I look in the mirror I see regret.
I see all the things I could reset.
I see the good and I see the bad.
Confused messed up and mad.

I know now how it all went wrong.
Its all my fault I wasn't very strong.
I wanted to do what was right.
In my own mind there was a fight.

I don't know how to say goodbye.
It seems so easy until you try.
Love is to deep, I can not let go.
You taught me love, that I know.

Didn't know I was the luckiest man.
To have such an amazing life planed.
I ******* up I didn't know what I had.
Now here I am a broken single Dad.

A. Emmi
01/25/19

Humans creators of time.
Superior in our own mind.
Entitled we dictate it all.
Simple minded we will fall.

Inevitable self destruction.
Nature is our only instruction.
Yet we seek complications.
Creating more frustrations.

Solving problems we created.
Divided we abide dissipated.
Guilty as can be we dispute.
Leaving majority in destitute.

Capable of so much more.
We decide to fight, wage war.
Declare nonsense on mankind.
Thousands of years spent blind.

A. Emmi 01/23/19

Mindset.


Every next choice could be a new start.
Time has no definition in our heart.
A man made tool to guide us along.
Never deciding what's right or wrong.

The choice to change is only within.
We can choose to smile or to grin.
Perception lies in our consciousness.
Choose a life of positivity not regress.

A battle it is if your broken and torn.
Scars run deep beat down and worn.
We can live in the past full of regret.
Or we can look ahead a clear mindset.

Some of our pain is from our own hand.
Some sought us out unwanted unplanned.
Life deals out everyone a different hand.
Its up to us to take control take command.


A.Emmi 01/01/19

Dear Dad.

Its been eighteen years since I seen you last.
Since I seen you smile or heard you laugh.
My best friend, for the short time we had.
My mentor, my hero, my Dad.

How have I been since you went away?
So many things, so much to say.
I met the woman of my dreams.
It didn't work out, that's life it seems.

We had a daughter a little red head.
Love at first sight, just like you said.
Her name is Abigail, she looks a lot like you.
Ill give her my best in everything I do.

I wish you were here to see her grow.
To give her the wisdom that you know.
Don't worry she has an amazing Grandpa.
She loves him dearly, she calls him Guh.

I've had some good times, and my share of bad.
Life's been one hell of a ride, without you Dad.
I miss our long talks, your unbiased advice.
Your never ending love, hard work, and sacrifice.

What I wouldn't give for just one more day.
To tell you everything I want to say.
I hope you would be proud of the man I've become.
All the hardships, and struggles I have overcome.

Now I will look forward, I'm sure I will be fine..
Trying to be a better man one day at a time.
I miss you always, ill never forget this day.
December 30th. When my Dad went away.


A. Emmi 12/30/18

Goodbye.


Sometimes in life we must let go.
Cast aside the burden we know.
Transcend existence, transform.
Find Balance within the firestorm.

Begin the puzzle one corner at a time.
Fill in the pieces, slowly you will climb.
The past is behind you, miss it you will.
A life lesson learned, a covered landfill.

I'll give the love I have before it's gone.
A picture I'm drawing not yet drawn.
A good man I am, I've done some wrong.
Does that defy my whole life's song?

Ahead I shall look, It's the only choice left.
No matter how distraught or depressed.
I thought I had forever, life changes course.
Forever missed, you're my greatest remorse.

I finally say goodbye, and farewell.
Hope life treats you fair and well.

A.Emmi. 12/19/2018

In the sunset I see you fading away.
Moon rise gives hope to another day.
Cool breeze dry's tears from my cheek.
A broken down soul torn and weak.

Hopeful dreams fulfill my head.
Every night while I lay in bed.
Wishing thoughts of times gone by.
Wishing thoughts of you and I.

Memories so vivid and so pure.
Of a love that once needed no cure.
Years of good times all washed away.
On that fateful January Sunday.

Now I stand alone trying to repair.
My heart swollen my mind in despair.
I find it hard to move on with my life.
I miss you so much....my beautiful wife.


A.Emmi 06/30/18

A new day will arrive.
Even without you here.
Please always know.
I hold you near.

I think of you often.
Thoughts of past.
Thoughts of love.
These thoughts last.

From the beginning.
Love at first sight.
I miss your laugh.
I miss holding you tight.

Days go by I still remain.
Trudging on my own.
I seek true happiness.
On this long road alone.


A.Emmi 06/29/18