I watch as you run astray
With a close friend you dance away
The laugh and smile I once knew
Is no longer shining for it has gone blue
What can I do to bring you back
I am getting weaker with each attack
To pull the trigger is what I yearn for
Yet I can't find the power to walk through that door
My tears are silent as I look in the mirror
A monster
A ******
all I see is a worthless banner
Make it end
I am eager
Just please allow me to pull the trigger

The pain is there
no doubt about it
You can't stop now
you must endure it
Numb it away
you can't afford to quit
you can't find balance?
suffer in silence

I will try
I will fail
You will laugh
I will prevail
you ask me how
I suffer in silence

he gets up for the day
you call him lazy and he needs to pay
In the end you will leave
no one to turn to
no one to call
in the end he will suffer in silence

bills are due
work work work
mentally exhausted
on the verge of breaking
I need time to heal
but that requires my absence
that will not do
suffer in silence

I need to cry
I need to vent
they say I am the bad guy
they don't know what I do
I work my *** off
that much is true
I take the blame
I walk away
I shut my mouth
I sit and obey
The moment I speak
they run away from me
this is why I suffer in silence

No one understands
as the blood drips from my back
I smile, you attack

when the day comes to an end
my mind starts turning
going through the memories
It reminds me of the burning
the pain I experience
I endure it alone

I work until my mind breaks
I lose control it all feels fake
As my anger and sadness clash
They call me a ******
they say I am a threat
the cycle keeps going
relentless and never ending

I put on a brave smile to face the day
But I know that at sunset
I will pay
I got your back they say
You aren't alone
But the lord knows those words are empty
As my pleas fall to deaf ears
my cries are filled with silent tears
I look up at the sky and wonder
when will it end

Day by day
Night after night
my heart breaks
My mind is filled with fright
As I sit here and watch
My life crumble away
I try to catch it
But there is nothing to make it sway
I work so hard
I try and try
I guess I just played the wrong card
I fall to my knees as I cry
I beg you please
Just let me be
I just want my peace
PLEASE SET ME FREE
In the end there is nothing more to do
I sit there and watch
As I stare at my hands where my life falls through
Unable to stop it, unable to slow it down
It all breaks like clay
In the end just crumbling away

Being away from you is suffocating
Not feeling your warmth, is heartbreaking
Working hard to come back to you
Living day by day thinking like a fool
That one day and one day soon
I will wrap you in my arms again
I lay awake at night
My mind alive running in fright
I am alone through this hell
I guess this means farewell
Maybe I will find what I need
Maybe I will be able to grow and feed
This desire to be loved and appreciated
Equal effort to be reciprocated
For now the time is not right
For me to go to the other side
I must remain here and fight
All the reasons I have cried.

I don't really have anyone to go to anymore.. My feelings are locked up my heart is sore.
I don't feel heard. My mind is in a constant swirl.
I feel hurt and alone.
It aches down to my bones.
My pain. My voice. My soul. I wish I could make it stop.
Make it stop. Put a bullet through my brain to make the world come to an end.
Stop the pain. Life is a pain. Please someone help.
I beg. I plead. I feel like I am going to melt.
My insides burn my stomach churns.
I don't know what I am doing.
Stay strong. stay tough. Man up. That's rough. I feel like the end is near. I hope it's better out there. I wish you luck. You wish me mine. Cause to me? This pain is divine.