I've lost so much weight
since you
left me on read

Nothing becomes something
something
becomes
everything
until everything
becomes nothing

i was told 'destroy what destroyes you honey'
So I did

'she isn't coming to school today, or ever'
- the principal

'Overthinking is for p u s s i e s' they said

Late night crying sessions
every week
every day

It's society to blame
They told me not to grow
told me to stay my stupid self
I was 'just' a flower out of thousands

But the only thing more pointless than crying yourself to sleep every night, is believing you're not worth
to grow

I'm setting myself on fire for you
but all you do is sit back
and watch me burn

Gently watching me collapse
Staying calm within my chaos

I ripped everything apart
but you came and said
'it's so empty in here'
but I din't have anything left to burn

And all you did was walk away
leaving me burning in my ******* hole

ripping other people apart
isn't always being yourself
it is having to rip yourself apart less

Having to calm the voice in your head down
from screaming at you
'you're not enough'

So I started shattering people and picking up pieces from them
Hoping, maybe one day
I'll be loved by somebody

That one girl
everyone wants to be
'oh but she cares about nothing'
'she's so funny and rude haha'
'she's so smart'
'she eats so much but she's not even fat like me?'
'I had such a good time with her'
' she    is    a masterpiece'

Have you ever thought
ripping people apart
isn't always being yourself
it is having to rip yourself apart less

making people laugh with a video I posted about that nerd.
Eating so much you're nauseous, so you figure' tommorow I will almost collapse but I need to lose that weight again, I'm not like those fat girls over there!
getting my grades because I need to be the best, pushing myself every day to make myself feel like 'something'
laughing the empty feeling in your heart away is 'cool', cold-harted is attractive isn't it?

maybe
I ain't
a masterpiece