Though* life has given me lemons
I have used them wrongly.
Though life is a blessing it can also be a curse.
Though I feel sad I will try and appreciate life
itself.
Though I am more negative than positive I never intended on being that way.
But through all of these harsh feelings
I kept going.
No more grudges.
No more negativity.
No more curses.
One thing I can say through all of this confusion is
**I will make a positive outcome this I promise.

At first everything seems so sweet
then life hits and that's when it becomes sour.
You got what you wanted a broken heart in your
hand and you just squeeze whenever you feel like it.
That's people for you.

Bipolar.
In a few short ways it can be described as
insane,
overdramatic, and
taking everything way too seriously.  
It controls your brain.
Makes you confused as hell.
Not knowing what to do is even worse.
Bipolar disorder takes a hold of your life
and uses it wherever and whenever it can.
Bipolar disorder gets to your head.
Its literal hell,
unless you do something about it.
No matter how much you wish it would just go away
but it wont and that is the hardest part about it.
Its an emotional train wreck.

People have a way of swallowing me up
with out me even realizing it.
I have to change my life
look straight ahead and not side to side.

Love what a funny little game
we choose to play.
Why do we continually play it?
Well because in the end we feel as if we will win.
Which is not always the case.

Beaming bright from the sky
galaxies away
stars that shine all the way through
its so beautiful.

I can't even save myself
so in reality I don't expect
you to save me.

Pour me another drink.
Im tired of this life.
Everything has gone to a pile of ****.
Bartender will you listen to my whines?
Bartender what time will you be closing?
I already see the sun shining through the ***** glass windows.
I dont want to leave.
Life for me is misery right now.
Ive felt like ive been driving on a dirt road for too long.
Its time for me to go
I repeat in my head as I stumbled out into the world to
face another blurry day.