the flower placed in less sunlight wilted
and so she blamed herself for it

when im so sure im right
theres no way to believe im wrong

i didn’t pray to gd today
i always do
i didn’t sing your praises
or read how you carry me
i wanted this poem to rhyme
so you can find it cute
but i always do doesn’t rhyme with
i feel so broken and like you don’t even care and how do you put me in all this pain and my life makes me feel like i want to die and nothing is fair and im suffering in emotional pain too often for like ten years already and it’s not like im not trying not to suffer, i am but i dont seem to know the code they say embrace your feelings but then also let go and i feel like i dont know how to accept my feelings or let go and it results in so much suffering

so sometimes life doesnt rhyme

my sadness is as attractive as my poems

i get to anxious for this life
i feel too awful to enjoy this

without language
poems would all be sensations

there’s a virus in my brain
it’s always chaos on the screen

i feel awful all the time
i hate it here

ill either see you never
or forever

edit: i hope i never see you

what do i do with an awful feeling
that keeps coming back all the time

either G-d or life
is a hoax

like what is actually after the sky
it’s either infinity or nothing

self esteem wasnt in your mind
those who were watered in sunshine blossomed

of im going to have anything
its because You led me to it

oh just please G-d be more clear
on how exactly you need me to dance

what do i do with pain
that is clinging to me

my brain
is toxic

G-d you better have good explanations
when i get up there

The water is seeping out of my eyes
I’m left with a dehydrated headache

i stay up so late into the night
and now its light  outside

and on the days most unbearable
she silently cried
and the tears on her cheek
would stroke her good night

how do i filter out
the poems about love

im not going to have beliefs
the invisible truth will just be

im too sad
too present you a clever poem

when is this over please
(embodiment)

and how can you know true love
when true love faded in the past

what did i do to deserve this
im trying my best over here

the stress isnt worth the point
but im in too deep now

journey makes it sound like an outdoor adventure
its actually more like hell treck

What looked like a rock was just an image on a hollow inflatable

my life is a prank being played on me

being anxious and older
i thought it would go away when i grew up

why do I always also get a headache
during emotional turmoil

i get why they take drugs
my life relatively isnt bad
and yet the feelings are too painful
constantly being wounded over and over

if G-d doesn’t exist
there is no point to my pain

when is it intuition
and when is it fear

my life is a relentless series of
a boulder on my chest on and off

its either all over eventually or
there was meaning all along

the mini high you get after your anxiety makes you throw up yellow stuff in the morning
its the small gifts in life thank you g-d

and tonight
we have nothing to say

G-d if you exist
how’d you come about

imagine having an incessant weight on your chest
and an awful feeling inside
but expecting yourself to be normal

how do your emotions
come in a rhyme

inside myself feels awful
i hate going about this

gd if i loved someone
id never let her feel abandoned

art is imperfection
otherwise it would be a photograph

i fall in and out
so i don’t trust love now

you tell me its all in the mind but when circumstances change my throat opens again

my goal in life is peace
and no anxiety