hello satisfaction
where the **** are you

where are you
and how did you come into my life
you vanilla candle dream
you lovely acre of midsummer land
heavenly fairylight daydream girl
glow of firefly **** and acorn heart
you are the apex of august
you are my solstice
the darkening leaves
gracing the ground
she is the red and golden aura  
of the love i feel for her

My world is crashing down
here it is my home is torn from my grasp
my summer life is far away
without an opportunity to get her back  
im heartbroken
utterly shattered
in everyway I havve no idea what to do
all with one email and alone

and here it is my world is ripped in one piece of paper
1.94 is the number to define me now
my dreams of the future slipping away
pulled away by a digit
my art school hopes are dashed

and here it is empty again
left alone and finally i am so hurt there is nothing
i can do but sit and die

and above all i ffeel like im losing him
my best friend and I miss him
i cant believe how hurt i feel
i wish he was with me
and i wish i wasnt hurt

Have you ever peeled a lemon like an orange
and dissected it piece by piece
and let the sour juice spread on your tongue
making your lips pucker

Have you ever licked the blunt edge of a knife
and thought what if it cuts my lips in lavish streaks
lending a hand in
tearing up my insides  

Have you ever snorted a line of pepper
just for the hell of it
to let it rip up my nose and sneeze until I cough up blood
I haven't...

I haven't sneezed since 1943

Like a wilted plant I was caught in a ceramic *** painted like a spider web
You were my love and the band of my existence
Saying that isn't enough when I mean to say you were a ballet dancer
and a poppy seed bagel and a brand new bottle of nail polish
a champion of industry and and unsharpened pencil

I have a picture we took together
its your blurry childhood hand snatching at the camera
I clicked the button and flash there it was
a stuck moment in time
a time of playful zoo days and class field trips

Together we were a couple of culture shock cuties and sadgirl themes
making a red wine grin

You were a love and You were my artist but your friend caught my eye

hugs me warm
so beautiful and hot
kisses my head leaving me pretty
left me sitting happy head rested on my shoulder
s o loving
making me see streaks
and electric violet lines

your body is beautiful
so so pretty
coveted by the boys
the ***** ones
sharks
who devour the smell of blood in the water
the ones who thrive off the smell of their prey

baby we should cuddle
so so warm
and extra pretty
but I feel ***** ***** *****
because you have extra love baby
just for me me me
begging me for a little bit moremore more

lovely lovely
can I have a taste of the
sweet nectar
a little little bit baby
youre so pretty
a body so fine fine fine

its all a ******* twisted lie
to get your rocks off before you take a dive and ask a different girl
to prom