I wish I could stop
this feeling inside me
that brings you back
at night before falling asleep

I wish I could stop
this feeling inside me
that reminds me every
morning that you left
and took a part of me

I wish I could stop
this feeling inside me
that doesn't let me enjoy
the sun, moon or beach
because it brings memories
of how beautiful
it used to be

I wish I could stop
this feeling inside me
that keeps on reminding me
that I lost, by not letting
you win, at the end
we both lost
now this love story
is over
between you and me....

I was wrong, when I  looked at you
for the first time and smile at you
taking you out of that
world of resentment
bringing you to my world
I was wrong
when I kissed you, when
I made love to you
I was wrong, in letting you
get into my world
I was wrong about having
dreams that included you
I was wrong telling you all my
secrets and all the things
I wanted to do, I was wrong letting you get inside my heart
letting this feeling grow as it did
I was wrong, now I know
but my heart doesn't want to understand...

let me kiss you, while the rain
falls in your hair
drips down your face and
touches your lips
so, that everytime it rains
you think of me
let me kiss you, when you are crying and your tears
are going down your cheeks
let me kiss them
let me erase the pain and let me
make you feel Happy
so, that every time life brings you
to a dark place
you think of me as the person
who will always
be there for you and will always
help you get through
let me kiss you, at night before
going to sleep
that way when you are dreaming
you dream of me
let me kiss you, in the morning
before you wake up
my kiss will be the first thing you see when you open your eyes
that way you will see the world that
I have inside me
let me kiss your beautiful lips that way I can bring you
to our beautiful place where
you are my queen
that place where nobody else lives, please
let me kiss you, to be sure
this is not just a dream

I wish you
were here
so, you could
see how
beautiful is
this place
the sun light
can touch
the ends of
your soul

I wish you
were here
the sky is filled
with the
brightest of stars,
is like
if they want
the moon
to shine its
brightest night

I wish you
were here
the ocean is
so clear
you can see
the fish
happy swimming
away
leaving heart
shape
bubbles of air..

I wish you
were here
so, we could
experience
this magic
together but,
the universe
is telling us
is not our
time or place

What a beautiful dream
our eyes were locked
into each other's
our hearts were beating
at the same bit
our minds were just thinking
about the past
how glad we were
we could be together
in the same dream
memories of yesterday
the best of all the things we did
we were smiling
I can't even describe what I felt holding your hand
touching your face looking you
in the eyes
talking with no words
reaching your soul and mine
a beautiful dream is stored somewhere in my mind
I will keep it there until I am ready
to say Goodbye....

Author: Gary Zambrano

Today I saw you in the park
how time passes by
it has been long since
we said good bye
you were with him, you looked happy, you saw me too
you looked at me and for one second our  lives went back
to those days when we thought we were indestructible
when we were happy, and we had the forever in our hearts
for that second our souls touched again and we remembered
the love we left behind
when the second was over
we came back to today
you were with him, he looked at you, kiss you, gave you a hug
and you both walk away
I am happy for you, I hope
he gives you the forever that your heart deserves

She will come, I will
look at her eyes
I will touch her face
I will play with her hair
I will make her smile
She will look at me
She will smile back
She will take my hand
put it on her waist, then
We will get lost on this feeling
She will come,
because it's our
destiny to meet,
We have been
looking for each other,
I live inside her heart
She lives inside mine
She will come, before
this love song is over
She will be here wearing her
beautiful dress,
She will look at me
We will dance with our souls
She will come, to cure this
broken heart, She will put
the pieces together,
She will bring
me back to life....

Another February 14th
another day that you are not here
I just remember the last
Valentine's Day
when you were with me
full of smiles
and dreams when we
had all these goals
to accomplish, how foolish of me
I was in love
I know is February 14th again
I wish I could take all the kisses,
the hugs, the nights when
we made love
give them back to you
I wish, I could take
the part of my heart
that loved you
tear it up and give it
back to you
another February 14th
Cupid looks at me
he's pointing his arrow
to my heart and says
it's time to do it again
I really don't want to
at least not just yet
I know I will love
and trust again
I know I will make
another woman smile
feel happy and full of love
just not today

I dreamt that you were here with me
you were wearing that
beautiful red gown
that I used to love, I took your hand
I brought you into my room, I look at your eyes
I saw you and me in this beautiful paradise
I touched your face, I played with your hair the way I used to do
I told you I love you and you told me
I love you too
I looked in your eyes then we kiss
my soul came out of my body and connected with yours as one
then we made passionate unbelievable love
like when we first met, then you looked at me and smile  
you told me, I love you
I have to leave you said  
then when I open my eyes
you were gone
I was in my bed all alone, I forgot to ask you, where love goes?
where does this feeling goes?
where do I put this feeling?
I try burying it inside me, but it just keeps coming up
I don't know what to do with it, please help me get rid of it
if you ever visit me at night take it with you wherever you are
I just want to be free
I just want my life back...

If you leave tomorrow
leave me your eyes
so that, I can find my way
in the darkness
of the days that are waiting for me
if you leave tomorrow
leave me your smile
that way I can cover
the sad side of mine
if you leave tomorrow
leave me your touch
that way I won't feel
loneliness at night
I will feel that you are
still here with me
if you leave tomorrow
leave me your strength
that way this pain won't feel
as bad as it feels
if you leave tomorrow
just remind me how can
I continue without you
what am I supposed to do
how do I tell my heart
to stop asking for you
If you leave tomorrow
please close the door
to make sure you are
not coming back
take all the memories from
the things we did
if you leave tomorrow
there will be not more pages
to our poetry book
our story ends here
if you leave tomorrow
I wish you the best
don't look back
just forget about yesterday
I will do the same, even if I have to
take my heart out of my chest...

The day that everything changed for me,
was the day you looked deep into my eyes
saw my soul and my dreams

the day that everything changed for me,
you extended your hands and
pull me out of the  
darkness I lived in,
to a beautiful and
sunny day just for me

the day that everything changed your me,
our lips created an unforgettable kiss like I always wanted to feel

the day that everything changed for me
you destroyed my demons
and set me free, forever
I know they don't understand
what you mean to me

the day that everything
changed for me, was when
you walked into my life
gave me a reason and
didn't let me quit...

I dreamed of you last night
I don't know why?
after so many years
you came back to my mind
I want you to know
I forgave you long ago
for all that you did and did not
I have nothing against you
I understood that you did
what you did becuase
it was easier for you
due to your lack of character
and manhood combine
with your full ignorance
you never stopped to realize
how much pain you inflicted
on my mother, my brother and I
God is great, time heals all wounds
without you knowing
without you realizing
you gave me the best gift
I learned at an early age
not to be like you
I am a great father
I care about my son
love him to dead
I always put him first,
I will help him become a great man
is funny how life turns out
I am a better person
a better man, sometimes my son
asks about you
I don't have anything to say, so sad that you were not a real man

You left something in me
that time has not erased yet
You left many painful memories
I don't know what to do with them
I wish I could bring them to you
so, you can destroy them
You left so many broken dreams
nothing here is the same
I don't think I will ever love or
dream the same way, there is
a hole in my heart, that you left
I don't know what to do,
should I help it heal?, or
should I bring it to you?
so, You can put it to rest....

They left with you
the beautiful days that I used
to wake up to
the flowers that used to be
in my garden
even the smell of the mornings
in love with you
those beautiful and shiny stars
that came at night
accompanying the white moon
we used to sing to
they left with you, all those things
are just memories
I carry in my heart, also what we used to call our dreams
the most beautiful moments,
the most beautiful time
everything that will never
comeback to my life
I want you to be happy
I ask God to protect you
to help you find your way
I learned to live without those things that you took away
now I'm a different person
I have scars in my heart
sometimes they bleed out
I will survive, you made me strong
I will keep on going to chase
new dreams, new memories
that way I will forget the ones
that left with you..

To my son

thank you for coming to my life
when I first saw your eyes, I understood what love was
when I first touched your hands
I felt something
inside of me, I felt your presence inside my soul
when I saw your smile I knew, it could heal the sad part of mine
remember to Love yourself
more than anyone
if one day life brings you
to a dark place and
I'm not there with you look for me inside your heart
because I'll be there, it is my greatest gift to be a part of your life
don't judge people just love them
the way they are
remember to always  believe in yourself, remember YOU CAN!!
you have given me the
best days of my life
I remember your toys, I remember you playing in the grass
I remember you going to school,
I remember you growing up
learn to be happy not with a smile, but from inside your heart
I know that you will win over whatever life throws at you
I hope you will find your path,
thank you for everything,
you are the best part of me
thank you my son, I will always
love you with all my heart
no matter what

I  have experienced pain and loneliness
I  have felt the worst feeling
inside of me
I have fell to the ground and
I hit rock bottom, but
I survived, I dusted myself off
I stood up
I started walking, I didn't know
where to go
I didn't know what to do , I just
kept walking
as bad as I felt as much pain as
I had inside of me
I just kept walking looking for
that thing
which will bring me back, and
help me become what I want to be  
I asked myself many times
Why to be happy we have to go through so much pain?
my answer was, is because
we don't know what happiness is
I know I didn't give up, I know
I kept on fighting
I know I stood up and with all
this pain inside of me and
everything that was wrong,
I saw myself winning everytime
I planted my victory on my mind
I told myself, I will be what
I'm supposed to be
I will reach my goals, my God given destiny will not fade away
I won't allow it, I am here to stay.....

I am stuck in yesterday
when your beautiful eyes
were my sunshine,
when your sweet smile woke me up
I'm stuck in yesterday, with this feeling that I have
inside my heart and doesn't
want to stop
I am stuck looking at our star
in the sky
her light is fading away
as the days go by
I am stuck with all these
feelings inside me
I don't know how to forget you
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to continue
I have lost many things
also my biggest dream
I want you to leave me alone
I want you to go away, but
you won't go
your face is still here stuck
on my mind
I want my life back
everything you took
I want to find the person that I was
before you came to my life
I am tired of this feeling that hurts inside my heart
please help me to forget yesterday
help me to erase you from my mind
or take my heart out of my chest
and make this pain stop...

Something is missing
it doesn't feel the same
when I look at your eyes
they don't have the same passion
they used to have
when you smile, your smile
is missing something
when I touch you, I can't feel you
the way I used to
something is missing
this beautiful feeling is not
inside me anymore
I don't think it's inside you neither
the sun doesn't shine the same
even in a night full of stars
there is not magic
it doesn't feel the same
something is missing
we both know it, we both can feel it
we didn't want to say anything
I cannot lie to myself, today
I can't pretend anymore
something is missing, we let it scape
is not coming back, it broke
beyond repair
we tried to glue it together
but is not the same
something is missing
our LOVE is dead

Why did you have to smile to me
why did you have to look at my eyes
if you knew you were the
forbidden fruit
because you have a life with
another man
why did you take my hand and
ask me to dance
why did you stay with me those nights
if you knew we could not be together
I know that you are sorry
for loosing me
you feel the emptiness of not
having me
it's funny the way it works, I made you feel beautiful
I made you smile, my presence was too strong
now my absence is crushing
your heart
you miss my touch, my words,
my kisses, my love
well, is time to choose and remember
I won't wait for long....

My Wish...

I wish you were here with me
telling me all the things we should do
sharing about your day and             your dreams
I wish I could see your eyes
looking at me
making me a prisoner of that beautiful
paradise that inside of them, I see
I wish I could hear your voice
calling my name whispering,
I love you!
right before going to sleep or all
the things you used to say to me
I wish I could touch your hair
play with it like the many times I did
I wish I could wake up and this
was just a bad dream, that way
this feeling inside my heart will
stop and I can continue to breathe....

Author: Gary Zambrano

I dreamt of you
and your beautiful eyes
I touched your face and
made you smile, like the old days
we were in a beautiful place
where the grass was green
and the sun really shines
we talked about yesterday
and the love we once had
even though our time together
was a flash, I keep you here
inside my heart, where I keep
our most beautiful memories
so that I can dream of you one more time...

Today I came back to the place
where I met you, where
we had our first kiss
so many memories here
my heart beats so fast
just thinking about them
I walked to our tree
I don't know if you remember
when we carved
our names inside a forever heart
is still here
I sat under its shadow for a little bit
I could not tell him that
you are not with me, so I just left
you can erase it if you want
whenever you come around here
I walked down the beach
so many memories here
like our names on the sand
I remember when we sat here
waiting for the sunset
who would it thought that years later we wouldn't be here together
thank you for everything
I know these memories
will never be erased
from your heart or from my heart
no matter what, no matter
who comes next to our lives

Sometimes I wish you were
here with me
I could see your face and
make you smile again
hold your hand take a walk, do the things we used to do
give you a flower, dance with you
sing to you or
just take you places where
we used to be free
where we used to make love and
talk about tomorrow
everything has changed life has go on, you walk a different path
you call someone else my love and your dreams are with him
I have someone by my side too, she's beautiful and smiles like you
she says she loves me, she has passion when we make love
she has everything we used to have, sometimes I wish it was not
that similar to what we had, I wish
it was not as powerful as our
relationship was, because
we didn't make it, is like living
the same dream/nightmare again
I do not want to wake up
and realize that she is gone too.....

Sometimes I ask myself
why did I love you the way I did
why did I care so much for you
why did I wanted to show
you the sunrise, the sunset
the moon we loved so much
is that what love is?
well I don't know
you are not here with me, so maybe
I don't understand what love is
or you don't know how love feels
so you ran away from all this
to avoid getting hurt, but you
forgot how deep you hurt me...

I am broken, I can feel it in my heart
it doesn't beat the same way, it used to
I am broken, I can see it in my eyes
the fire is gone and all my strength
to keep fighting  it's not there anymore  
I am broken, all my dreams and hopes
are not the same they used to be
I am broken, I can't seem to find
my way out of this mess
I feel bad, I feel pain
I do many things
I tried so many ways
I am not able to scape
I am broken, but I don't wish you bad
I don't wish you pain
I wish you happiness
I wish you love, I wish you could
get everything
I couldn't give you
I am broken, because
life didn't turn out the way I though
but it's okay, I'll fight back
please just leave me here
looking at the stars healing my pain
I am broken, just remember
this is not the end, far from it
this is just the beginning of
my new sunrise
this is the beginning of the new me
the man you are going to wish
you could have, the man who will never look back...

when I close my eyes
I don't go to sleep
I go to this beautiful world
where the sun always shines
where the grass is green
when I close my eyes, I see you
radiant, smiling looking at me
I give you my hand
you give me yours
then we take a walk far from all this
we talk about beautiful things
when I close my eyes
my pain goes away
all my struggles disappear
I see the sunrise, when the light
hits the flowers and they open up
later on, I see the magical sunset
I sit by the ocean with you
when I close my eyes, I am so happy
so alive, I see the world we dream
I wish I didn't have to wake up
I wish I could stay here..

Yesterday, I loved you with all
my heart
I gave all I had, I put all your needs before mine
I put my love for you before my
self love, I showed you my soul
I remember when I met you, when I kissed you, when we made love
all the things that we did, that don't make sense anymore
I realized yesterday is gone and it won't come back
I'm letting you go, I wish you the best, I wish you happiness
I wish you find real love the one that doesn't die with time
today I say goodbye, remember to fully live and smile
we did the best we could, thank you for all the memories
I will keep them here inside my heart in our little space
I loved you my way, maybe it was
not enough, but
I did love you my way, which is
the only way
I learned to love, with all my heart.....

How fast time has passed
I still have this pain in my heart
I still feel something that I can't describe
I miss you, I love you, I wish I could close my eyes
wake up and you will be here smiling telling me, it's going to be okay and giving me a big hug
  then when I wake up all this pain
will be gone
I have a big wound in my heart and sometimes it bleeds
it hurts, I remember everything,
I remember those days
when you were here, people tell me she's happy, she's in a better place
but nobody can show me where, so
at night, I look at the sky and
I see the stars, I call one by your name then her light shines
I think it's you answering my call and letting me know you are okay
  for me it's been an uphill battle,
is been hard since you gone
but I will win, I got my strength
from you, I won't give up
I will keep you my heart
for as long as I live
don't worry about me, I am okay
I will dance my pain away
I will smile because, I know
you are smiling back from up there
with all my love, until
we meet again.....

I miss my sunny days
I miss watching the waves
in the ocean
I miss the nights under the stars looking at the moon
I miss everything that I thought
it was mine
I miss the way I used to feel
I don't know
if that type of feeling will ever
come back
I just know that I miss those days
when I used to smile from inside
my heart
I miss the roses, the garden,
the sunshine
I miss all the things that I carry
on my mind
I know my heart is broken
because of this
feeling inside but, I will live,
I will survive
I will fight to the end no matter what
I won't give up, there is a lot of
love and beauty
inside my heart, I will accomplish
my dreams
I am sure one day not too far
this will be just be a memory
of the darkest days and nights
I had to overcome
to get to where you are with
your hands open
ready to heal my heart......

why did you come one night to my dreams?
why did you touch my face?, and
gave me a kiss
if you knew that in the morning
you had to leave
why couldn't I keep you here with me?
Where are you?, why do you live in my dreams?
I haven't met you, but I feel like
I know you
I feel like we have so many
things in common
I want to spend so much time with you
who are you?, why does it hurt
to know
that when I wake up you will be gone
please, if you ever read this come back
during the day, look at me, smile,
give me a hug
tell me that you are finally here and tell me that you will stay
please, if you are not coming to my life
stop showing up in my dreams...

A part of me left with you
a part of me that time
never brought back
part of my smile, part of my dreams
a part that I can't explain, but
I feel the emptiness inside
the part flowers lack before they die
the part that makes the moon shine
a part of me that I don't know
how to get back
I hope you are happy and full of life
I hope your dreams materialized
I wish the part of me
that left with you
will live forever in your heart

Today I leave you behind
with the memories of those
beautiful days and
the wonderful times when
we were so happy and
the days when we had to
walk away from each other
today I leave you behind, I will take with me the smiles
and the good times, I will put them inside my heart
I will also take with me the moments when we cried
today I leave you behind
this wonderful love
this amazing dream, this whole picture that we put
in our minds, the kids that
will never come
today I leave you behind
here are the roses  
you used to love, here are the songs we used to sing and dance
here is the space that was our home
is empty and cold
this house that once was full of love today I leave it behind
I wish you the best, I hope you find what you are looking for
I will keep our memories
and love inside my heart
in that place where beautiful memories live and
nobody can touch them, a place that was reserved for you and me
today I leave you behind
I will never forget the way
we fell in love the first time....

I do not fear loneliness
I do not fear silence
they were here before
and I did not fear them
You can not hurt my heart
He has lived in pieces
all this time
You can not take my hopes or
leave with my dreams
because, they have
left already
now you know,
it does not matter
how much do you
want to hurt me
yesterday I suffered
much more
but, it couldn't brake me....

Its been so many years
since you gone, but i still feel the same, I haven't been able to get over it, and time doesn't heal as they said, today another
Mother's day with out you
my memories brings me pain
I try to push them down but,
avoiding them hurts me more
I am trap in between, this feelings of love and hurt for missing you and wanting you here, to hear your voice once
again, touch your face, see your smile, heal my pain
you are in a better place
they say, looking down
smiling, I just want to say
Happy Mother's Day!,
I always keep you
in my heart
until we meet again....

After a few years
you are back here
in our favorite spot
you look amazing but
also sad,
what happened?
no ring on your hand

Did his love run out
or you realized that
it was me, all this time
I feel happy,
but also sad

You destroyed my soul
and broke my heart
took my dreams with
you and left me,
for a better life

for me it wasn't easy
but I survived, it didn't
**** me ,but it
destroyed
the most beautiful part

I could never have
the same love or trust
with anyone else, now
I walk away from love  
to protect my heart

It was nice to see you
please don't come back
take your fake love, fake cry
I don't believe
a word you say
with time,
I will love again
but a love like mine
you will never find...

Without you
there is an emptiness
in my heart,
that you left
when you said
goodbye

Without you
there is a missing
star in the sky,
the one that used
to shine when
we lied down on
the grass talking
about anything

Without you
the sunny days
are just days
they don't
feel the same
I don't know if
they will ever
come back to
feel the way
they felt with you

Without you
the roses don't have
the smell you
used to loved
is gone, and
I don't know
how to get it back

Without you
my life has
taken a turn
I was not expecting
I was not prepared for
and it really hurts

Without you
everything changed
I had cried and
looked back
where we went wrong
all I know is that
without you
my life will never be
the same again

My mind is stuck
between what it was
what it is, and what
I want it to be

My heart is stuck
between the love
that left, the love
that is here, and the
love that he wants

My days go by
thinking about
the love that is not here
smiling to the one that
is here, dreaming
about the one that will
never come back

This daily conflict
between my
mind, my heart,
my reality is eating my
soul away, and I don't
know how to stop it

I don't know how to
live this life of loving
who is not here
holding hands with
who is here, but 
       wishing everything             was like yesterday...