Sometimes I wish you were
here with me
I could see your face and
make you smile again
hold your hand take a walk, do the things we used to do
give you a flower, dance with you
sing to you or
just take you places where
we used to be free
where we used to make love and
talk about tomorrow
everything has changed life has go on, you walk a different path
you call someone else my love and your dreams are with him
I have someone by my side too, she's beautiful and smiles like you
she says she loves me, she has passion when we make love
she has everything we used to have, sometimes I wish it was not
that similar to what we had, I wish
it was not as powerful as our
relationship was, because
we didn't make it, is like living
the same dream/nightmare again
I do not want to wake up
and realize that she is gone too.....

Something is missing
it doesn't feel the same
when I look at your eyes
they don't have the same passion
they used to have
when you smile, your smile
is missing something
when I touch you, I can't feel you
the way I used to
something is missing
this beautiful feeling is not
inside me anymore
I don't think it's inside you neither
the sun doesn't shine the same
even in a night full of stars
there is not magic
it doesn't feel the same
something is missing
we both know it, we both can feel it
we didn't want to say anything
I cannot lie to myself, today
I can't pretend anymore
something is missing, we let it scape
is not coming back, it broke
beyond repair
we tried to glue it together
but is not the same
something is missing
our LOVE is dead

They left with you
the beautiful days that I used
to wake up to
the flowers that used to be
in my garden
even the smell of the mornings
in love with you
those beautiful and shiny stars
that came at night
accompanying the white moon
we used to sing to
they left with you, all those things
are just memories
I carry in my heart, also what we used to call our dreams
the most beautiful moments,
the most beautiful time
everything that will never
comeback to my life
I want you to be happy
I ask God to protect you
to help you find your way
I learned to live without those things that you took away
now I'm a different person
I have scars in my heart
sometimes they bleed out
I will survive, you made me strong
I will keep on going to chase
new dreams, new memories
that way I will forget the ones
that left with you..

Yesterday, I loved you with all
my heart
I gave all I had, I put all your needs before mine
I put my love for you before my
self love, I showed you my soul
I remember when I met you, when I kissed you, when we made love
all the things that we did, that don't make sense anymore
I realized yesterday is gone and it won't come back
I'm letting you go, I wish you the best, I wish you happiness
I wish you find real love the one that doesn't die with time
today I say goodbye, remember to fully live and smile
we did the best we could, thank you for all the memories
I will keep them here inside my heart in our little space
I loved you my way, maybe it was
not enough, but
I did love you my way, which is
the only way
I learned to love, with all my heart.....

I  have experienced pain and loneliness
I  have felt the worst feeling
inside of me
I have fell to the ground and
I hit rock bottom, but
I survived, I dusted myself off
I stood up
I started walking, I didn't know
where to go
I didn't know what to do , I just
kept walking
as bad as I felt as much pain as
I had inside of me
I just kept walking looking for
that thing
which will bring me back, and
help me become what I want to be  
I asked myself many times
Why to be happy we have to go through so much pain?
my answer was, is because
we don't know what happiness is
I know I didn't give up, I know
I kept on fighting
I know I stood up and with all
this pain inside of me and
everything that was wrong,
I saw myself winning everytime
I planted my victory on my mind
I told myself, I will be what
I'm supposed to be
I will reach my goals, my God given destiny will not fade away
I won't allow it, I am here to stay.....

let me kiss you, while the rain
falls in your hair
drips down your face and
touches your lips
so, that everytime it rains
you think of me
let me kiss you, when you are crying and your tears
are going down your cheeks
let me kiss them
let me erase the pain and let me
make you feel Happy
so, that every time life brings you
to a dark place
you think of me as the person
who will always
be there for you and will always
help you get through
let me kiss you, at night before
going to sleep
that way when you are dreaming
you dream of me
let me kiss you, in the morning
before you wake up
my kiss will be the first thing you see when you open your eyes
that way you will see the world that
I have inside me
let me kiss your beautiful lips that way I can bring you
to our beautiful place where
you are my queen
that place where nobody else lives, please
let me kiss you, to be sure
this is not just a dream

I dreamt that you were here with me
you were wearing that
beautiful red gown
that I used to love, I took your hand
I brought you into my room, I look at your eyes
I saw you and me in this beautiful paradise
I touched your face, I played with your hair the way I used to do
I told you I love you and you told me
I love you too
I looked in your eyes then we kiss
my soul came out of my body and connected with yours as one
then we made passionate unbelievable love
like when we first met, then you looked at me and smile  
you told me, I love you
I have to leave you said  
then when I open my eyes
you were gone
I was in my bed all alone, I forgot to ask you, where love goes?
where does this feeling goes?
where do I put this feeling?
I try burying it inside me, but it just keeps coming up
I don't know what to do with it, please help me get rid of it
if you ever visit me at night take it with you wherever you are
I just want to be free
I just want my life back...

I am broken, I can feel it in my heart
it doesn't beat the same way, it used to
I am broken, I can see it in my eyes
the fire is gone and all my strength
to keep fighting  it's not there anymore  
I am broken, all my dreams and hopes
are not the same they used to be
I am broken, I can't seem to find
my way out of this mess
I feel bad, I feel pain
I do many things
I tried so many ways
I am not able to scape
I am broken, but I don't wish you bad
I don't wish you pain
I wish you happiness
I wish you love, I wish you could
get everything
I couldn't give you
I am broken, because
life didn't turn out the way I though
but it's okay, I'll fight back
please just leave me here
looking at the stars healing my pain
I am broken, just remember
this is not the end, far from it
this is just the beginning of
my new sunrise
this is the beginning of the new me
the man you are going to wish
you could have, the man who will never look back...

I miss my sunny days
I miss watching the waves
in the ocean
I miss the nights under the stars looking at the moon
I miss everything that I thought
it was mine
I miss the way I used to feel
I don't know
if that type of feeling will ever
come back
I just know that I miss those days
when I used to smile from inside
my heart
I miss the roses, the garden,
the sunshine
I miss all the things that I carry
on my mind
I know my heart is broken
because of this
feeling inside but, I will live,
I will survive
I will fight to the end no matter what
I won't give up, there is a lot of
love and beauty
inside my heart, I will accomplish
my dreams
I am sure one day not too far
this will be just be a memory
of the darkest days and nights
I had to overcome
to get to where you are with
your hands open
ready to heal my heart......

Why did you have to smile to me
why did you have to look at my eyes
if you knew you were the
forbidden fruit
because you have a life with
another man
why did you take my hand and
ask me to dance
why did you stay with me those nights
if you knew we could not be together
I know that you are sorry
for loosing me
you feel the emptiness of not
having me
it's funny the way it works, I made you feel beautiful
I made you smile, my presence was too strong
now my absence is crushing
your heart
you miss my touch, my words,
my kisses, my love
well, is time to choose and remember
I won't wait for long....

How fast time has passed
I still have this pain in my heart
I still feel something that I can't describe
I miss you, I love you, I wish I could close my eyes
wake up and you will be here smiling telling me, it's going to be okay and giving me a big hug
  then when I wake up all this pain
will be gone
I have a big wound in my heart and sometimes it bleeds
it hurts, I remember everything,
I remember those days
when you were here, people tell me she's happy, she's in a better place
but nobody can show me where, so
at night, I look at the sky and
I see the stars, I call one by your name then her light shines
I think it's you answering my call and letting me know you are okay
  for me it's been an uphill battle,
is been hard since you gone
but I will win, I got my strength
from you, I won't give up
I will keep you my heart
for as long as I live
don't worry about me, I am okay
I will dance my pain away
I will smile because, I know
you are smiling back from up there
with all my love, until
we meet again.....

why did you come one night to my dreams?
why did you touch my face?, and
gave me a kiss
if you knew that in the morning
you had to leave
why couldn't I keep you here with me?
Where are you?, why do you live in my dreams?
I haven't met you, but I feel like
I know you
I feel like we have so many
things in common
I want to spend so much time with you
who are you?, why does it hurt
to know
that when I wake up you will be gone
please, if you ever read this come back
during the day, look at me, smile,
give me a hug
tell me that you are finally here and tell me that you will stay
please, if you are not coming to my life
stop showing up in my dreams...

I am stuck in yesterday
when your beautiful eyes
were my sunshine,
when your sweet smile woke me up
I'm stuck in yesterday, with this feeling that I have
inside my heart and doesn't
want to stop
I am stuck looking at our star
in the sky
her light is fading away
as the days go by
I am stuck with all these
feelings inside me
I don't know how to forget you
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to continue
I have lost many things
also my biggest dream
I want you to leave me alone
I want you to go away, but
you won't go
your face is still here stuck
on my mind
I want my life back
everything you took
I want to find the person that I was
before you came to my life
I am tired of this feeling that hurts inside my heart
please help me to forget yesterday
help me to erase you from my mind
or take my heart out of my chest
and make this pain stop...

To my son

thank you for coming to my life
when I first saw your eyes, I understood what love was
when I first touched your hands
I felt something
inside of me, I felt your presence inside my soul
when I saw your smile I knew, it could heal the sad part of mine
remember to Love yourself
more than anyone
if one day life brings you
to a dark place and
I'm not there with you look for me inside your heart
because I'll be there, it is my greatest gift to be a part of your life
don't judge people just love them
the way they are
remember to always  believe in yourself, remember YOU CAN!!
you have given me the
best days of my life
I remember your toys, I remember you playing in the grass
I remember you going to school,
I remember you growing up
learn to be happy not with a smile, but from inside your heart
I know that you will win over whatever life throws at you
I hope you will find your path,
thank you for everything,
you are the best part of me
thank you my son, I will always
love you with all my heart
no matter what

I dreamt of you
and your beautiful eyes
I touched your face and
made you smile, like the old days
we were in a beautiful place
where the grass was green
and the sun really shines
we talked about yesterday
and the love we once had
even though our time together
was a flash, I keep you here
inside my heart, where I keep
our most beautiful memories
so that I can dream of you one more time...

My Wish...

I wish you were here with me
telling me all the things we should do
sharing about your day and             your dreams
I wish I could see your eyes
looking at me
making me a prisoner of that beautiful
paradise that inside of them, I see
I wish I could hear your voice
calling my name whispering,
I love you!
right before going to sleep or all
the things you used to say to me
I wish I could touch your hair
play with it like the many times I did
I wish I could wake up and this
was just a bad dream, that way
this feeling inside my heart will
stop and I can continue to breathe....

Author: Gary Zambrano