i do quite a lot
for someone who’s lost the will to live

therapy is a drop of water
when the whole worlds on fire

gd if i loved someone
i definitely wouldnt make them live this life i have

gd if i loved someone
id never let her feel abandoned

gd if i loved someone
i would make her feel so loved

gd i wouldnt let someone i love
feel the way i feel

gd why do you let this happen to me
im not sure you will help me

imagine having an incessant weight on your chest
and an awful feeling inside
but expecting yourself to be normal

is this sadness my fate
will there be an escape

my sadness is as attractive as my poems

inside myself feels awful
i hate going about this

what did i do to deserve this
im trying my best over here

i dont want to be here
i dont have a choice

i dont feel regular
regular people dont feel all this weight

my goal in life is peace
and no anxiety

im too sad
too present you a clever poem

being anxious and older
i thought it would go away when i grew up

even though i cant and dont want
im not left with a choice not to

there is too much to figure out
too much expected of me

i get to anxious for this life
i feel too awful to enjoy this

i dont like it here
i never wanted this

what do i do with an awful feeling
that keeps coming back all the time

i feel awful
i cant escape

i dont want to feel
i dont want to suffer

all i want is release and relief
from my feelings

i feel awful all the time
i hate it here

life is me trapped inside searching for exits
hopeful for a moment to escape from bolted doors

journey makes it sound like an outdoor adventure
its actually more like hell treck

he rejected me
it hurts
it wasnt meant to be
this pain is meant to be?
who are you mr meant to be

seriously G-d
you expectations are wild

i don’t get to choose when you come and go
i don’t get to choose how long you stay
i don’t get to choose how loud you are
i dont get to choose how intense you hurt

im not so crazy about joy
if it must come with pain

im not the writer of my story
im the main character in this chaotic novel

what do i do with pain
that is clinging to me

and by the end of this life
i wonder if i will say no thank you

when youre not drowning
youre floating

do i know deep down
or am i delusional

when im so sure im right
theres no way to believe im wrong

love is a matchstick

i think resilience
turned into anxiety

art is imperfection
otherwise it would be a photograph

of im going to have anything
its because You led me to it

i have loved  her in the past
but now she is just my wife

INT. CENTRAL PERK - DAY

The Friends are all sitting on the couch, chatting and sipping their coffee. Joey bursts in, holding a large box.

JOEY: Hey, guys! Check it out! I got a new entertainment system!

MONICA: (sarcastically) Oh, great. Another giant box to clutter up our tiny apartments.

JOEY: (ignoring her) I need your help setting it up. Who's in?

Chandler, Phoebe, and Ross all raise their hands, but Rachel and Monica look hesitant.

RACHEL: (doubtfully) I don't know, Joey. This sounds like a lot of work.

JOEY: (encouragingly) Come on, Rach. It'll be fun! And I'll even order us a pizza.

MONICA: (smiling) Okay, I'm in.

Rachel reluctantly agrees, and the Friends start setting up the entertainment system. Joey pulls out a large instruction manual and starts reading out loud.

JOEY: (confused) Okay, it says we need to connect the yellow cord to the blue input, but I don't see a blue input.

CHANDLER: (sarcastically) Well, Joey, have you tried turning it off and on again?

PHOEBE: (jokingly) Maybe you need to sacrifice a chicken to the technology gods.

Ross, Monica, and Joey start arguing over the proper way to set up the system, while Chandler and Phoebe start making up ridiculous solutions. Rachel sits off to the side, looking amused but uninterested.

RACHEL: (smiling) You know, I have an idea. Let's just call the Geek Squad and let them deal with it.

JOEY: (defeated) Yeah, I guess you're right. I'll call them tomorrow.

MONICA: (frustrated) Ugh, I can't believe we wasted all this time on nothing.

PHOEBE: (smiling) Well, at least we got to spend time together.

CHANDLER: (nodding) And we'll always have the memories of that time Joey accidentally shocked himself with the power cord.

Joey looks embarrassed as the Friends all laugh, and the camera fades out on their good-natured teasing and banter.

Alone in the dark,
My tears are the only spark.

the facts of my life
are a weird combination

why does your simulation require
stabbings to my gut and a boulder on my chest

ill either see you never
or forever

edit: i hope i never see you

not wanting to die
is good enough

i dont have words
i only have pain