Listen to me right here and right now
I know now how easy it is to fall into someone's eyes
and how easy it is to fall for someone and
not realize it
But I tell you now...with all I got
that I love you. Nothing less, and I don't want anything more but you

To the one I love

I don't know how to ever
Stop loving you, so tell me:
Will you ever stop loving me?

I believe that's the only
Way to save yourself from me

I love you with everything I have but
What is everything I have isn't
Good enough for you

So please tell me:
When will you stop loving me?

The day a poet
Falls in love with you is
The day you truly love
And truly live
And you will live forever
In the lines and rhymes
Of her flowing poetry
And you will be honored in memory
To inspire such a poem

The day a poet falls
Out of love with you is
The day you die
The day you should be afraid of
Because then the memory of you
Will be hated by thousands
And you will still live forever
In the hate of her
Stabbing, brutal stanzas
And though they may not
Know your name
The people will despise the thought of you
For inspiring such a poem

I weep because of you
Because of the memories you deserted
When you walked away
And your sweet soft voice
Now screams in my head
A song
Louder than all the others
Louder than my own mind
And louder than I can handle...

I read a few of my own, old poems













And I died a little bit













And I cried a lot

Dear Family,

I’m sorry for this to be
The last thing you hear of me
But listen to this
And this only

Don’t listen to the
Things you hear about
Me or the things
You may believe about me
Just listen to this, me, right now

I am a coward.

This way is not the way
I ever thought I would go
But I just couldn’t
Take it anymore

And I apologize for taking
The easy way out
And hurting everyone
Around me
Around you

I’m sure when I part my
Ways
There will be misery
And grief

That I know

I know there were people to
Care for me
And care about me
But very few listened

It’s not your fault,
But mine

Everything I have done
Up to this point
Has pushed me to the
Edge

I know you’ll be sad at first
But then you’ll get angry
And when you read this
You be even more
Angry with me

I told you day after day
That I was fine
And that’s my fault

I never told you how I was really
In need of someone to talk to

I used to have someone
But
You ripped them away from me

But then again, that’s
Also my fault

I wasn’t the greatest
Daughter but
You know how much I
Needed him
He was my best friend
And I ruined what we had
And in the process I also ruined
Your trust

Everywhere I went was destruction, but
It was never your fault
Because I was the one
Who always caused it

And now I sit here with
The bottle open and
40 tablets in my hand

Now listen closely because this
Part is what really matters:

I love you.
And I’m sorry for being such a coward...