Forgive me for I am forever flawed.
Born scared, chewed up, and mauled.
A gift I was given, the gift of life.
But something was taken, a sacrifice.

I am different than most, a brain malfunction.
I do not come with papers, or instruction.
I must navigate alone in a sea of existence.
Doing what is right with patience, and persistence.

I once did not understand that I was this way.
For I was just a pawn in life, just here to play.
But now I know, and with a heavy heart.
I am forced to reboot, give in, and restart.

Forgive me for I am not your average man.
I was born with gods will, and a different plan.
I have climbed to the highest peak and survived.
I have hit rock bottom and never compromised.

A.Emmi 06/19/18

Heart beats rythem erratic
Hope is blind eyes static
Forever is never far away
Sleepless nights here to stay

Late evenings early morns
Halos brighter than devil horns
Hunger present eating a chore
Lacking affection love adore

Confusion settles hard to think
Grabbing life.....shall not sink
Future is present now is here
Tomorrow gone will not fear

Bargain I will strive I must
Wipe myself off shake out the dust
Slowly pace living low
Taking time to let myself grow

Past memories inflicting pain.
What more do I have to gain.
Living a life of lies indulging sin.
Waving off all friends and kin.

Living life reclusive in fear.
cant see anyone nor hear.
Buried under a fortress of gloom.
Looking out a window of doom.

Indecisive of my future path.
All consuming grave and wrath.
So alone no outlook of tomorrow.
Sulking in my own pain and sorrow.

Remembering past to hard to bare.
How much more ware and tear?
Days go by as I await the night.
Patiently waiting for no sunlight.


A.Emmi 05/20/18

Anxiety racing mind wont slow.
Always thinking things I don't know.
Worried for tomorrow so far away.
How can I get through this horrid day.

Feelings confused heart broken.
Why wasn't I more outspoken.
I lost everything I loved so much.
Now I can hardly feel and touch.

So cold inside where I reside.
Shaking all day trying to hide.
Fear of the future what is next.
All I can do is put thoughts in text.

Barley hanging on so hard to cope.
Visions of hanging at the end of a rope.
That will never happen people still care.
I need to get gritty bite down and bare.


A.Emmi 05/16/18

I want to hold you just one more night.
Just one more time in my arms tight.
I miss your smile I miss your touch.
I  miss the person you are so very much.

I love you now, I will until my dying breath.
My love for you will proceed my death.
You are my true soulmate that I always knew..
Over those first years oh how our love grew.

You are a special person so kind and true.
I wish I had treated you better, I wish I knew.
I did my best with what I had, at least I thought.
Now I know there is much more I could have brought.

I am a better man for getting to love you.
I am a better person for knowing you.
You will forever be close to my heart.
I will never let my love for you part.


A.Emmi 05/15/18

In my darkest times.
You have been a friend.
You understand.
When others rescind.

You take me for me.
That is all I can ask.
You are a special lady.
With such a tall task.

You bring me love.
When I need it most.
You bring me a smile.
When I feel like a ghost.

You brighten my days.
With just a simple text.
You make life worth fighting.
When I don't know what's next.


A.Emmi 05/13/18

You are a special gift.
To the kids you love.
Always doing what's best.
A true gift from above.

Always having a kiss, and a hug.
For the ones that you dearly love.
A care free laugh a brighter smile.
Always going that extra mile.

From morning to sunset.
Your love never ends.
You are a true blessing.
To your two little best friends.

I couldn't be more proud.
Of the Mother you are.
I couldn't be more proud.
Of the person you are.


A.Emmi 05/13/18