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594 · Feb 2018
The wallflower
Mary Gay Kearns Feb 2018
Eight pots under my front window,
Not selected but a random collection,
Presents in tubs, seed floated flowering,
Remains of painstaking gardening,
And days of inspiration and sun;
And still in one a yellow wallflower,
Finding a home, colourful and bright,
Not waiting to dance but abundant self,
Bearing out the winter storms,
To give its beauty in return for chance,
Underneath my window sill.

Mary Kearns
594 · Jul 2018
Evil
Mary Gay Kearns Jul 2018
Corruption is a silly voice
Shiny with its own virtue
Nebulous, brimming gall
It thinks clever, dumb thing.


And when open, the pen slips
Onto flippant shoes, smiling,
And hands cradle evil on line
This person is hard to define.

Love Mary **
591 · Dec 2018
Whisper.
Mary Gay Kearns Dec 2018
It is almost dark through the curtains
The cold creeps around my bed frame
Where sleep in no longer restful times

Soon the visitors will come to the door
And I will try my best to offer warmth
But the difficulty will be much a climb

I say sorry that, today, one cannot give
And whisper across the room my quiet
While they can only imagine, love notes.

And on the floor the two children play
Beautiful in their Christmas costumes
Blonde and flaxen haired in the lights .

I managed to give out warmth then.

Love Mary ***
591 · Jan 2018
Summer's End
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2018
The skies have been overcast, lately.
Draining the flowers of colour,
Bringing Autumn varieties adjacent
To August stock.There is a tiredness
In the stormy winds, a dusting of dry leaf.
We bring water in cans to restore
The last of this Summer's glory.

And hope for just a few more days
When one can bask in the blueness
In ignorance of Winter's call;
With the months of indoors
When perfumed air is gone.
The dampness in spider's dew
Replacing our Summer song .

Mary
Mary Gay Kearns Sep 2018
What is the reason for the letter I thought
Reasons are never what they seem to be
Behind each reason are many and varied
Incidents that cause a reason to develop.

Returning to the letter arriving today
For whom was the information written
An escape, a break in the transmission
A protection of denial and valsification.

So does truth exist in reason, can it be trusted?
Is it there for ownership of personage?
I sink down in sorrow at the realisation of this
The fact the letter was meant for reason not truth.

Love Mary **
571 · Dec 2018
Cock Robin
Mary Gay Kearns Dec 2018
I really did not know what they meant
Standing on the outside
Like nothing was of importance
Other than the coming along
The day splattered with rain
Spreading the newly bared earth
The weeded area with breathing
And the afternoon sprang tears
While **** Robin
Sang his song.
567 · Oct 2018
Green and Brown.
Mary Gay Kearns Oct 2018
In the middle of the road stood a toad
All dressed out in green and gold
He did not frown to see those prettier
Than he but wondered at such ecstasy.

Love Mary **
560 · Oct 2018
A birthday gift.
Mary Gay Kearns Oct 2018
A birthday gift was given in Autumn
To a girl younger than her blue eyes
She held out her hands to this bonny
Babe and cradled her all the way home.
To Katharine Happy Birthday for the 8th of October.
Love Mummy ***
557 · Jan 2019
Afternoon.
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2019
Waiting out with feet in the sea
The little boy called Charlie and me
He wore red and I wore green
Love to swim in the spangly sea.

The sky blew over a cobble stone
Dropped some raindrops that afternoon
It was very dippy in the weeds
But fun was had by Charlie and me.

Love Mary **
554 · Aug 2018
Dark Lane.
Mary Gay Kearns Aug 2018
It grew out of disappointment
That solitary word, indefinite
Lay on the back seat for years
Unneeded, lame
So when it erupted, a surprise
Hanging like a tarnished shade
Devoid of all light.

Love Mary **
554 · Apr 2019
Ordinary.
Mary Gay Kearns Apr 2019
He was in the garden
It had been a long time
Pulling against the weeds
His elderly mother in a chair
Reading the newspaper.

The woman watched on
Pallid in the light
They helped each other
It was Spring, bulbs out
The news was about Brexit.

Love Mary
Mary Gay Kearns Sep 2019
Ingmar Bergman externalisés by
Using women in his films to
Understand himself.
The two sides of himself.
So much of myself and my awareness
Of the graces of women come from my
Mother. The way my father treated
My mother was an sustaining influence too.

I remember my mother’s grey curly hair,
large ******* hanging like two full plums.
As she washes in the bathtub
Rounded belly, dark, floating, soapy ***** hair
Mother is forty - four.


Taking me into *******, softly, quietly
Mysteriously, my ******* are budding, two pink *******
A pretty navy padded brassière to wear under my blouse
When I go to school. This blouse is nylon and translucent
Womanhood that wet place of secret
sounds, scents and shapes.


Thank you mum for helping me to become a woman to take into my ****** form and become all that I did,Love you.

Love Mary xxxx. Your daughter.
551 · Sep 2018
The Pathways
Mary Gay Kearns Sep 2018
This is my final pathway, I walk with slowness and sadly
Brushing the foliage loved and cherished with light kiss
These paths, spreading the sunshine of little child to greet
And guiding my heart from here to there until we meet.

Love Mary **
Goodbye my dear poets, I have loved sharing with you .Love Mary ***
544 · Aug 2018
Lessons learnt .
Mary Gay Kearns Aug 2018
The past is a different country they say
Lost to us, lonely, forgotten, gone away
But that is our choice whether it remains
Or with glass ashtrays and photo frames.

Our past is a history of learned transcripts
Of written letters , conversations we had
It changed each future life that is now led
A continuity of patterns discarded or glad.

Love Mary xxxx

Love Mary x
543 · Apr 2018
Day Trip
Mary Gay Kearns Apr 2018
I keep going back
To the spot
Where the ocean meets the sky
And I am that child
Who never cried
At the front of the bus
Holding onto the rail
So I don't roll my head in the clouds
Watching the farmland slip by
It was once I.

Love Mary **
536 · Feb 2018
A child's windmill
Mary Gay Kearns Feb 2018
Looking through my photographs
For an image that will last.
Having something to say
About how I lived my days
Individual not in disguise
No forced colours or inverted skies
Or those enhancements using other links
That make your mind blink.
Has to be simple not constructed or planned
Touch of serendipity lending a hand
So my new update from a photo I take
With a child's windmill and a bird on a slate
A friendly sheep , a ceramic heap
Scattering stones, last season's bulb grown
A clematis shoot ******* with string
These are some of my favourite things.
For what is beauty but a surprise
Something unexpected, a moment's desire.

Love Mary
530 · Mar 2018
Fluffy
Mary Gay Kearns Mar 2018
I want to tell you about our cat
He was big and fluffy, like a furry floor mat
Moved from a house a few yards away
Adopted us and came to stay
Our big, fluffy, tabby cat.


Use to sit on my mother's knee
Kept her warm as warm could be
He had big paws just like a lion
Could give you a scratch if got alarmed
Our big, fluffy, tabby cat.


And though we all loved him
His temperament was fierce
Kept those paws ready to pounce
Snarled and hissed given a chance
Careful we were of that cat.

One day we noticed Fluff could not see
Kept banging his head on the garden tree
No longer could find his dinner plate
Now we knew it was getting late
For our big, fluffy, tabby cat.


For days and days we all did cry
No warm patch where Fluffy resides
In the garden under some flowers
Where the Spring bulbs grew scented hours  
Lies our very dear, Fluffy cat.



Love Grandma Mary **
For all my grandchildren
For all my grandchildren love Grandma Mary xxxx
Evelyn , Florence , Tasman, Monty ,Constance, new baby, Daisy ,Barney
milo, Jay ,Sally-Ann, Lily
Oscar,Kasper, Ruby, Hugo Delphi, Bluebell.Love youall
528 · May 2019
A head of golden hair.
Mary Gay Kearns May 2019
The wonders of a morning
Is watching Evelyn dress
She does it as slow as a feather
Falling from a great Oak tree.

Each item of clothing lifted
From the floor where it rested
Pants, socks t-shirt, pinafore,
Cardigan, shoes, coat.

The show complete
The child ready for school
Shows her shells
From her small collection
Ammonite, cowie, conch and
Waves goodbye.

Love Maryxxx
526 · Oct 2018
The briar and the rose.
Mary Gay Kearns Oct 2018
The briar and rose of Autumn lends light
All covered in harvest ripe berries and leaf
The bird on wing flies high against winds
And pulling over hats we trundle the shred.

Love Mary x
My life has been a pathway stretched out
In hues of many colours brightly tied bows.

Xxxxmary
514 · Oct 2018
You all.
Mary Gay Kearns Oct 2018
Wait, I hear you tipping through the long grass
A trumpet of flowers and an armful of love
My heart is a crystal of raindrops fair
And you are my fairies who fly through the air.

Love Mary , Mum , Grandma x
514 · Sep 2019
Abstract drawing.
Mary Gay Kearns Sep 2019
Only on week days when the sunshines
Do I chat to my Evelyn about all times
She has mouthfuls of honey and yogurt
Reading new words in her school book.

What is it to stop and watch the day break
Misty on window frames, dewey in grass
To see a young life take a step into this day
Secure in her treasures the drawing she made.

Love Grandma **
514 · Jul 2018
Constance.
Mary Gay Kearns Jul 2018
I think I’ll call her Griselda or Florentine of the sea
She is lovelier than a star fish with eyes of green
And hair twists around this, brown ringlet, queen
Constance of graciousness a madamoiselle’s dream
Mood matches her dresses, bohemian with a spark
And nothing deters that subterranean love heart.

Love Grandma to Connie ***
Mary Gay Kearns Jul 2019
Daisy you always loved me,
As I loved you from the first
We played together, talked
Ate sweeties and cakes
Watched television.

To be with you each week
With my bag of goodies
They are special memories
They are what is meant
By a life.

Love Mary x
503 · Dec 2018
Perpetuating song.
Mary Gay Kearns Dec 2018
White legs enter the sea
As Icarus falls from the
Sun baked clouds
His feathered wings melt
And then disintegrate.

The day is clear, calm
Not noticed as he falls, silently,
Into deepest waters of bay
All busied themselves
The light craft sails on.

The fisherman’s line stretched
The shepherd gazes at the sky
The bowsmen drives his horse
And birds spiralled overhead
Sailing boats bob in blue.

This is how it is in the land
Where no one is noticed
Brueghel and Auden knew
The hardship of reality
A sad perpetuating song.

Love Mary xxxx
501 · Jun 2018
Emily and Rose
Mary Gay Kearns Jun 2018
Under the blanket on a warm afternoon
With a faded sunshade over our heads
Mother and I would lie waiting for rain
And talk of her mother, with big blue eyes
Who died in childbirth when thirty-five
Leaving two little girls, Emily and Rose
And a tiny son who lived but two days
Always an absence for my sweet mother
But always a beautiful presence for me.

Love Mary **
True
500 · Feb 2018
Delphi Dancing
Mary Gay Kearns Feb 2018
Have you seen Delphi dancing
On the sand in the Bay
Arms outstretched to catch the moonshine
All the fragments of golden spray
And her feet scatter the sandstone
Her body sways as if to say
Listen as my heart flies skyward
On this glorious of days,
Along the beach the people gather
To watch the plaited maiden dance
Far away in her dreamland
She always gives what she has.


For dearest Delphi when she was seven.
Love Grandma ***
Life a chance.
Mary Gay Kearns Jul 2018
Tall Nettles cover up the corner, as they have done
These many springs, the rusty harrow, the plough
Long worn out and the harrow made of stone:
Only the elm **** tops the nettles now.

This corner of the farmyard I like the most:
As well as any bloom upon a flower
I like the dust on the nettles, neve lost
Except to prove the sweetness of a shower.


By Edward Thomas.
This is just so unbelievably magnificent .
Love Mary x
498 · Feb 2019
The end of the picking.
Mary Gay Kearns Feb 2019
Those pink blackberries hard as stone
The taste of bitterness and hairy stalk
The  sort of colour made with a mixture
In plastic bag catching the end of season
One more drip of divine wine to taking
The bushes continue their few bright tips
And picking hurts the fingers till sorely
It is Autumn stocking in its cold offering
In the evening when people return home
We were special in our togetherness.

Love Mary ***
497 · Jan 2018
In the blink of a memory.
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2018
Where did we get to

On a red trolley bus the last of its kind
I sat with my dad in 1959
I remember the overhanging track
And the clickety clack
The sliding sound
Of steel abound
And the brakes hissing out near the ground.
Ladbrook grove in London town
Where my aunties lived around.

Love Mary
496 · Sep 2019
Happy Birthday old boy.
Mary Gay Kearns Sep 2019
07/09/2019

Tiredness sets in
Round the mulberry bush
Under a fake stillness of rain
The porch door handle opens.

It will be a late birthday for some
Tea at eight with family and food
Such a shocking affair without her
She sits by the open window tears.

The cards stack up on the mantelpiece
And a veggie meal with crisp savoury
A game of Cheat and Misfits completes
A day of chivalry, prowling the boards.

You make the fun festival in bright shirt.
New slippers and a collection of children
You are my lion king flowing silver hairs
On a back broken by labour and lifting.

Love Mary to Roger xxxx
494 · Oct 2018
Cyril and Robin
Mary Gay Kearns Oct 2018
The days always had Red Robin and Cyril
And us two sitting on the cold back step
You ninety - four and me in my late forties
Red Robin came forward, hop, hop, hop
And took the cheddar from you old man.

Days of simplicity when the bluetits nested
And the birdtable was filled with seeds daily
Your strong hands, tapped up the peanut tin
Your son shaved the stubble on a rough chin
This quietness was rewarded by many birds.

Love Mary ***
494 · Jul 2019
Boxer
Mary Gay Kearns Jul 2019
They were moulded together like turned wood,
Carved and twisted made to last,
A man and a dog, a Boxer dog,
Travelling along our road.

Love Mary **'
493 · Jul 2018
Evelyn thinks.
Mary Gay Kearns Jul 2018
Evelyn looked at the path in front
Meandering into the dark woods
And quietly considered the future.

Nettles grew about the side edges
And beetles and caterpillars climb
Hidden from bright hungry beaks.

She heard small animals twitching
And smelt the river’s down flows
Groundcover spreading its beauty.

The world was peaceful in her hand
And dad holding tightly the morning
As they walked slow along the curve.

Love Grandma **
491 · Dec 2018
Morning walk.
Mary Gay Kearns Dec 2018
Lime green light
Shines softly through the breaks
As each bush stalks into day
Walking the wilderness road
Distilled morning moves the sun
Under a diagonal sprayed sky.

There is a mystery here to make
Taken along telegraph lines
Colours carried across space
White wistful clouds
Rise up towards the majestic
Mauveness and morning awakes.

Love Mary ***
491 · Nov 2018
I love the way.
Mary Gay Kearns Nov 2018
I love the way you sit
Your long leggies taut
On the soft furniture
Coloured socks on toes.

I love your long fingers
Spread out on keyboard
Intent on dancing about
The tap, click of moving.

I love your face in beard
Flowing silver silky hair
Rests on wide shoulders
I really, really love you .

Mary xxxxx"
490 · Dec 2018
In the darkness.
Mary Gay Kearns Dec 2018
Sit with me in the darkness
On the edge of the eiderdown
As your fingers turn the pages
Let me be who I am.

The fairies fly from pages
And the horses ride to town
My love for you is greater
Than the stars on my wall.

Love Mary ***
490 · Dec 2018
Lonliness
Mary Gay Kearns Dec 2018
The Lonliness of that road
Leading to a point
Ending in finality
Finishing quite frank.

It is green and far to be seen
Closed equilateral triangle
Destination, deciduous
Leaf, never to regrow.

Love Mary **
484 · Dec 2018
Falling .
Mary Gay Kearns Dec 2018
And the wall came tumbling down
Together we watched it fall
Red bricks cemented tumbled
On the street floor.

So we called in the builder to see
What he could do
Stuck it up again with lots of glue.


And now it looks perfect apart
From a zigzag line
Which is rather attractive
Where the new cement dried.

And the wall came tumbling down
In the garden of our house.

Love Mary ***
483 · Jun 2018
Insignias
Mary Gay Kearns Jun 2018
‘I’ve got to go’, the trees said
Twisting their trunks away
I have to get on with fluttering
The birds will need my sway.

‘I must start running’, said river
My banks are dusty and brown
The fishes are waiting for food
Must feed them or they will drown.

‘I will get on’, said the seagulls
Flying over the South-West Coast
There is food floating on the water
And something I see in that boat.

Mr bear looked at his watch
It was nearly half- past four
Said ‘I am really sorry for you’,
But simply can’t take anymore’.

Love Anonomous x
480 · Jan 2019
Birdsong.
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2019
The way opened out
And to get through
A bend was needed
Leaning against twig.

So thoughts gathered
Head strong
Across the empty ditch
The company leaped.

The other side was a purple haze
Drifting about above woods
The tops of the trees twittered
And twinkled and fluttered.

The company entered the woods
Lifting lightly their dress
Surrounded were they by
Bird song and flowers
At their feet.

Love Mary ***
477 · Jan 2019
Basket bins .
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2019
It is so sad when the weather is bad
And you can’t go out and the freeze does bite
And the dogs stay in with basket bins
The children play upstairs today
It is so sad when the weather is bad .

Love Mary **
Mary Gay Kearns Apr 2018
My father had a propensity for a peculiar type of sparseness.
Enhanced with items of furniture collected from many sources.
Not a mean man but coming from a very poor family off Labrook Grove in London his few possessions were meaningful.

In the 1970s my parents moved to Totland to take up residence in a new bungalow on The Isle Of Wight, situated overlooking rambling countryside and narrow, windy lanes.
There was a wide but shortish back garden needing to be established. The front garden a sloped bank to meet the pavement.
Mother brought with her, from Streatham her London home, favourite hardy shrubs easily transplanted.

My father retired early finding the strain of being a hospital administrator at St Georges Hospital, Hyde Park Corner, too taxing.
Recruitment was problematic and mainly filled with applicants from overseas.(Not much has changed in fifty years.)My mother wanted to spend time with Frank, her father, sharing his latter years at Totland where he and his wife, Gwen, lived overlooking the Solent on a considerable plot of land.
This included the new bungalow built about 1952-4 and designed by John Westbrook, Frank's son, and acres of beautifully planned flower gardens, a vegetable patch and large wooded area where the trees held tiny toys, to the magic of Tolkein. As children this place was as close as one could get to paradise.

Usually we entered by the back lane entrance rather than from The Alum Bay Road. The plot stretching between the two.
The rows of backgarden fences looked much the same
Crumbling and split wooden planks, large tree roots
Dividing up the length and making mysterious openings
Where rather dilapidated gates, latched firmly
So animals could not stray,
Allowed for the start of magic.
Out of all these fences one belonged to my grandparents and
Through which our travels to Narnia began.

So twenty, mainly, glorious years on The Island, enjoying its many beautiful walks, the beaches and a few precious friends and neighbours. It had been my mother's dream to inherit her father's bungalow and spend her final years watching the boats float on the Solent and breathe sea air sitting on a swinging seat surrounded by primroses. Unfortunately this dream did not materialise due to my mother's poor health. But she was grateful for the years Bill and herself  had together on that green and pleasant land.

My maternal grandparents were, quietly distinguished, letter writers
Who embroidered their days with poetic licence. They had few visitors, apart from the local vicar, the vet and gardener. Gwen being a rather possessive and eccentric lady and having no children of her own, treated the dog as one would a child and life centred around dog walks, feeding and playtime. Frank was also frail and being older than Gwen needed much care and attention.They both liked to read and write letters which they did after lunch with an added snooze. Every day flowed with regularity and neat routines interspersed with many hours tending the garden, picking raspberries from heavily laden canes and gathering long, plump runner beans.
Throughout the Summer months high tea was set in the garden on a rickety table, and consisting of thick slices of current bread coated in salt free butter, a variety of homemade cakes, sandwiches, and ice cream and jelly with a *** of tea or lemonade.
I am reminded of 'The Bloomsbury Set' and Vita Sackville -West, a tranquil but harassed life with too much need for perfection.


Geographically some distance from our London home visits, both ways, were infrequent and by the time I was about nine Frank was too old to travel to Streatham. However their presence formed a significant part of our lives and is still with me today.
Unfortunately letter writing was for my brother and I a chore not undertaken with glee,
Especially as the gift was often a box of embroidered hankies sat in someone's drawer for an age.

The family structure, having married in their fifties, consisted of Frank and Gwen, Mother and always a wire haired terrier, often renewed as age took this species young. Mother was in her nineties and having brought up Gwen and Kath singularly now lived with her daughter in the bungalow at Totland on the Alum Bay Road.

Frank had been part of the Boy's Brigade movement from his teens, taking his love of camping into his marriage to Alexandra Emily Giles, the mother of his two daughters, Grace Emily and Betty Rose. His wife sadly died in childboth leaving the girls orphaned at five and seven.
Frank then moved from Reading to Tooting in south London and married Vera, a girl of twenty one, to whom he had a son, John.
Vera was flirtatious with the boys in the brigade and left Frank and her son, John, at the age of nine, to the care and protection of my mother Grace who was then eighteen. Grace loved them both but it restricted her life and she feared she would never marry. However she found my father, a wonderfully loving and wholesome person who made her very happy in most ways.

Throughout my mother's and John's childhood time was spent camping on the Isle of Wight and so strong associations were made with Totland where the brigade camped in a field in Court Road.

The two bungalows were approximately two to three miles apart.
My mother visited Gwen and her father twice a week spending
A couple of hours sitting in the open planned hallway, glass doored, which faced onto the Alam Bay Road. If warm it would be brunch in the garden at the back. These visits were my mother's anchorage with her life as she missed me very much and her grandchildren in Watford.

Innisfail (meaning- The Ireland of Belonging) was the name of my grandparents' bungalow. ( please see below for more lengthy meaning and interpretation, kindly, written  by John Garbutt).

My parents' bungalow was named  'Crowhurst'  and carved on a wooden plaque as a present by John Garbutt my auntie Betty's partner. The origin of the name came from a retreat that my father, Bill, attended and connected to a church in Streatham where I lived as a child.

Almost all my childhood annual holidays were taken on the Island so we could visit our grandparents and my mother spend time with her father. After my parents moved and I married and had children the pattern was repeated. And till this day it is a favourite with all my children and grandchildren. A special place fixed in time and beauty.

The bungalows are both sold now as their residents have all died.
Clearing out the garage of my parents' bungalow my brother found many of my father's precious possessions although the house was quite sparse still having the wooden floorboards laid when first built twenty years before.

May they all rest in peace .Love Mary ***

My Family and our long and happy connections with The Isle Of Wight. By Mary Kearns April 2018.
John Garbutt wrote the following piece on the meaning of the name 'Innisfail'.

My belief that the place-name came from Scotland was abandoned
on finding the gaelic origins of the name.
‘Inis’ or ‘Innis' mean ‘island’, while ‘fail’ is the word for
Ireland itself. ‘Innisfail’ means Ireland. But not just
geographically: the Ireland of tradition, customs, legends
and folk music, the Ireland of belonging.
So the explanation why the Irish ‘Innisfail’ was adopted as the name
of a town in Alberta, Canada, and a town in Australia,
can only be that migrants took the name, well  over a century ago
to their new homelands, though present-day Canadians
and Australians won’t have that same feeling about it.

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The bungalow was designed by John Westbrook, who was an architect, as a wedding present for his father and Gwen Westbrook.
I do believe he also designed the very large and beautiful gardens.
I no longer know whether the bungalow is still standing or what it may be called .Mary xxxx
472 · Dec 2018
Wonder.
Mary Gay Kearns Dec 2018
And so today lay sleepier amongst
The coverings grey
Hearing windy breezes on
The chimney *** blow
Knowing the shining of the
Night sky
And the trespassing moon
Told of the eleventh hour
My fading fairy lisping.

My childish heart
Beat on the hour
With music and with songs
Gathered everything I had
Placed them in a bag
So if the daisies call
And snowdrops lift a head
All the wonders for me
At the bottom of my bed.

Love Mary **
470 · Oct 2018
Bunny Fluff.
Mary Gay Kearns Oct 2018
When walls cover themselves in ribbons and trailing
Restore hope so children take hands and play their pipes
And run with ropes on sideways to seek out spiders
To watch the rabbits in burrows cry hide.


Love Mary xxxx
470 · Mar 2018
Humbled
Mary Gay Kearns Mar 2018
Everytime I try a little harder I know it is you
A voice deep and melodious
Who whistled many tunes
A man born in poverty
A father who was strapped
A bedroom where you slept
Always back to back
You whom I always trusted
Who gave my mother love
Brought me up a good person
To value truth and love
I never made it to the Gods
And sat in the stalls
But the hay was humble
You gave me it all.

Thank you my dear Dad, Eric William Henry Ayton-Robinson.
Love your daughter Mary x
467 · Jun 2019
Adolescence.
Mary Gay Kearns Jun 2019
I liked it, that time of adolescence
When my heart and body gripped
Tightened, relaxed and expanded
And the days spilled me all over .

Short dresses, small *******
Rolled their way with you
I loved to sit upon your knee
Head resting on you.


In that front bedroom with broken glass
And curtains grey, unwashed opened to
The streets below and our bodies warm
Curled and curved together in the light.

Love Mary x
464 · Jan 2019
Never.
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2019
The bungalow stood empty after he died
Garden shoes hugged the porch step
The glass panelled front door showing
Pale translucent echoes of familiarity
Through its six oblong windows.

I was never allowed to visit
After the day of the funeral
Never able to bounce on the
Cream candlewick double bed
Which had been home.

Or to collect cuttings from the
Dilapidated garden, just a rose
Or two would do to recall a day
Of Summer and deckchairs
Tea and cakes eaten with care.

I was never allowed to embrace
Years of happy holidays shared
Breath in the beauty of memory
Deep down where flowers grow
Never allowed another Spring.

Love Mary xxxxx
458 · Jan 2019
A child in a meadow.
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2019
Slowly the currents gather
bringing me near to blue
Higher I fly and further I go
To a place where others have gone
In sadness and joy the beginning and the end
A swathe of grass, a cut of corn
A child in a meadow
Playing a tune
The tree tops reach to the sun.
All this has been for me to see
And now it is time to say farewell
And to travel lightly along.


Travel along.

Love Mary xxxx
456 · Dec 2018
Patch of Lavender.
Mary Gay Kearns Dec 2018
Shades of green and a lichen fence
Leafless bushes embrace telegraph
Triangular factory roofs make hills
In the patch of lavender’s sunshine.

And two paths, worn grass journey
Of favourite places returning home
Break into the emerald field of love
Where our walking brings strength.


Love Mary ***
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