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You let me sit but never close to you
You gave me hope but was never you heart.
You travel with me but couldn't even think of saying a word

Was it a real trip.

No, no, no, no, no, no , no
You gave all you have to friends
You gave the unwated ones the space
But distroyed the loved ones

You wanted to write it
But was never there
There was no driver
       Of love and of happiness
I know you've been true to yourself
But you've been lied to your heart


I just don't know what the problem is
Or the deal is
Cause most of all i couldn't see it
You impossible

You turned the true love into ture love
For the sake of friendship you couldn't you've been destroying our love


I was trying to melt this heart of iron
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But the way you trated me made the old me come again

We got lost in the accident
Cause there was no driver
       Of dreams and hopes
So i let it go
    Yes let it go
Cause that means that your part of your story
In their story is over
You don't have to try to open the heald wounds

I hate that i spent my days just wasting time
Daydreaming till you gone again
For to be you it was the hardest thing ever

Because you can't drive this SHIP.

🌹🌹

When i caught a glimpse of you.
I thought wow you could be my friends.
Visitation days of you going up and down.
You caught feelings.
I could give you an honest answer told i could try.

I have been trying since then with my actions.
Bought you presents to appease your heart .
Sacrifice my time and joy to make you happy.
You always seek validation anywhere.
It was obsession for you.
I taught you to love.

You loved alcohol more than me.
You sacrificed me for your friends.
No that you are in the cold pit alone?
I am the one you come running too.
When you lost everything i was your confident that hold your hand.

Now i am torn between ending it all or giving you a chance.
I wish i had somebody to tell me its worth it.
But nothing its worth it when its one sided.
What do you do when the love of your life is an addict.
She refused to be helped.
Her favourite hobby is to be intoxicated.

your name is
forbidden in
my mouth.
or in my heart
because when
i think about
you;

i'll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober.

i'm drunk on the
memory of you.
Cause tears drops stroll around my heart.
This disease struck me.
Like a brick on pavement
Hard.

Everything was
Perfect.
Then that brick came along.
And with the slightest movement.
Destroyed everything.
Your friend took something that was worth more than life for you.
She replaced me with a bottle in your hand.

“Count it
Perfect it
Measure it
Clean it”
The voices say is she now worth your sleepless  nights?
Nope she is beyond redemption.
My love fornyou died the minute you drowned yourself in the bottle.

Why can’t I let them go?
They keep repeating.
Cause i am not bound by anything.
Letting you go i am afraid you will commit suicide.
I was your first love and i will be the end of me.

The melody no longer sounds the same.
The food tastes bitter.
I got insomnia and depression cause I lost the love i had for you.
I roamed around the streets like a mad man.
Not knowing what to do.
My heart is telling me is enough.
The whispers around me saying dont give up on her.
Give her a chance .
Remember the memory you gave her.
The support you shown her in the calamity that faced her before.
Without you she is nothing and i lost soul.

I am troubled by the love thats fades away from my soul.
I am angry cause i gave her everything.
I am numb cause i let all others sleep away to be with you.
My regret is should have let you marry your bottle.
After being intoxicated with it then marry your friend.
Cause i died in my heart to show you the true meaning of love.🌹🔥🌹🔥🌹🔥🌹🔥

Oh simple things.
Where have you gone.
I am getting weary.
I need someone to rely on!
I came a cross i fallen three.

Is this the place that I've been dreaming of.
If you have a minute why dont we go.
Somewhere only our hearts knows.

Composing lines of loving prose
On each and every living day.
My mind races with the inspiration
Mastering words of literary giants
In songs of praise dedicated to thee
Then understand my commitment
My commitment ,to my darling girl
Everlasting love is my commitment
Not just for now but forever always
Thank you for our life commitment.

I cannot dress up my truths.
in designer clothes
that'll grab your attention
and invite a closer look.
My mistake.
Was loving you too hard.
My regret.
Was never telling you
That I needed love back.

Why does my lover claim to love me
But still looks for every opportunity
To let me go?
Is it that she loves me so much.
But doesn't think she's worthy of me.

Love's unconditional commitment
Only true lovers understand it .
Very close encounters promote it.
Especially within thy noble form.

The scariest part
is not the feeling of loneliness.
or the darkness that fills you.
despite the looming pain
of emptiness.

The scariest part
is the realization
that you have lost yourself.
completely
sinking in as you lay awake
at 12 AM.
because you lost the ability to sleep.
and you can't even cry
because you don't even care.

She's always written her heart out.
When a heart broken lover.
Pours out all her feelings and translate them into vivid pictures.
Something beautiful gets created.
Appreciated by many but never the one thats meant for him.

I knew you once long ago.
You shared your secrets and i also told you mine.
It was very nice and beautiful.
Silence comfy but we didn't have to try..
Where did you go.

From his lips.
I believed his deceitful manner.
His charisma it was alluring.
My mistake was loving you too hard.
My regret was never telling you.
That i needed love back.

Losing you felt like to hwve hold of the world in my palms.
Letting it slip from my grasp..
Suppose I'll never know how is feels to hold you again.

I am not staying.
I take the blame again.
I've got blood on my hands.
Pressure to understand what i did.

You've always been right.
I tend to forget.
I will not bother or mske that mistake again.
Still my breathing bothers you.
My mind troubles me.
Comfort is scary.

This silence hurts me.
It can be loud like ocean waves.
The sound of your thoughts utterly isolated from my eyes.
I love you.
But love doesn't want me alive.
I can't live up to what you thought i could be.
Thats why i am sending this wave of emotions into page.
That never forget me in your memories.
I've tried but i failed in every endeavor.
Words and love failed me

We don't decide who makes our heart race.
The corners of your lips just upturn so suddenly.
Until the love fades away.
You start weeping.

You start causing your own doomsday.
With war and rampage.
Brings forth depression and tears.
You resent that you once loved and cared so much.
Then you finally melt into an illness.
Dripping into one after another.
Until you are unrecognizable.

The day i fall in love with you again.
It's the day you know you will live for ever.
Not in this life but in the love that I could not seem to grant myself it.
Which I can give you all of it.

I will make you cry and happy the same time.
You will cry tears of happiness.
Your happiness will glow in the sky cause my heart chosed you.

Honey bee you lied when you said you loved me😊

I had no course to doubt you about the rumours,
I rather continue hearing and bearing your lies.
Then to go on living without your love and you. 🌹

Another event is deserted and I am covered all over with emptiness all around me.

If you will not come back to me, they can bring the white linens down.
Close the coffin with a nail and use the soil to cover me with it. 😊

Why have i been your favourite all along?

Because with you i cannot seem to add or utter words.....

Wow really?? 🌹

Yes cause the way you show that you love me, that you care for me. You can't live without me is absolutely amazing 🌹😊😍
It melted my heart away each time i can a glimpse of you.
Your like a morning star shinning my day.
My moon that becomes gloomy at night.
You love is like the entire galaxy star 🔥

My girl is leaving tomorrow.
I got a running stomach so bad.
I can't even try stopping it..
Only disaster and disappointment awaits me.

I am afraid and hurt by this event.
I am not afraid of the fact she is leaving me behind.
I am scared that she will meet someone that will make her and sad.

While she was with me only tears shared where of happy moments.
Not only agony and sorrow will follow her.
She will start to miss my laughter and affection I showed her.
It will be too late cause she is already committed now.

I am thankful I spent a short time with her.
I could see her glow in the night time.
I had to hold her hands walking in the streets.
I lied in her chest listening to her heart beat and dreams.
Now that I am alone and gazing in the stars.

I hope she finds infinite joy and love.
That she never loses herself and regret letting me lose.
Cause it was meant to be.
I loved her companionship and laughter.
But most of all I loved her character as a person.
Now that the slow moving train has swept her away.
I wish she gets showed by love strong as an ocean breeze 🌹🌹🌹

It took only for your lips to rest on mine
and my life-improved minute by day
the heart could not decide for me
the dream was still haunting me
When I told you someone had stolen my heart

you keep on smiling and asked me who it was
it was the girl who saved me from drowning
but I could see his face clear was it a dream?
As you pushed me to the water and kissed me

I believed that it was real you were the one who stole
my heart and the one I felled in love with
when our lips met I knew you were the one
You gave away you immortal life to be mine

I sacrificed everything for you so that we could
be together, when you asked me to marry you
I was stunned but the tears told you I want too
love and be close to your heart
my beloved part of the body