Upon my cheeks
For the world to see.
Debossed deeply
Agony and weariness
Linger in the dry rivers.

Endless nights
No sleep in sight
Heart knockin on deaths door
Mornings light
Evils terrifying fright.

Burning a path
In loves aftermath
Torture defined by wrath
Spelling out demons path
Washed in the ****** bath.

Pillows soaked in tears
Releasing nightly fears
Sheets devided by daggers and spears
Stacked upon satan's piers
As the glorious end nears.

Happiness avails
As the nights air becomes stale
Love once again will fail
Open the daily mail
And receive the mornings hell

Oh, but the pain we suffer
Alone in the dark, at night
Ruminating lifes agonizing flaws

Piles of letters on the floor
Apologies and final farewells
Meaningless attempts to explain

A hammer pressed tightly
Placing an end in its sight
Groping the thighs of death

Fingers typing ferociously
Attempting to explain the pain
To those that deserve it not

Scattering pointless words
For the world to see and mock
Tear filled heart dumps the final breath

An ocean away, and a draped face
Covered by the endless miles
Stretches out her love

Tonight a friend has added the minutes
Abolishing the hooded beast
Saturatiing the darkness with hope
Hugging away the darkness

Oh the light that the precious soul
Touching the darkest corners
Emitted light with radiance

The sparkle in the heart
Ignites a glorious fire
Burning bright for all to see

Oh but only if
The arms could
Stretch a few more miles

Thank you my friend
For saving me from the end
It is my love I send

Please!!
Tell me where the good is
Give all that a man can offer
And upon your heart they trample

Share the depths of your soul
And nothing will stop them
From pain they came
To hell they will send you

Why would the heart
Torture itself with foolish attempts
By now it should know
That love doesn't exist.

How much more should I leave
How many more deaths shall I suffer
Before my heart shall see
Alone I will  die

Why Did God not create one
Not one good woman did he….
Love was the hearts desire
But offers little more than death

If one good woman fortune holds
Embrace her tight and never let her go
A fool you shouldn't be
For, there will never be another.

It is in this room full of souls
That I lie alone in the dark
It is in this room full of love
That that I feel nothing but  
Loneliness
  
Velvety roses, bathed in a crimson flow
Still, I lie alone in the dark
Blurry eyes, endless weeping, and broken hearts
And my soul feels nothing just
Loneliness
  
Empty heart never to be hurt again
Still, I lie alone in the dark
Sanguine rivers turn to powdery dust
And the eyes show nothing but  
Loneliness
  
Final goodbyes and fresh earth
And finally I'm alone
Nothing but memories and broken hearts
Lonliness

Rivers fading into the sun.
Defying logic as they turn red.
Picturesque mountains lose their glory
As anger turns the snow rosey.

And the world turns to blood.

Visions of what used to be,
And what could have been.
Replaced with the orange glow of the fire,
As the devil rakes the coals of sleep.

And the world turns to blood.

Side by side captured forever in time,
As the pages turn forward and back.
Memories no longer bring the smiles,
Just fear as the avalanches crush life.

And the world turns to blood.

The daggers of your words
Rip and burn their way into the night
Never to feel the warmth of your arms.
You say you don't feel that way.

And the world turns to blood.

Can I ever remove the ink,
From my brain and cleanse it all.
As time moves forward,
And my heart stands still.

And the world turns to blood

Baby's screams and silent tears.
Rooms filled with empty fears.
Deathly silence flooding the night.
Blackness of night obscuring sight.

The golden curse killing dreams.
As the world splits at the seams.
Falling deep into nothingness.
Little left, but the devils witness.

Baby's screams left unheard.
As the passion of love is deterred.
Baby's screams
And the glow of the beam.

Find your flowing bed.
Sturdied by the mysterious dead.
Child Stay your course.
And ride the winged horse

Dreams of love, reflecting life.
Imaginary lies of a blackened mirror,
Promising fairy tales and forever
For the stricken fools heart.

Anger and disappointment,
Casting the looking glass.
Upon the floor perfect dreams
Scatter to the wind, thousands of shards.

Painful, broken memories
Piercing an angels feet.
Fallacies and wishes draining the life,
A broken dream at a time.

"If only", and "what if" mock the night.
Her happiness, not from love's spell.
As the tears drown the blood.
And the blood reminds the heart.

The enchanted heart dreams of its mate.
As its mate longs for another's lies.
Walking to and fro upon the bed of glass,
Self made lies adorn the mornings glimmer.

As the remaining love and final prayer leave.
The weakend soul dies one last time.
A final farewell, and kiss my ***
As the lights fades one final time.

Passionate deep blue seas
Weigh the anchor
Hoist the sails
Set you bearings
Forever island awaits

Be not afraid
The night hides no demons
All can be beat
Head into the wind
Break the waves

Get lost in the dark
Deep deep blue sea
Passion at her finger tips
Embrace the embraces
Overcome the waves

Stay the course
Chart the island
And find the gold
For her heart
Will ever be yours

The bridled tongue and darkness spoke
Fiery dragons and the devil's joke
Softly in the ears it screamed
Foolishly a future dreamed

Broken fool's mockery and shame
Ravaged and thrown in the evil game
Black diamonds and bloods oath
Jezebel and the demons hand both

Deepened pools and the loves dance,
Round and round methodic prance
Hands on the clock fail to stop
Love makes an unfair swap

Screams mark the gates of hell
Tears ring and the echo of bells
Loneliness haunts the serenity of night
As loves leaves a painful sight

Oh but the pain
Loving the unwilling heart.

Lonliness captures the night
As the mirror reflects not.

Endless days
Captivated with darkness

Peering into the empty eyes
Of a love darkened soul.

Chains around my wings
Chains lining the soul of my heart
Clouds taking the shape
The shape of chains

The future tied
Tied by the chains
The past drug along
Drug by the chains

Wretched ungodly beasts
Wrapped around my neck
Choking the wind
And robbing the smile

When shall you let me breathe
Breathe the life
The life back into my lungs
Returning life after death

Cumbersome and heavy,
Lying in unorganized piles.
Scattered around the fools bedside.
Keeping out those who dare to enter.

Dreary chains of love.
Mincing the amorous nights,
And foolishly obliterating sweet goodnights.
Replaced by darkness and shadows delight.

Demons mockery, fed by soot covered pots.
Shadows mist, teasing the flames.
As the night sheds its cloak.
And the cool breeze singes the tear soaked filters.

Gasping, groping for an ounce of something,
Pulling at the chains, hugging them tightly.
Praying for morns light,
While embracing the love of cold, cold steel

As the sun arose today
I sat upon the grass
The grass so green.

The breeze blew so gentle
I looked up in the sky
The sky so blue

There was an odd bird
Backwards he flew
Flew from whence he came.

For a moment I watched
I watched in dismay
As backward he flew.

From the old bird
An answer I pleaded
Tell me tell me please

Why is it backward you fly?
How will you ever get where you going?
If backward you fly.

Rain showers falling from the sky.
Created from the tears he cried.
Out of breathe he bravely answered.

Down there upon the ground
Trees and rocks bruise your path
And refuse your sight for tomorrow.

But, it is up here so high
So high above the world so cold
That I can see all that is about to be.

Again I asked the old bird
So, why is it backward you fly?
What has you so afraid of tomorrow?

He squawked, I have seen from where you came.
And I have seen where you are.
Yet it is what is ahead that frightens me.

The sun that comes,
Comes from the darkest corners.
Now is covered, covered in blood.

As backward from sight he flew.
His wings pleaded with the wind.
Take me back, back to the happiness I knew.

As I sat upon the grass.
The grass so green.
All was…….

Sweetest of reds
Taunting the child
Such creepy innocence
Stealing the light

Pirouetting down the promenade
Beckoning evil, silently screaming.
Torturing the curiosity
Offering imminent death.

Hilarious paint
Over the creepy soul
Gnarling teeth and an evil heart
Scouring the refuse for the lost

Conquiring the night
Infailable fear of the day
Dont be afraid to come and play
For evil is here to stay

Have you ever danced in the rain?
Gazing a thousand miles into the soul of the one in your arms.
Forgetting the day, and living in the moment as your bodies become one.
Surrounded by no more then an eternal memory.
No music, no sounds except the beating of our hearts.
Each drop of rain washing away the world around us.
Each drop giving birth to a new page and a new chapter of love and ecstasy.
Silly moments of passion flooding a new love with glorious
heartfelt desires.

How many more hours shall I search?

For thee

How many more pleas shall I send?

Upon my knees

Why is your stain not upon my door?

As my screams beg

Where are you tonight?

Oh

Death bless me with thy mercy.

And quench the candles light

Oh the deafened eyes have not seen the blood ravaged moans. The limbs swaying to the beat of the devils band. Purple stains strewn about. The company of misery brings many. No peace tonight. So far away is the mornings light. The sad sickness of love torments the mind and enthralls the heart. Empty arms stretch across the night. Visions of the new love ravage the broken dreams. Why? Why must love be so cruel? How? How could you leave me to die? Promises of survival are met with a proof of death. Though the heart may beat, dead roses upon the floor show the light. Oh the dreams that painted the heavens, and the desires that paved the path. Tonight may pass, but tomorrow and tomorrows tomorrow will bring an end. As the rivers turn red and silence captures the heart, and the gentle breeze stops, silence! Listen! For the soul screams for those that will listen as it departs.

Agony surpases reality as the binds constrict. Endless visions dancing, teasing and mocking the weary soul. Sweat soaked body flailing back and forth. Each night and every minute worse than the one before. The open window seems to provide a message as the wind whistles thru the pines. Singing a song, slicing the night with words not meant to be heard. As they sway with each enchanting gust they bring a tear to the broken heart. Devils tongue, gut wrenching visions, sharpened claws tell a tale. Scouring to the right, scampering to the left no chance of escape. Pinned to the fresh earth, feet and hands bound tight. Sweat adhering the binds, compressed tightly. A prayer to God and hopes for a shining knight. Yet the devils blanket draws and annihilates the breaths from the body. Lights grow dim and breaths slow, maybe tonight all the prayers will be. Maybe tonight I wil go?

Kiss upon thy lips, sweat upon the brow. Perfection found in the devils woes.                  

Sweetest little words and temptress taunts.  Naughtiness and no shortage of wants.  Sweetness and a whole lot of spells.
Voodoo buried at the bottom of wells.

Magical moments caught in the air.
Angels the cause of so much despair.
Nothing wrong with the curvy hips.
Going to wish you had never taken sips.

Continuous knives in the back.
Devil worked so hard in the sack.
From the moment you look in the eyes.
The heart will have an eternity of sighs.

Devils, angel gonna rip your heart out.
This will ultimately be your final bout.
The blood will flow from the river.
Now that she has thrown the sliver.

Screaming, back away if you can.
Broken heart has a gun in hand.
Today is the final day.
No longer a way to stay

Perilous dictation
Hammering the strings of consequence

Devils lullaby
Singing a song to never be written again

Deafened ears
Screaming for a peaceful rhythm

Beg, beg no more
For tomorrow shall never see today
Keep the applause to a dull roar
For an ovation shall not honor the pleas.

As the lights dim
And the curtains close
Gather your gaze to yesterday
For tomorrows answer cant be found today

My screams did you not hear?
They were meant for your ear!
Night after night I called your name.
Your heart thought it a game.

The pursed demons lips,
Wantonly followed scripts.
With each thunderous click.
The clock, my life it wicked.

My screams did you not hear?
Hands raised to heaven with a tear.
On my knees, I screamed your name.
But, you slept without shame.

On my walls they knocked.
I know my doors, I locked?
In my halls they creeped.
Around each corner i peeped.

My screams did you not hear?
Why must I yell so, in fear?
Did you not hear my closed lips.
Now they come from the crypts.

The whimpers in my sleep!
But never another peep.
Did you not hear my cries?
Forever now closed my eyes.

My screams did you not hear?

Why must I sit here in this bed?
Believing that we cry together.
Miles and miles between us yet,
I believe that the rivers that I shed
will meet the rivers that you shed.

Why must I believe that you care?
Why should I even dream?
Dream a dream that you dream,
A dream of me.

Yet night after night
I sleep upon the ****** pool
Amassed by the razors edge.
As my friends taunt me and tease me.

Do you dream the dreams I dream?
As you lie in his arms.
Is it the love I showed you?
That brings you back to my arms each night.

I know you dream no more
Your heart no longer feels the feelings
The feelings of love I had for you.
As my soul loved your soul.

My only love now
Is the love of pain
Pain has become my life
And mortal wound shall set me free

**** the tears that burnt a hole in my soul.
**** the years that took away my youth.

To hell with tomorrow, and the days to come
Leaving it all on the sheets tonight.

***** the pain and the agony you dumped on me.
Going to obliterate the nightmares at satan's feet.

Keep your rivers in your dry pockets.
Moisten not the skies with your writings,
For it never mattered more than…..

The pain grows and grows.
A simple ad on the page, a leaf in the yard, and she comes back.
No more can I take.
Guys this is it for me.

Why must I live in the night?
When there is nothing left but fright.
Why must i suffer through the day?
When love did refuse to stay.

Shameless blood upon the blade.
Desiring to live in the darkest shade.
The stinch of earth covers the pain.
Even the horrible blood of loves stain.

The demons refused an ounce of sleep.
In the grave sweet peace did creep.
They all gathered round to cry.
For an answer they all did pry.

Search no further than the agony of love.
For the message was carried upon a dove.
Gods silent heavenly word
Purchased on the wings of a bird.

Be still and rest my child.
For Upon you God has smiled.
There is no longer a reason to fear.
Now is the moment to shed the final tear.

Is it humanity that breeds life into love?
Or Is it love that breeds humanity unto life?
What is it about love that requires humanity?
Is it not possible to feel love as if a God?

Oh the simple nectar that cultivates life,
While a wooden stake pierces the heart with words.
Dangling forever upon mysteries of the deep blue,
As passion lights the paths torch.

The fear of the first move towards eternity,
As a father's call lingers in the forgotten corners.
Gentle glimpses showered with moon lit dust.
As Angel's wings quench the jitters with lust.

Exquisite walks as the sand tickles the toes.
Hand in hand, hearts saunter toward morn.
An array of words lost in night,
As eyes and heartbeats fill the glass.

A pitiful soliloquy portrayed with lumbering words.
Visions of tomorrow masked by a moments heat.
Sweetest lips embodying the emotions of the heart
As heaven facilitates the sweetest of words

I LOVE YOU!!

I'll throw you a line if
gentle with my heart you shall be
accepting of my spirit wild and free
as understanding pain took my glee

We all need friends so I'll throw a lifeline
forever my heart you shall have the key
I want to know the line's strong so give me a sign
with love make your days mine
and hold tight to the friendship line
forever in eternity intertwined

Goodbye and Farewell

Sometimes Enough is

Enough!!!

Screams of steel,
Parting the night air
Like a ghost ship
And the mornings fog.

Dead man's gold,
Buried below,
Hidden, a waiting
The razors bounty

Blood shed,
Arms holding the hope
One more passionate cut
And the treasures home.

Dig, for the course,
Shall show the light,
The lighted path
As the blood flows

Love is forgotten,
As the blade makes its home
Deeper and deeper,
The cuts become.

When shall the pain die?
Is it when the pain becomes
Becomes too strong?
Or, when the flow stops?

Foraging the forest of love
Ravaging the hearts of men
Anhialation falls upon the weak
Neglect not the shield
Crushing is the evil will
Eroticism is lure to the heart
*** shall break thy spirit

Games upon games arrive
Articulation lost in the sirens song
Madness meets mania as loves prey
Molesting the soul and devouring dreams
Omnipotence becomes the path
No more need to pray
She is the end…….

I didn't deserve this.
So much work I give.
Dangling my heart upon a string.
Arms open wide.
Love never ending.

I didn't deserve this
Screams and screams
Penetrating my flesh.
Gnawing it's way to bone.
Till nothing but pain is left.

I didn't deserve this.
Waiting for the next cruel words.
To rip away any pride left.
Making each breathe more painful.
Till only screams are left.

I didn't deserve this.
Sharpened blade cutting deep.
Searching for the next gorgeous flow.
Hiding the pain with pain.
Wiping it away hiding the shame.

I didn't deserve this.
Hoping the next line will be too deep.
Agony relieved by a mistake.
Begging the Lord for mercy
Let the razor make a home.

I had rather went blind.

Than to see you leave.

No one seems to understand.

No one seems to know the feeling.

So many times I felt your wrath. So many times you hugged me tightly as I cried myself to sleep. The ropes choked the wind from my lungs. The nails pierced holes in my heart. Never a drop on the sheets, but I cried rivers of red as the life left my soul. Soon I lost sight of who I was. My existence became no more the pain that you induced.

You smiled so deeply,

You promised tomorrow and tomorrows tomorrows.

You made me feel so loved and desired.

The love lied without a blink. And the pain became my life. I awoke with the needle in my arm, and I went to bed with the straw in my nose. Each dose created a desire, desire for more of your pain, and worse pain. The stories of all the men that had molested my fantasy, ***** my
Dreams. The stories made it all so *****. Shower after shower failed to wash the blood from our love.

I came on my knees.

I crawled and begged like an addict.

I hated the breathe you breathed.

When there was no mercy left. Like a thief in the night. You stole the only thing that kept me alive.  Now it is in other eyes, that I liked. I see perfection but it scares me to death. I need the pain. I need the misery. I need the torture. I became dependent. I became an addict. Now I live restrained to a couch, bound by what little pain my memories grasp to hold.

They tell me to stop.

They tell me to find happiness.

They tell me life will be ok.

It is the trampling of my heart that kept me alive. How am I supposed to live without it? The nights I hate, the demons run rampant. But it is the only place I feel safe. No one left in my life, but those that eat my very soul.

Why can't someone love me?

Why can't anyone see how great I am?

Why can't they finish the job before morrows light?

Pretentious words.
Mocking the soul.
Scattering the heart.
Knocking at hells gate.

Sweetest words upon the lips.
Glorious bird song upon the heart.
Tomorrows that transcend time.
Yet, halos circumvent the demon's horns.

Angelic heart dreaming in the stars.
With crimson paint upon the walls
Broken hearts and fresh earth,
As the sun stops time.

Oh trio of words
Why did you tease my soul.
And fuel the burning flames.
I LOVE YOU????