I look up and see them
Your two big brown eyes looking down at me
Why do I feel like they are searching me
As you ask that cliched question
'How are you'

You're reaching a hand down
I want to grab it
But I know too much
If you pull me up
I'll only fall back down
Harder

I trust you
But I can't
Take your hand
You'll drop me
I'm scared

Please just hold me
Can't you hear me
Please console me
Please just stay

Don't believe me
I don't mean it
Please don't leave me
'Im ok'

On  a good day
When my heart smiles
I'll look out the window
I see the sun so bright
And birds in mid-flight
Whilst bonny flowers bloom
I can't help but feel
All in the world is right

On a bad day
As I hold back tears
I'll look out the window
I see rain falling fast
Fading light I know won't last
Till each autumn leaf falls
I can't help but feel
All happiness has passed

But some days as I pull myself up
I'll look out the window
And see a place beyond the hills
Where the world sits calm and still
Somewhere by the sun
And the twinkling night stars
And I can't help but wonder
If there's space for me there
Far away from what I see-
- here
Beyond the glass which divides
My room from unending sky
I sometimes which that I could fly
To what the horizon reveals
I can't help but feel
That place I see is real

Somewhere beyond the window

I can only afford glances
Swift and riskless
You can't see me
And you can't know

Each detail of you
Means more to me
Than you will ever understand
But I won't tell you

Am I a coward, for
Knowing my limits
Knowing we would never work
Knowing you'll never love me

I try to turn away
But I can't
You're too close
You're too far away

With a turn of your head
You catch me
I'm frozen as you smile
A confused smile

Do you think me psychopathic
Your smile is dramatic
And slightly empathetic
Do you already know

I'll promise myself to keep away
But you're magnetic
If only you loved me
If only you loved me