I used nicotine patches to stop smoking
Because you hated the way I smelled
So why can’t I buy a patch of you
To ease me off your love

Because when I’m used to walking around
With your scent lingering on my clothes
Because I refused to take off the sweatshirt I wore
As you held me all night long

When I’m used to referring to your arms
As my indestructible fortress of protection
And viewing your lips
As an entrance to heaven that I can't wait to open

How do you expect me to be okay
When I suddenly lose all of that
My reason to get out of bed
The one person who promised to stay

All I know now is that after the pain of quitting you
I can say with confidence in my words
And a cigarette between my lips
"I guarantee you I’m never smoking again"

Small disappointments
Tucked away in the file cabinets in my head
In the library of my memories
Right next to the self help section
With a book titled
       Why you should never trust a man
It’s a best seller in the society that lives in my head
I wish I listened to them more

Laying on your back
Tracing the stars with your finger
Is a reward only to those
Who dwell where filth does not linger

So if you want a glance
At the stars twinkling in my mind
But pollute the air between us
You will forever be left blind

If you send nothing to me
But your passive anger and subtle lies
My eyes will never show you anything
But darkness and empty skies

It is only in comfortable silence
Or words spoken, sincere and kind
That you will ever enjoy
Chasing the constellations of my mind

I found your hair on my bed today
And I didn’t want to throw it away
Because you leaving me was real
So I hold onto the last of you I can feel

Eyes that welcome to your sprawling mind
Words that travel gentle as the wind
Soft yet steady, you grew with time
There truly was no wall you could not climb

Still I hoped telling you of my shadow
Wouldn’t be too much to bestow
After trying, but lacking the words to say
I knew there had to be another way

Already claiming your lips with lust
I hoped you were someone I could trust
So I bore my truth into you with my eyes
And prayed you wouldn’t be my demise

Follow me
You said
Over the sound of crickets
That would soon be covering
The padding of our footfalls

And drown out
The noises
Of two souls pressed together
By the edge of a hammock

Let the moonlight tuck us in
And the wind rock you in my arms

Don’t worry
Nobody can hear
That’s why we’re out
Where the crickets outnumber people
And only the moon will see
How I light up your face