I'm hurting for what if
I'm hurting for what was
I'm doing things I know
It's not gonna help this time
Is it time to call it quits
Is it time to end this pain
I ask you this one last time
Is there any hope for us?

Was I really ever the one
Who stole your breath away
If I ever was that one
Why do you regret it now

I am I was I will
Be the one you ask me to
Will I ever be the one
You ever wish me to

Did you ever really love me
Was I just a wishful thinking
Did you ever hope one day
I could be the one you wish for

Darkness takes over you
I'm the first you push aside
You will realise one day
I was always where you are
I never gave up on you
But given on my hopes instead
As you made it very clear
I shouldn't hope I shouldn't wait

**** you and the way you made me
Feel like a queen feel like winning
**** you to hell and back
To drop me back
Down to my knees

I thought I had it right
When I had you holding my hand
I thought I got it right
When I trusted you with my heart
Beaten broken left on its own
I will struggle
I will get on
I hope that one day
You will see me
See that I tried
See that I failed
I hope that one day
You will understand
It was all of me
Not nearly enough of you
To look after the heart I gave you
To hold the love I had for you
I hope that one day
You will understand
I would have given all that I am
If you only gave
Your love for me.

The one I love

My guilt

My pain

My pleasure

The one I have sinned with

Only one I have fallen for

Why did you have to be

Best thing to happen to me

Whilst hurting me the most

You are by far

The biggest mistake I have made



My love

The one I have no hope to be with

The one I have no future to hope

My pleasure

The one I can't get enough of

Only one I have desire for

My pain

The one I allowed myself to belong

Only one who doesn't want to be mine

My guilt

The one I miss the most

Only one I keep going for more

My mistake

The one who let me love

To be myself and so much more

The one who is going to leave me

If not today

Who knows when it will be

Never been so close in distance

Yet so far from one another until now

What happened to us baby

Why did this happen

I remember the days

When you used to say

I would give the world to you

If only you were mine

Well I am yours as much as you are mine

You have my heart

You had my body

My soul were lost somewhere with yours

When all I ever wanted

Was your love and affection

And your time to show me

What being yours meant to be

I ache to be with you

To be hold by you

To be touched by you

To be kissed

To be loved by you.

Instead

There is you

Than there is me

What is this space in between

The space of darkness and empty

The space in which I'm drowning

With doubt sorrow and lonely.

Yeah I know it's stupid

It's one of those lame stories

It's not you it's me right?

It's not you who doesn't care

It's me who wished more

It's not that you don't have time

It's me who wants more

It's not you who doesn't love

It's me who loves more

Who knew it'd come to this

Not me for sure

I'm the one who asked for this

Who pushed for it to come this far

Is it ever gonna get better

Is my skin ever gonna get thicker

Will I learn to just take what's there

And full fill the rest elsewhere

Will I ever learn to be ok

Will I ever learn to walk away

If it's just me who is at fault

What are you in this for

Do I hurt you just as much

Or is it still not you but me

Do I get more than I give

Will I ever get more than I have

Is what I have is what I deserve