I woke up this morning, with the thought of driving. The song hate me today by blue October blaring over my thoughts.
Maybe I should drive so ******* far away that I never cross your mind.
I don’t want anyone to worry, what will I find?
When I leave and never come back, I hope I’ll be left alone.
Don’t worry, you’ll hear my words and apologies from a payphone.

Don’t you fall for me, my darling,
I swear we’ve been here before.
Sweater weather in summer, sunset so sweet.
I’m glad I’ve found you along the way, I don’t know where I’d be.
My soul aches for you when you’re away, for fear I’m stuck in a maze. Setting my soul ablaze.
When our hands intertwine and we lock lips, I couldn’t imagine being anywhere else but here.
See?
This is all just the illusion of living life so lavishly, glamorizing my dark twisted fantasy. I love it, but this **** don’t even really matter to me.

I feel like I’ve seen it all.
The rise and fall.
Ive never meant to make it past 19,
Felt love, hate and betrayal, thanks to the fates.
This is a cruel world, and I’ve known it since the beginning.
A black sheep never knowing what I was missing.
Forgive me for the pain that I’ve caused, but I don’t think I can feel these things anymore.

Who am I to judge the creators,
creations.
Or why he makes them, breathes life into the dirt, gives lust to the sand.
Gave me life, I’ll be high until I land.
I don’t care, I love the poison.
Feed me until I’m empty... am I ever empty?
I apologize, I’m hurt. I don’t know how to heal..
all I know is lust and the minute appeal..
take me away.. I don’t want to do this anymore. I talk to you through writing cause I can’t do this anymore.
My heart and soul hurts, I drown them; so I don’t have to feel those around me.
I absorb their sadness, I can still feel it when I walk.... everyone that’s confided in me has let.. be who can I talk.
I love it, pain is my lover. She has me on a leash. Let me drown so I can speak.
My shoulders are heavy..

I don’t care, I’ll take your pain with me when I go. Just don’t leave me before then.

I’ve been isolating,
I feel it’s good for the soul.
No one needs to know,
I’m always here for you.
Ill take your pain and store it inside.
All your pain and worries, you can confide.
Let me take the burden, I can feel your pain, worries, anger; It hurts so much.
It’s heavy I may fall, but whatever;
I’d take it all.. just never hurt me, cause you know I never could. It’s beautiful how life is so heavenly, 22 but yet it’s so heavy.
I’ll be there for you until my bones turn to dust, I shouldn’t have to say how betrayal hurts so much.
I need to isolate.

The suns still asleep, as I lay awake.
My company is the lonely moon, so lovely her face.
Melancholy, I wonder why she’s so sad.
Can I make you smile?
Let me wipe the tears from your face and enjoy your company.
We can sit in silence and let our eyes spill our secrets.
Tell me your fears, dreams and wishes.
Maybe then you won’t be so sad.
Shine for me my love.

My girl.
She doesn’t do love,
She loves me when I’m ****** up.
She taps me on the shoulder,
She told me, I hate it when you’re sober.

Whispering in my ear.
Let’s just get together one last time for old times sake.
I kiss her, taste her; knowing it may be my last mistake.
She drives me wild, even if it may **** me one day.
She comes and goes as she pleases.
I use to hate having her away.

Dull my senses, slurred speech. I’m the cadaver, she’s a leech.
I swore I couldn’t live without her.
I hope I don’t drown and find myself in her wild embrace.
Teach me how to love myself so I don’t give in to her beautiful face.

My girl, she loves me when I’m weak.