I sit alone in the dark.
Picking up pieces of this broken heart.
Once again.

There is no beginning or start.
To this loneliness.
Just when will it end.

But I must go on now.
I've gone to far.
I cant give in.

So Ill pack my bags.
and leave this ugly town behind.
once again.

Ill hit the open road.
Ill see the mountains.
and hills once again.


A.Emmi 04/27/18

Tired of everything.
It all seems a bore.
Tired of living.
It all seems a chore.

Tired of being alone.
It wears on my heart.
Tired of thinking.
That we are apart.

Tired of being tired.
When does it end.
Tired of all of this.
How can I mend.

Tired of repeating.
Day after day.
Tired of seeing.
Everything so gray.


A.Emmi 04/18/18

Heart beats.
Blood bleeds.
Brain races.
Fake faces.

Wasting time.
Killing mine.
Nowhere is here.
Nothing to fear.

Blankets of gray.
Shadow at bay.
Silence of mouth.
Eyes talk aloud.

Tasting my death.
Leaving my breath.
Calming sounds.
Making its rounds.


A.Emmi 04/18/18

Peaked and weak.
Flushed and Bleak.
Parched and dry.
Whiskey and rye.

A feeling we know.
A feeling so low.
The next day we met.
Shame and regret.

But we can stand tall.
We will not fall.
A sober life we live.
A sober life we give.

Together we meet.
A solemn retreat.
No one will judge.
Onward we trudge.


A.Emmi 04/17/18

Walking abound eyes twitching.
Life bursting from its stitching.
Meaningless days continue on.
Counting down till life is gone.

Mind is sick relentless thoughts.
Begging for ease in a bottle of shots.
That road leads no where, that I know.
Just a painful existence on death row.

Days turn into weeks, weeks to years.
Seeking forgiveness, living my fears.
Alone I sit day in and day out.
Life has taken such a horrid route.

No smiles, no pain.
No happiness, no gain.
No comfort, no stress.
No feelings, no mess.

A life I can not feel....How do I heal?

A.Emmi 04/09/18

Time does not exist.
My eternal minds abyss.
Self loathing restless.
Self degrading relentless.

Blaming all troubles I abide.
Substantiating I coincide.
Grasping for any relief.
I hold the past in belief.

Insanity surely ensues.
Same problems and issues.
Doing things on repeat.
Never learning I retreat.

Despair and sorrow.
Its all I seem to know.
Trying so hard to grow.
Yet feeling so ***** and low.

Alone I shall stay, lying to myself.
Never having to please anyone else.
I am who I am, maybe I cant change?
Maybe I prefer a life lived in derange?


A.Emmi 04/09/18

Fine tuning my craft.
One never ending draft.
Picking apart at the bone
Every strand left alone.

A singular thought.
Life can not be taught.
All corners in reach.
Only you can teach.

Braving the harshest conditions.
Seeking the impossible missions.
Grazing this round rock.
On the door I shall knock.

Peeking into all situations.
Intuitive revelations.
Grasping my own opinions.
Ignoring the unjust minions.


A.Emmi 04/06/18