Act 10

I wake up
Terror controls me
I look in the mirror
My own self
 that I can't see

So afraid to speak the truth
So afraid of being found out
My courage
Has escaped me
So full of self doubt

So many times
 I was the God
So many times
 I made choices

Deaf to the world
I couldn't hear a word
In my head
I heard many voices

It is my game,
when I chose to play
It is my demons,
I refuse slay

(I had the keys
To my own paradise
I chose to live in hell)

I have lived in paradise
I have known hell
Hearts lay rotting
I know that smell

M. N. R.
18 DEC 2016

CRIMINAL MINDS

CRIMINAL MINDS

It is not a crime yet
That what I am thinking
A moonless sky
And the stars are blinking

It is not a crime yet
To watch the waves bumping
Rattles in my head
Won't stop thumping

It is not a crime yet
I find comfort in my madness
Happy in my own ways
And I don't seek gladness

It is not a crime yet
That I should care
With the same passion
Or a brand new flare

But it is a crime
That you are not here
Not in my dreams
Or anywhere near

But it is a crime
We are no longer lovers
Sad situation
How do I recover

It is not a crime yet
This love is old fashion
What you have given me
And all that you ration

But it is a crime though
I have fallen off the wagon
Going around in circles
And I chase the dragon

M. N. R.
25 MAY 2018

ANGELS

ANGELS
Act 6

Then rise from ashes
A charred body
Without a soul
It's a life without mercy
It collects its toll

Lie still
And speak in whispers
Closing eyes
Makes the visions crisper
Dreams that wander
All are raptured
Bodies of dead
Easily captured

There are no angels
Without any sin
Forget what's known
Ignore the din
What's there
Is all to be taken
There are no faiths
That can't be shaken

Death has no morals
And no compassion
Live out the days
In a new fashion

M. N. R.
23 MAY 2018

MONSTERS

MONSTERS

Here I am again
At the edges of reason
Time has torn its vesture
And the love is out of season

Promise that were made once
We didn't even mean to keep
Angels fly lost in circles
And all of my gods are aweep

Sun rises above and high
Daylight dark as a night
I close my eyes to watch
As my demons take to flight

It is not just some little children
Scared and alone in the rooms that are dark
We all still live with our monsters
Of the memories that have all left their mark

We are two souls deserted
Rejectd by gods and demons
Lost in the deep of this wilderness
Looking for a love, without reasons

(M. N. R.)
16 MAY 2018

DISCARNATE

DISCARNATE

What I wouldn't do
To be with you
If that were ever your desire
But You don't see me
When I am with you
Just on the far side of that fire

The room turns cold
When I come to behold
And the mystery remains
I can feel you shiver
And see your body quiver
And the thoughts that run through your brains

It is my bad luck
That I am moonstruck
Behind this veil that you don't see
My blood runs cold
And my body is old
It's not where I want me to be

Seems improbable for me
To be with you
Though I go where ever I please
If time were at my pleasure
Then you are the treasure
I would carry along with ease

So here I am right beside you
I can see you feel, but you don't see me as much
You know I am with you every step of the way
And feel your body without a touch

On a different plane is where I live
And where I miss you ever so much

M.N.R.
29 APRIL 2018

Confirmation

Circle of stones, around an oak tree, in the dark
Soft whispers of the wind, and the rough feel of the bark

Step in to the hallow, take a sip from the wine
The brightness of stars, and a search for divine

Calling out to the spirits, calling out to your fame
Strange incantations, calling out to your name

Bless this alter, the offerings have been burned
In search of my spirit, my soul is returned

(M. N. R.)
28 APRIL 2018

NO ILLUSIONS

NO ILLUSIONS

Where were you when I needed a friend
Where you were when I had those flowers to send

Where were you when I had that need
Where you were when I had hungers
to feed

Where were you when the night turned dark
Sitting alone in a swing at the park

Pendulum of time swinging to and fro
Just a sliver of moon with its faded glow

There were so many questions I needed to ask
And you made it clear, what was behind that  mask

(M. N. R.)
23 APRIL 2018