They say I’m a killer
There’s some truth to this
I’m a killer with words
I can make you a monster or make you a hero
But in the same thought my words for you are at zero.

I can bring you up or bring you down
But with all this foolishness you can also be bound.
Wrap you up tight in the room of your own lies
The words you say are so full of Bs my eyes are empty of surprise

They say I’m a killer all though this isn’t true
But in my story of life I just killed you.
The world free of ignorance you believe to be so bliss.

So long on your journey for as I wrote you off in my life with out even a kiss
So long from my thoughts
So long with your lies and endless chatter
Because to me you never really mattered.

I wonder if she knows,
Knows how beautiful she is.
Does she know? she makes me feel like a little boy.
A school boy crush..

She is my dream
She is out of reach
Her skin so soft like a Georgia peach.

If she only knew
Only knew I would love her till the end of time.
Unconditional love
Love for our lifetime.

Does she know no matter how far apart we are my love won't change.
If only I had the words to explain to her
Explain that she is the one.

I sleep a lot
Not because I'm sleepy or depressed
It's the only time I see her.
You are my dream.
Your eyes , your smile , and your personality
Baby please let's make this a reality..


I'll wake to sadness and disappointment  
I long to hold you
Kiss those sweet lips.

Baby what I'm saying is you're my dream girl.
You are my world.
My dream
My peace
My serenity
My silence in the dark.
My sweet love, you are my heart.

I’m alone in the dark listening to the clock tick life away,and the sounds of screaming run through my head.
I long for the sensual touch
That’s not asking much
The longer nights let the demons
In my burning mind out to play.
I ask please lord, I’m on my knees,I’m praying and I’m begging,Please as I am your servant. Take this dreadful night and turn it into day. As for then the screams of this hellish night will go away.

Why me?

I set here and wonder what I did..
was I bad?
Was I supposed to do that?
Was he supposed to do that to me?
Am I gay?
Why would he pick me if I wasn't?
Should I tell someone?
What if they think I'm lying?
What if he tells them I made it up?
The thought of a man touching me makes me cringe.
I want to crawl under my bed and die.
I set here and have no one to wipe this tear from my eye..
Please don't touch me..
Please don't do that it hurts.
With every touch I lose a part of who I was
Please explain what I did.
Please lord I'm just a kid..

You will not win

Day by day, minute by minute.
I gaze into the hourglass of life.
Peeking back at me are my fears.
It takes all my strength to hold back my tears.
All I've lost and all I've gained in this life of chess.
I set and ponder and I could really care less.
One day my pain, my fears, my constant life of doubt will be gone.
As I gaze into the pain I call life. I ask my inner demon to get the knife.
I cut to release the pain and let it pour out like rain.
One day my pain will be gone. One day I will fear no more, one day the screams will stop.. I set and I ponder ending my life. But I hold on cause doing that means they win.
Screams of pain in my head,I would love to end. But keep screaming that madness my friend because in the end you will not win..