I am a dot in a world of circles, I am a broken heart in the city of love, a lost soul in a world linked hearts... and I glide in between people's lives like I do not matter.

I wanted you to ink my face in your mind
Stamp my love all over your heart but you,
You didn't need to remember I
Was only a figure of the past,
Blurry and often forgotten.
It doesn't matter how long my hair is
How my smile is gone and the life in my eyes…
…Gone.

Blue is the color
I see in your eyes
When they look down into mine
And I see how you've changed
My life upside down
A labyrinth I can't walk into
Without falling and tripping
But you know I don't care
About those little details
Because you've discovered
My heart
Is bigger than yours
Stronger than yours
Beating louder
Than yours ever will

I always took the first step towards you.
I was one step ahead making sure you knew I cared about you,
I thought about you and that you were not alone.
I gave you my all, all the real and all the good in me
I gave to you.
And for a while I thought I'd be enough.
I thought you liked me for exactly who I was, and I was glad you did. I felt like myself and I felt like you were yourself.
It felt fantastic.
And now I feel like all this is being stained by the scratched marks on your back,
Like the sounds of nails on a chalkboard
I cannot bear it

Hands are amazing
Hands express feelings, speak their own language
Hands have their own identities.
Hands also hold.
They hold yourself when you collapse
They hold other people to keep them close
Or to keep them from falling apart
They intertwine. Link. Caress. Touch. Grip.
They can be loose or tight
They can mean the world or nothing at all
But hands also disappear
Hands can be missed more than a person
Because hands are the reflection of our soul
And when a soul touches another soul
Sparks explode
And when two hands hold each other
Nothing can be more perfect
But perfection never lasts long
Perfection is a fleeting moment
An instant of pure happiness.
The emptiness that follows
Knows no bound
But no matter how long I must wait
I live for those moments

I am pretty sure
I am a very good person
And I need to remember that
In dark times

At first I thought I had it all figured out
The future
The pressure
The expectations
I thought I knew what I was getting into
The responsibilities
The bills
The only person to turn the lock in when I go to sleep
At first I thought I knew what growing up meant
The friendship
The loss
The love
The bare soul to a friend who you thought would be the only precious person you'd ever need
And now I realize it was all just a lie
It was all just a dream
I thought I had nailed my way through teen years by being on my own and ignoring the rest of the world
The world that could hurt me
The world that made me fall in love
The world that made me fall to my knees and pray for an end to my heartbreak
I hadn't realized the nail had been ******* to my coffin instead
We all live and we all die
We all breeze through life
Without even
Understanding
Why
We're here for
I still don't know why I'm here for
What's the purpose of my life
At first I thought I knew why I was here for
The easy life
The travels
But as time goes by I start to understand
It's not what it all meant
Now I know that I know nothing
Because at first I thought I had it all figured out
And I grew up to realize I had nothing

If you can dream it you can do it
If you believe in something
Believe in it all the way

I gave you the stars in my eyes
The light in my heart.

You gave me **nothing.

You closed the door
Turned around and walked away
Oh, how I wish I could make you stay

You hate me
For I do not share
The color of your skin or
The same God or
The same attraction to male gender I
Feel the hatred
And the pain in my chest slices like knives you
Hate me with all your heart but you don't have anything left
To love the good parts in people you
Hate me with all your heart but what you don't realize is
You're chipping away pieces of yourself
In this crazy drive to hate those who are different you
Destroy all the good around you and
You don't seem to care at all
When you complain about us you
Show us the reason why the world is going to **** and
You don't CARE at all but
We do.
We care.
We say stop.
This hate has to stop because we can do better.
We can be better human beings you
Can be better if you would just try
To see past the curtain of anger blinding your vision you would see
We all share the same features
We all share the same air and no matter how much you hate it we
Breathe together at once
We share everything in this world and instead of fighting it
If you would just drop your weapons
Made of insults, fists against our skin, crushing our open arms into boneless flesh
You would see
The other side is made of acceptance and gentle words
Made to soothe the aches of your kind
Made to dissolve the hate into love
You would see
We are just waiting for you
To cross onto our side
And each step you take is mending the broken bones
Of our broken arms
And addressing the wounds
We could offer so much
If we did not have to fight against our right to be alive and ourselves
IF
Only we could all stop fighting against what we can't change
We could focus on the changes we can make
A society that needs healing
We could teach our kids to welcome anyone with open arms
Without fear of being crushed
Damaged
Demolished
Fragmented
Injured
Mutilated
Shattered­
Smashed
Split
In pieces
We could heal if one day you would just learn to
Love me for me.