of the Garden still remains.

Lal rang ki saree ka jawaab nahi hai.
Aisa lagta hai ki Rooh ka libaas hai.  

Haseen Badaan  ko chupati bhi hai
Dil kai dhadkanai kau badaati  hai.  

Kamaar ki woh thar tharanaa.  
Kamil naaf ka woh chup chupunaa.  

Woh gehri aur nazuk sai sozen kari
Aap ki khobsuraati ka izafa kar dehti hai.

Lal rang ki saree ka jawaab nahi hai.
Aisa lagta hai ki Rooh ka libaas hai.

Zindagi ki Kashmakash mai
Ek Choti si Khauwish hai.  
Anmol  sa KehKasha bana dai.

Wanted to communicate
But was so Empty Inside
So  I kept Quite .....

Wanted to excel in Academics
But took my teachers word
that I was average.


Wanted to take part in Sports
But was sick ,weak and lethargic.

Wanted to make new Friends
But could not talk to them
Out of fear and Rejection.

I was a loner till the end ...
Just wished I could amend.

Na Maluum  Hai Meri Manzil
Bas Rastaa Par Chaal Raha Hu.
Kabhi Rukh Jaata Hu.  
Kabhi Thaak Jaata Hu.
Manzil Aanai Mai Daair Hai.  
Sauchta Hu Ki Baas Chaalta Rahu.  
Manzil Mili Ya Na Mili Aaab
Kya pata Yeh Chalna hi Tha Meri Manzil

Woh Baataau ki Baat Khuch Alaag hi thi.
Jab Hum aur Aap Ek Dusrai sai baat kartai.

Phir  Masrufee ka aaya woh Daur.
Baataai huwi sirf telephone par.  

Jaisa Waqt Guzurara Gayaa
Lafz awaaz sai screen par utar aayai.  

Aakhir mai aisa bhi waqt aa hi gayaaa
Jab Likhai huwai alfaas ban gaya  ajeeb sai emojis.  

Ab yeh dekhna hai ki aaagai kya hauta hai ?

Ab bas bhi karau

Mujhe aur us nazaar  
sai mat daikhau.

**** tau pehli sai hi tadaap rahi thi
Ab Ruh bhi tadap rahi hai.  

Ab Bas bhi Karau.

Mujhe ab khuch
bhi na kahau.

Awaaz tau meri pehli sai bandh thi
Ab Dil kai Dadkanai band hau raha hai.

Ab Bas bhi Karau.

Late Evening ...
Always Smiling ...
Nails Biting....
Secretly Admiring.
So Relaxing.
So Exciting.

Mat Karau Aisa Harkatai
O Merai Bhai.
Jissai Dil Toot Jayaai.
O Merai Bhai.

Mat Karau Aisa Harkatai
O Merai Bhai.
Jissai Baat Band Hau Jayai
O Merai Bhai.  

Mat Karau Aisa Harkatai
O Merai Bhai.
Maddad  Lainai Ko Bhi Saramandgi Aayai
O Merai Bhai.

Dil mai Bahut Khuch Hai.
Kabhie Kabhie Bahut Khuch Bol Daita Hai.
Kabhie Kabhie Khuch Nahi Bol Daita Hai.
In Both Cases ,
Dil Udaas Hi Reh Jaata Hai.

Yeh samaa woh waqt ka hai
Jab hum jawaan thai tum bhi jawaan thai.  

Uss shadi mai aap ka aaana.
Aur mujhe bar bar dekhnaa.

Aap ka andaaz ke kya khanai.  
Jau hum kau bebaaz kar deeya.  

Woh aap ka nazuk natnaai  phulaanaa
Woh aap ka sharm sai thar tharanaaa

Woh aap ki kali saree sai naaf ka
Meri aaukhai sai chupa chupi khelna

Woh aap ki halki se musqurahat
Woh aap ki thodi se sharahaat.  

Aap ka andaaz ke kya khanai.  
Jau hum kau bebaaz kar deeya.

Phir woh mera pass sai guzri.  
Merai dil pai raiham na karkai.  

Aur phir paas woh jab aaayi.  
Aur yu muskurayee.

Uski sassai merai cheharai par halki halki baraas rahi thi.  

Yeh samaa woh waqt ka hai
Jab hum jawaan thai tum bhi jawaan thai.
Yeh

Yeh pyaas kaisee hai. Jau bhujti hi nahi.  
Mushkil tau aur bhi hu jaati hai.
Jab paani sai bharaa wala sheesha haaat mai hai.
Magaar ussai hautai tak bhi nahi laga saktai hai.

Ai Zindagi
   Mujh Sai Khafaa Na Hauna |
Bas Thoda Sa Bhataak Gaya Hu
   Yeh Lambhi Rahau Mai.
Kabhi Idhaar Chalaa
  Tau Kabhi Udhaar
Mili Tau Bas Jalaan Aur Nafraat.
   Kabhie Mithi Kanjaar Sai Vaar
Tau Kabhi Jhoota Sa Woh Pyaar.
Aab Jald Mai Wapaas Aa Raha Hu.
  Khuch  Aur Waq Intezaar Kar lai Tu.

Maybe I have misunderstood you.
   Concern.
      Understanding.
          Endless Chats

Maybe I had taken you for Granted.
     Trust
        Love
          Bonding.
  
Maybe I am to be  blamed now after being
       Ignored
          Alone
             Left Out

In Search of Water
I have drowned.

A Long Long Time Ago
Came a Man without an Ego.
He would Sell Fine Lemonade.
And as Time Passed by
Many Many did accolade.  

As time passed by
His clients got bored
And slowly dwindled.
So he had to offer perks
And good discounts.  

Soon came many more
who would offer Lemonade  and more.
The Market Place got Crowded
And Thousands also doubted.  

The Original Seller
had to do something
Else would be wiped out forever.  
Retorted to Brainwashing his Clients
Spreading Lies and Deceits.
Some came in his sway.

Soon many Sellers went away
And a few still decided to stay.
Now the Original Seller is still selling.
The Old Lemonade in a new way.
But is always so scared of a few.
Aware  that the lemonade has to change.

Wanted to do Everything …..
Ended up doing Nothing…..

For I once asked him.  
Why is it that I am all alone too  
He smiled back and replied
“ Son you dont need anyone.
You are Unique.  
You came for a Different Purpose.  
Find the Same if not as yet.  
And when you find it.  
You will be all and contended.“.

Gussa Ka Sailaab Sai
Nahi Darta Hu Mai.
Darta Hu Tau Sirf
Bana Banai Rishtai
Ka Bhai Jaaana.

Afraid I am not
with the Floods of Anger.
But Scared of the AfterEffects
where Relationships
will be broken and swayed away.

In a small workshop
Nuts and Bolts in a Box.
So Happy together.
Then came the Fitter
Dropped the Box.
Gathered All
Except for One Nut.  
For He was Lost
Under the Rack.
So Alone So Sad.
Every day ...
He Patiently waits
When the Fitter will
Drop the Box Again ....

Sab Khuch Tau Woh  He Hai.
Woh Hi Log.
Woh Hi Fikaar.
Woh Hi Jagaah.  
Woh Hi Sauch.
Na Khuch Badla .  
Na Khuch Badlaiga.  

Paani Tau Paani Hi Hai.
Asmaaan Sai Hi Aaati Hai.  
Agar Woh Na Badla.  
Tau Aur Kya Badlaiga.  

Insaan Ka Shareer Tau Woh Hi Hai.
Woh Dau Haat aur Pair.  
Woh Hi Kamzaat Dimaag.  
Agar Woh Na Badla.
Tau Aur Kya Badlaiga.  

Badlaa Tau Hamarai Tareeqai.  
Badlaa Tau Hamarai Havaas.
Badlaa Tau Hamaari Na Farmani.
Badlaa Tau Hamaari Khudkarzi

Aur Khuch Nahi Badlaa
Na Khuch Badlaigaa

Full Moon
Late Night
Lustful Mood
Desperate.


Protection Misplaced
Search Begins
Finally Found
Happy and Relieved

Importance Given.
Gentle Handling.

Fun Starts
Happiness Prevails
Loud Cries
Satisfied.  

Finally Thrown Away ......

If only you would have told me..
To Stop Expressing myself.  

If only you would have told me
To Stop being my own self..

If only you would have told me
To Stop Disturbing you.  

If only you would have told me
To Stop telling the Truth.

If only you would have told me
That you did not love me.

Ruh mai lagi hai Aaag.
Nahi Sakta Hu Usssai Bhaag.
Bhuj Jaati Hai Woh Jab.  
Aur Koi Nahi Hauta Siwai
Mai aur Mera Rab.

My Soul is on Fire.
Just cannot break Free.
When the Flames are doused.
There is no one except you and me My Lord.

By adding Sugar in my Soup.  
Will not make it a Sweet Dish.

Insaan Insaan Hauta Hai
Kalaa , Gora , Peela ya Sawla.

Insaan Insaan Ko Hi Maarta Hai
Dhan, Kapda , Kaam Ya Audaa.

Insaan Insaan Hi Reh Jaata Hai.
Waqt , Aqaal , Jagaah Ya Saubaat

Insaan Insaan Tau Nahi Bantaa
Gadddar, Kaatil , Na Farmaan Ya Jhoota.

Insaan Insaan Hau Hauta Hai
Waqt Bhi Badaal Jaayi Woh Nahi Badlai Ga

As i look in the Mirror I hear a voice

Failure Failure on the Wall.  
When will you Fall.

Failure Failure on the Wall
When will you give up all.

Reply I do back at the Mirror

For I have Failed for sure.  For I have failed for sure.  
Learnt I have lessons that are have taught me more.  

I have full faith on my Creator for sure.
Who gives me strength more and more.  

Life it seems is full of Success and Failure. As to what good is Success without so many Failures at all.

As if those straight long hair
was not enough
That you had to color them
to make it more graceful.  

As if those deep Eyes
were not enough
That you had to put Kohl
to make it more Ravishing.  


As if those oval Nostrils
were not enough
That you had to wear that nose ring
To make it more exquisite.  

As if that Smooth Neck
was not enough
That you had to now wear that Delicate necklace
To make it more irresistible.

All Men  
               were  Boys....

Khuch Lamhai Aisa Bhi Hauta Hai...
Tanhayee Kai Siwai Khuch Nahi Milta.
Akailaapaan ki Aaag Aur  Sulagtee Hai
Aur Aassu Sai bhi Bujtee Nahi.

Some in Boundaries.
Some in Thoughts.
Some in Love.
Some in Hate.
Some by Desires.
Some by Wealth.
Some by Health.

Stop Making Fun of Me
Whenever I ask you ...

Do I always have to initiate.  
Every Time.  

The Strings of this
One Way Relationship
Has Broken After All.

Confused  and Frustrated
Just like a Traffic Signal
On an Empty Cross Road.

Never Ending Heavy Storm.
Hope it would End One Day…
Remained where I was …
Others Ran Away.
The Storm Remained.
They Survived.
I died.

I was in deep sleep ....
Dreamt a lot.
Finally woke up to reality....

Out of the many races we run
One of them is companionship
where both are compatible
Running together
Sometimes one in front
Sometimes the other
Maintaining a small distance.
Over the years one may became tired
while the other may not.  
The Distance increases
when a time comes
Either one  becomes Slow
And the other one
Runs away too  Far...

I sweep the dirt on the floor ...
    To see my reflection furthermore.
A Storm comes without restrain.
     Making the floor ***** again...

The Tea matters
More than the Cup.

I always wanted that Chair.
Got the Table Instead.

All we need is that one person.
Share all without any Curtains.

Judged Not for a single moment.
And Share all which can be spoken

We can actually be ourselves without being judged even for a second.

To whom we can share our views freely and even our flaws.

To whom we can share our Goals and our Problems.  

To whom we can talk anything under the sky.  

To whom we trust completely and share our most intimate secrets without an iota of doubt in our minds.  

The Soul Mate is like a Mirror where we can just undress and be the real self.  Free and Just Free.  

I still seek for the soul mate whom I can relate to , who accepts me as what I am , who understands me and loves me for whom I am.  

I seek someone who unconditionally listens to me endlessly and consistently.  

I seek someone whom I can be only me and share my intimate secrets and fantasies.  

I seek someone who can share their problems with me and who looks upon me.

I seek someone who seeks me only.
But as of now I am yet to find anyone and now I can only remember the words once said to me once  that “Sometimes Somethings are not Meant for Someone”.

Life
Happy
Zeal
Care Free

Fear

Sad
Loner
Tears

Fighter

Social
Happy
Lies
Deceits
Rejected
Ignored

Sad
Loner
Empty

Waiting
Lifeless

Two Strong Wolves
Green and Red.
They Loved me.
I loved them too.  

Then She came.
Liked me but not the wolves.
Especially the Red One.
She was Sad.  

As times passed by
The Wolves were being ignored.
Rarely  she would like them.
Just to make me Stay.  

None of us were happy.
Someone had to leave.
Conveyed  the same to the wolves.
They Refused...

Finally Killed them Both.  

Now at least Shes Happy.

Wet *** Holed  Roads
Random Traffic Snarls
Light and Dark
Beautiful Weather
Enjoying the Journey
The End does not matter.

Is it too much to ask for
To have Peace.  

Is it too much to ask for
To be loved unconditionally.

Is it too much to ask for
To accept what I am.

Is it too much to ask for
To be Free.

My Smile
is as genuine
as my Pain.

Falling
   Falling
      Falling...
        Still Falling.
            Waiting for this to End.
So That I can Get Up
   And Climb Back.

So proud of its  Shape.
The Color and the Make.
Except for the Drain.  

Hidden and Blocked.  
And was so glad.
Not realising that Water
would soon fill up.

Full and Heavy
It overflowed
Cracks all over
It Finally Broke.

Sometimes out of Love.  
   Sometimes out of Respect.  
Sometimes just for Others.
   Sometimes just for peace.
Simply I remain Quiet

Kab Kahan Kaunsa Kutta Kattai
Yeh Patta Na Chalai.
Chal Rahai Hai Hum Rah Par
Bina Kissai Kai Dar.

The Time has come
Yet we do not see it
As we are so engrossed
In our own world.

They bleed and Cry.
Beg for food.
Yet no one sees.
As if they are Blind.  

The least one cam do
Is to have an empathy
For these victims of War
East to West.
North to South.