From the start you knew what you were doing,
I was the only one you were fooling.

All that time you were trying to get into my pants,
I should have realised why your heart was covered in ants.

DEAD.

“Breaking my heart wasn’t part of your plan,” but then why still not give a ****,
About the way it would make me feel, to have to deal with the suitcases of memories that I wish would just liberate me from the hold you put on me.

Because trust me when I say it wasn’t all unicorns and rainbows, it was a lot of wood-shop and unfaithfuls.

But I chose you.

I'm stressed out, exhausted, and yet there's no midnight salvation.
It's 3am and I'm lying here with heavy lids and a busy mind.
No twilight salvation... my thoughts devour my very existence.
Dawn till dusk I'll be lying here waiting for you to take over me.
Sleep.

You don't see it, your words hurt me yet again, but I love you enough to silence myself and stay. You say you regret ever dating me, better yet you say you regret ever meeting me. I'm dead to you? You're done with my ******* and want me out of your life. Only once ever have I been told to get out of someone's car. It was my own father and I had the ***** to jump out, yet with you I just couldn't get myself to walk away. You don't see it but I really do love you. I give you all the things I can possibly give. I know it's not much in comparison but it's all I've got to give.

You hate me, you say it with a burning passion I know this because you're screaming at me in rage. You're screaming. I'm scared but I'm in too much shock to react, not even a blink nor a tear will fall. Think I'm a **** when honestly you were the only guy I've done anything with.

Seeing you cry and pull away from my touch breaks my heart, my soul, my everything. I'm falling apart. I've never been unfaithful because believe it or not I'm still happy by your side even when things get rough. I know I'm a bit young to focus on getting married soon but I'm definitely old enough to want something serious and find my forever. But in this moment you're screaming and I begin to think you'd be happier with another. She could be what you want.

Ever since the day we first met I knew you were different. Though it might have seemed that I didn't want anyone in my space. You were the exception. I've always loved being in your presence. I can stare at you for hours and not get bored. I sit in silence when you talk not to irritate you but because I love hearing your voice. Even though your words pierce deeper than a bullet, I'm glad you don't censor anything and tell me how you feel or what bothers you. You're more amazing than you think. I know I may not show you how amazing you are much when were in public but it's just because I fear they'd see what I see in you. It's shocking how comfortable I am with you. You find a way to make me laugh when I'm angry and smile even though I'm sad. You send tingles through my body with just a touch. And show me how much you care with just one simple forehead kiss.

It's a shame. I lost the one think that brought me happiness. You're gone now. You've moved on. Have to admit she's pretty though, and she makes you happier than I ever did. It's hard seeing you with another but only ever wanted you to leave your depression behind and find happiness, but I guess you found that happiness in her, not me. And that's fine too...