****** kisses


I kiss your lips, so ****** and sweet
I softly caress your hips
Run my tongue down your neck.
My heart is a wreck

Your smell is enchanting
Our love is tameless
Oh the sounds of you panting
Call my name in ecstasy
As I enter you so wet and sweet
My love runs deep.

With every stroke our bodies become as one.
With every ****** my heart is on the run.
When I ****** in you
So hot and sticky.
Love like ours is tricky..
our bodies,our hearts, beat and lye as 1.
Your perfume has me under a spell
You’re a vampire who bit me
Now my love take me
I’m yours
You’re mine
With that sweet perfume smelling so fine.

I open my eyes
Oh I’m not surprised
I’m alone, my room so cold.

I grab my pen pull my pad close
I write you.
I tell you my most intiment feelings
I spill my pain as if I was begging for a touch.

I ask not but one question
What if I say bye?
Would you be hurt
Would you miss me or would you ******* off?

I ask if what you’ll say really matters.
My heart hurting and badly battered
I ask these questions I guess to see where you stand..

If I said bye would you miss me
Would you cry.
Or would you write me off like I Was never here?

Depression.
One does not simply know depression. Depression becomes you.
It takes you  over, controls your moods, your eating habits.
One might say depression is sadness.
Sadness is to feel sad. (Sad)
Depression is much more then sadness.
It’s pain,torment,ups and downs .. and sadness can’t leave that out..
ones self worth is at a all time low.
All we need is a loved one to say hey I love you.. or acknowledge there is a problem.

Crying or moping around is not a cop out.
It takes more strength to just get up when you’re depressed then you’ll ever know if you never had depression..
instead of saying hey what’s wrong. Say hey is there anything I can do.. 9 times out of 10 there won’t be anything you can do. But the thought never goes unnoticed.

DEPRESSION in a nutshell.
No energy
No appetite
No will to go on.
Thoughts of suicide
Feelings of worthlessness
Wanting to sleep
Nightmares while you are sleeping.
Some cut
Some write
Some even end their lives..

If you know someone who is fighting depression. Or someone who self harms
Don’t be scared to say hey do you need my help? Can I do something to make things easier for you?

One simple act of kindness can stop someone from taking their lives..
Please don’t battle this awful disease alone. Ask for help.

Pain is ecstasy
******* in a false reality
I cut my wrist
I feel the blade as it rips my skin
Oh the ecstasy I can’t keep with in
As I bleed, with every drop I get weaker
I see a dark shadow is it the reaper?
I wipe my eyes and reach out my hand
I ask the angel of death to take me to the promise land.

Give me a reason
A reason to exist
A reason to continue
A reason to persist...

The ache inside keeps growing
Like a **** or storm or flame
It smothers all the light inside
Yet I'm the one to blame

I cannot see the goodness
I only feel the pain
The open wound pours sorrow
That leaves me hollow & insane

What would happen with a wound so deep
Would you save me
Or leave me here to die
A choice that isn't meant to be

Tell me how to end the pain
A gun, A knife, or pills
Or maybe I'll pretend to fly
The end result, she kills.

There is nothing left to say
No apologies to be made
You never saw the pain you caused
Check-mate has just been played.

The silent killer

You've invaded me.
You've  made me sick.
I battle you.
I try and try but there is no trick.
You take away *******.
You take away breaths.
You will **** me,but I won't quit like the rest.
I'll fight till the end.
I'll stand next to you thru it all my friend.
You'll lose your hair and your skin won't be so fare.
But to me you're beautiful so I don't care.
I'll hold your weak hand and next to you I will stand.
Till the silent killer takes you away to the promise land.
I'll be here with you for a hand to hold..
I'll try to hide the pain
I'll try but my tears fall like rain..
as you get weaker and weaker.
As the meds start to fail.
Take no pain with you.
Open up that sail.
As you die and the silent killer takes you from  me.
Go Rest In Peace and let the angels take you away..

                            Dedicated to my grandmother and all the other family's battling cancer and diabetes. Kiss your loved ones we are not promised tomorrow...
                                       James w cook

As I sit here I see you
My baby girl
As the days go bye I wonder
Wonder what you’re doing?
Do I ever cross your mind?

Daddy had to leave
My heart still bleeds
Baby girl I’m lost
Everywhere I look I see your smile
Little baby girl please know
Daddy had to go.

That day in Febuary I lost a piece of me
My youngest child my precious baby. that beautiful smile, you’re brown hair
With your pretty little eyes

On that awful day daddy died
You’ll never know me I missed your first steps.
Watching you grow up is something I’ll never know.

Just know my sweet baby my precious Rylee jo
Daddy loves you baby I just wanted you to know..